That’s why it’s always a bit unsettling when there is no check-in. In early days. It’s either because people don’t check in regularly and it is normal. Or it is not. Sounds maybe a bit ‘controlletti’ but in accountability language we can frame it more positively.
Keep coming back 
63 days sober today.
Got this 2 month coin at AA last night. I carried the 30 day coin in my pocket everywhere I went until I got this to replace it. I will carry this until I get my 90 day coin! One day at a time.
Belated Congratulations on your 10 days sober Gen
Great job!!
I agree.
But i hate posting these low numbers. And I am ashamed of it. Right now my new strategy to diving into void doesn’t work already.
I am exhausted and annoyed of work situation this evening again. And if I come down my heart is beating to fast.
Thinking about having a swim.
Don’t know.
Update.
I finally deleted Instagram and TikTok. The amount of time I wasted on both Apps was insane. Not healthy at all. I deactivated both but went back in pretty fast because of the pressure of coworkers/friends. Silly right?
They kept on asking “Why? But it’s fun! Come on join us again!”
Does this sound familiar?
Same behavior as with alcohol and when I friendly decline having a glass. Same pressure.
Well, when I say no it’s no.
Same as with those Apps. It’s a no now.
I can understand this. I have a lot of anger about my work atm I feel I cannot change. But this feeling won’t kill me. These feelings won’t kill you. They rush through your body and they will cease in their intensity. Drinking will only bottle them up to erupt later with more intensity.
And with every situation you made it through sober, you can tap yourself on your shoulder and say: look at me. I made it. And if you don’t feel it. We will do it for you.
140 
chilling watching pitch perfect
Pain almost hospital bad 
Happy sober Tuesday everyone
This! I’m on day 1 today for this addiction. I wasted so much time in the time that I have those accounts on Instagram and TikTok. It’s proven that TikTok lowers your attention span and I feel it. And the constant ick to scroll on and on chasing this dopamine kick.
Huge huge congrats on hitting one year 
Hey, happy 500
And congrats on your promotion too
@RosaCanDo thank you so much Rosa 
@Soberbilly I dont mind the veering at all, I do have this diagnosis and experience all of those listed symptoms, but I’ve never had any trauma-focused therapy, even though it’s been recommended by psychiatrists that my doctors refer me, they never have. I have heard a lot about the success of EMDR in the audiobook of The Body Keeps The Score, perhaps it is time to make a formal request that my doctor refers me, thanks for the nudge 
974 days no alcohol.
439 days no cocaine.
61 days no vape.
2 days no binge-eating.
I slept well last night, I felt rested when I properly woke up, for the first time in a long time. When I opened my curtains the sky was bright and it put me in a good mood. I did my morning routine and my morning walk, sat by the pond a while, then the clouds rolled in so I headed home. I did a task this afternoon, that I’ve been putting off for a while, and I felt accomplished and my hallway is now clear. I’ve got a stack of boxes to take to the garage when it’s dry outside, then there will be space in the spare room too. It has rained all afternoon so I really didn’t feel like doing my walk in it, but that’s what I invested in my waterproof jacket for, so I’ve just done it, and now I’m here, relaxing in candlelight. I’ve done my meditations, I also did one of yesterday’s again because I was very restless when I did it yesterday. I haven’t felt as emotional today, what I feel most is acceptance. I got my blood test results back, and they are the best they’ve ever been! My Testosterone is slightly below the lower end of the range it should be, so I may or may not contact the Endocrinolgy team at the Gender Clinic about that, but it can be a hassle getting the doctors to email me a pdf version of my results, so I’ll think about it.
Day 41,
The tall handsome man I have been texting but wasn’t planning on going on a date with ended up being very intriguing! I asked him out and I’m waiting to hear back from him. I’m trying to temper my expectations but he is a catch! He’s about 7 years older than me and I’m wondering why he’s single however let me not self sabotage with my suspicious, distrustful nature. We are just meeting for the first time and who knows how that will go. Patience and playing your cards right pays off when it comes to romance guys.
Was going to have another date today with this person this evening but he saw me at the gym today and realized that I look better in person than I do in my photos. I could see the insecurity written on his face and later he tells me he wants to cancel the date. If he thinks I’m out of his league, then I’m certainly out of his league. A shame, I thought he was cute. Oh well, his self confidence issues have nothing to do with me.
Good night everyone!
Absolutely chocked with the cold on my second day here but hay ho just march on i suppose
If you drink again, try being really conscious. So if you go to open a drink, slow it down. Ask yourself why am i wanting this drink, how am i feeling, what does this taste like, what am i feeljng whilst drinking, really be conscious, what does it taste like, how does it make me feel, how do you feel the next day, how is my mood, are you treating others a certain way, unpacking it all. If you want another one after, go through the process again and again. Do this each time you drink, being honest with yourself. See where it leads you.
For me, it lead to be seeing alcohol as being an escape from myself, from what i was feeling, an avoidance of feeling those painful feelings. i can see by going through that process whilst i drank it actually helped me to sit with difficult feelings and process them without the need for alcohol and drugs. Its like you realise you dont need it anymore, you just want to be with yourself to work through it all.
Anyways just another option to try. I think i did it for a few weeks before it worked for me. And lots of praying and coming on here too. And telling people to help remove the shame/secret.
375…i wish i had someone to make me a cuppa, give me a cuddle, and carry me out of bed. Not feeling the joy atm.
Its feeling like society is being programmed to ask if we are ok but then to call people toxic who are lacking joy in their life aka feeling a little depressed.
I hope you all have a great day, dont mind my mood 
Good for you! I’m convinced that these apps are dreadful for mental health. Who wants to see some plastic version of someone’s life anyway? Social media makes liars out of all of us. This forum is far more real and interesting than any instagram account.
Happy Tuesday! A nice 80 degree day here.
Day 5. Well, talk about irony. First, thanks all for the encouragement about talking to my husband. I haven’t said much about his situation because it’s his to tell (or not). However, we’ve been together for 30+ years and have gone from college partiers, to regular drinkers, to high functioning alcoholics. Together.
So part of my apprehension about talking to him was the worry that he wouldn’t think I was “that bad” or wouldn’t see that he also had alcohol issues, etc.
When he got home, I asked how the visit with his family went (to put off The Talk). Literally the first words out of his mouth were, “Yeah, I’ve totally got to stop drinking for a while.”
Totally did NOT see that coming!! He had a bad incident on Sat night. So now we are going to be working on being sober together. Much different conversation than I had planned.
We need to have a much longer talk about plans, strategies and what this all means, but he was exhausted. Sorry to be so long-winded, but, wow!
Some great advice there thanks. Notcfeeling great myself but itll come good i hope 
