Skin hurts… You know 
Head is aching, throat, nose and lungs are burning and I am very cold.
My head doesn’t realy work, had crazy half awake dreams tonight and saw some rings of light.
I am back home…
The floor renovation went super beautiful!
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Haha love it
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Day 68 AF
Getting ready for church.
Got to go out and feed the chickens.
Have a great Sunday everyone!
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Day 978
Uncharacteristically enthusiastic about cleaning today. Cleaned the front of cupboards, appliances, etc in the kitchen and the whole room looks lighter. Still totally on top on work and ate well and went for a run. Hope for a good week next week.
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…1850…how old am I? I had to take a picture of something with my phone so i could enlarge it read it days old…it was bound to happen some time
Stay sober friends!
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Sober Springtime!! EVEN BETTER.
Have a great day everyone 
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Cueball…if you are at 68…that means today is 69 days sober for me.
This morning in mn…there is snow on ground!! Not for long and sure is clean looking
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I can hardly believe I’ve been alcohol free for 69 days. Im drinking coffee now… Gonna get up and clean a little. I always like to see how much dog hair i can vacuum up off the rugs.
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Hello friends. Checking in on day 674. Moving a bit slow this morning.
Congratulations on 69 days @Markjackson!
@Wakikki I am sorry you are feeling down. This too will pass. I hope you feel better soon.
@Juli1 Wishing you a speedy recovery from covid. Sounds awful 
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Gute Besserung wünsche ich dir! I didn’t like the half dead phase. Completely dead in bed was okay but in between sucked. 
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Thank you ice bear. Much appreciated!!
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Late yesterday evening my mom sent me a nasty text picking a fight and being emotionally manipulative. I have a long unhealthy relationship with my parents - they are both in active addiction to alcohol and/or pills, and my mom is narcissistic and I suspect borderline. They became emotionally and verbally abusive when they stopped being able to control me. Anyway, we’ve gone for years without communicating and I’ve always struggled with how to have them in my life. It’s really hard to cut them off when I don’t have any siblings or other family. Recently (a few months ago) I reached out to them again. They are in their seventies and I’m trying to rescue what little time we have left. Things had been going well until I got this text last night and I suspect my mom was under the influence when she sent it as parts of it don’t make sense.
You would think I would have learned by now, but somehow it still shocked me. I’m angry but also so sad that it has to be like this. So much time has already been missed but if they can’t treat me with respect I don’t think I can have them in my life at all. I’m also scared of how this ends — it’s only going to get worse and my mom is going to become more crazy.
Anyway I’m feeling really sad and it just feels like there’s so much sadness and grief surrounding me and in my heart. I try to find joy but I keep getting pulled down. I want to be strong but am I strong enough? The answer might be no, that’s just a fact. I don’t want to end up crazy and mean like her.
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Checking in Day 563 
I thought I’d share my experience today.
Usually I walk past this drinking venue at the end of my road everyday, some days I don’t even notice it anymore others I just look without really looking but when the sun’s out and the weather being a huge trigger for me the last few times I walked past and hated myself I couldn’t be there, thought of all the ways maybe I could … thinking I’m missing out.
Well today the sun is out, I’m craving and as I’m getting closer walking toward the venue, senses and eyes peeled to what I think I’m missing looking on at the people outside on the benches and my eyes seen something different this time. I seen people who looked so unwell physically and in their eyes pure sadness. I was not expecting this but I realised deeply that I’m not missing out on anything, Im grateful I know of my addiction and Alcoholism so I have that chance to help myself.
Tears in my eyes for those I walked past, said a prayer for those all over the world still suffering today and for all of us here.
Thank you for being with me through my recovery.
Thank you universe for showing me what I could not see when I usually walk past this venue and think I’m missing out.
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My maths is terrible and I usually take people’s well earned days away but today is 5 years for you ?
Apologies if I have short changed you for some days 
but I’m sure it’s 5 years so a huge congrats to you 
Edit : I may be 25 days late 
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Hey gal! That is a very difficult situation. I’m so sorry you were dealt that hand. One thing to consider? Your mom may wake up hungover not even remembering texting you. And she will have a little surprise when she sees what she texted last night. Alcoholism is such a shitty disease/condition. You are rocking your recovery. Be proud.
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I usually end up relapsing day 3 but I am grateful for I stayed sober. Started Day 4 with a nice walk in nature and also slept well. Yesterday I craved for about 20 minutes around 4:00, so today I will do my yoga session at that time. 
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Thank you @LeeHawk that is a good perspective. I appreciate your kindness 
when I was using I probably would have shot back an angry text. Now I can make a different choice.
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Thank you for sharing this
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I hit my 5 years last month! Pretty good math on your part.
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I thought I hadnt missed your 5 years but wanted to double make sure 
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