Checking in day 350 free from weed and alcohol. Countdown to one whole fucking year sober. I have a healthy fear that one bad choice can lead me to lose all my forward progress. I must remain committed to recovery.
I hope i dont get milestone jitters
Amazing! Keep focused on ODAAT and you will continue to do awesome things.
One year jitters are a legit phenomenon and have tripped some people up.
Keep up that healthy fear and you should be just fine. 
Iām so excited for you CJ.
Thatās one milestone that did not give me jitters at all. Many others did. But not that one.
Iām grateful to predict this is going to be the best 2 weeks of your life. Iām so proud of you. Itās been a pleasure and and honor watching you grow and find your freedom. Iām grateful youāre here.
You know we got your back.
Enjoy these 2 weeks to the fullest.
Thatās a pretty cool observation Twizz. I wasnāt sure where you were going with that at the beginning. Iāve seen that too. We are not missing out on anything. It takes a little while to get there. And I think itās a huge realization.
Good for you.
Oh. And congrats on 563 
Day 3 no weed
Day 163 no alcohol
I feel great
today i would like to be more selfless
Iām going to focus on the wifey and others as they come around
Day 197 alcoholfree
Day 5 social media free
I did 2 sets of laundry and made a decent meal. I have 3 bananas that literally scream to be eaten haha so I think Iāll bake a banana bread later.
I donāt have much flour any more so thatās going to beā¦letās sayā¦exciting haha.
I wonāt lie, I badly crave TikTok today. It was okay yesterday but today? Unbelievable how strong the urge is. Instagram not at all although a coworker married and I kinda wanna see the pictures.
I wonāt create another account for TikTok because I know the first 1-2 weeks are difficult. It wonāt help me to go back. Iāll waste my time again and I donāt want to let this happen.
I hope youāre having a beautiful sober sunday friends, stay strong 
Congratulations on 69 days sober
Doing the check in thing cause Iām
Slacking
Monday I played my show, and it was a disappointment, so after some discussion I decided to leave the group, amicably, it hits weird though, Iāve been fired from hired sessions and live acts for my stupidity, but something I built falling apart kinda disappointed me. But it was for the best my vision for the music Vs theirs was totally different it was losing its luster playing started feeling like a Chore. So no hard feelings were all still in touch.
But one door closed and about 20 opened. Been working on a new album with my other group, and itās coming together nicely just on a pause as our drummer is practicing RamadĆ”n, and he wants to wait till itās over to be at full focus
I got two potential hired gigs, one in NY and one in KY, both for large festivals. Just trying to work on details and such,
Other than that, Iāve been well, works good, even tried the local dating scene, met a lot of nice people, and I was super honest, Iām a busy dude, so if Iām not answering itās not cause Iām ignoring you, itās cause Iām
Probably working on something most some are like meh I need someone on top of me all the time, others are like cool, I respect that. I made the mistake of rushing into relationships too many times to end up in a shitty situation at the end, Iām a project, I know that letās take our time and see how this goes, Iād rather unconditionally be loved by one vs adored by many. New apartment looking like home to me. I need my space Yano roommates are great but eh, it gets old after a while
Happy to see you all checking in, doing well and making a go of sobriety it looks good on you
Thankyou I didnāt think Iād make it this far !
Glad I have.
Congrats to you also on your 1200 days 
Know Thyself
So I am going into 12 days Solar Return before and after.
Today had a lot to learn and test myself. Also had strong provocation to drink, but I reminded to myself - I am on the Path and itās just makes purpose by itself.
As Jordan Peterson talked on 12 Rules for Life: An Antidote to Chaos - there is a Chaos - Darkness and We creating that Antidote by ourselves / more precisely / - Through ourselves - releasing that light into this chaos and darkness. We have to live our life - not just subsist - Live Life and see that itās much bigger than we imagined before - it opens to us when we are ready.
Checking in on Day 427
Iām checking in. Day 191
Checking in on day 190! Still one day at a time. Ups and downs.
Although the vacation day was good, I am sad, as my parentsā cat āKnieselā died today with 15 years. He will be dearly missed 
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Iām sorry. Losing a pet is awful. Congrats on your sober time!
So just finished my third meeting this week feel
Like everyday gets that little bit better Iām willing to go to any lengths to get sober and thatās the key I hope everyone is having a good day
Really loving this number! Way to go!
Congratulations on ur 1 week 
proud of you!
Wow thats a powerful observation! Im glad u were able to āseeā things differently and change that craving moment for gratitude and empathy towards those still suffering.
