No B-Day wil be April 23 
Just preparing for Solar Return 
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Checking in
Day 428
Morning TS fam!! Hope everyone is doing well for a Monday! I forgot to do my weekly checkin over the weekend so will do it now.
Recovery wise - I have upped my recovery related stuff every morning but am still experiencing using dreams (probably 3x a week). Not overly concerned about them tho. Every morning I do my daily NA reading, my daily Jesus Calling reading, go on my Youversion Bible app, pray, do a quick morning meditation with some deep breathing and then begin my day. It does help! I do have to get back to my journalling bcuz last week I barely did any. But for the most part, Im definitly putting more energy into my recovery 
Health - Had alot of moments of emotional eating this past week bcuz its been an emotionally heightened week. Its like when im already upset, the last thing I want to do is focus hard on refraining from emotional eating. Im already tapped for energy as it is bcuz im upset. So trying to be calm and steer away from food to cope is tough (but not impossible). Im back to working out and eating better as of today.
This week overall was okay but after having that huge blow out of mine last Wed, it made me realize some things about myself and what I need to manage my emotions. Im currently working on removing fear and worry from my life. Its come up alot lately in certain areas. So focusing on faith rather than fear has been a daily thing for me. Other than that, Iām just pushing forward each day in recovery, adding up that clean time!! Hope everyone has an addiction free day!
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Day 198 alcoholfree
Day 6 social media free
I still have the urge to scroll through TikTok 
Meh. Just a few more days Sabrina.
I focus on everything Space right now to beat that desire and to be distracted. Sad that we still canāt travel with Lightspeed or Warp lol, everything takes suuuch a long time until you see results 
Iām on my way home already, a coworker offered me that I can go now because she stays til 5pm anyway 
I planned to clean the floors when Iām home but I think Iāll do that tomorrow or the next days. Not today.
@Juli1 I wish you a speedy recovery 
Be gentle with yourself now. Itās all gonna be good.
I hope youāre having a beautiful sober day friends, stay strong 
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Day 4 no weed
Day 164 alcohol free
Feeling blessed but a bit jumbled
I might move 
so thatās fun but itās still a bit complicated
ODAAT
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Checking in on day 352.
Why is there always so much housework to do? Iāve been on the go all day, I havenāt even done my crossword puzzle yet.
I saw an oily puddle when I was out collecting my daughter from school and got pretty mesmerised by it.
Iāve also recently realised that I see myself as non-binary. I was filling out a questionnaire and ticked that box for the first time yesterday.
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Day 5
Latenight checkin, sober, no cravings.
Suffering from Covidā¦
Just had some ice made of frozen mango and some soja skyr that cooled my throught.
Just noticed that I should have this kind of ice-cream more often. I added a smaller food processor to my kitchen tools, that is perfect for one portion.
Much love 
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I hope you feel better soon! 
You will need lots of rest for sure.
Iām glad you were able to find something to soothe your throat.
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I feel as though I could have written this post.
I relate to the housework and the puddle being mesmerizing and also the enby bit.
Whew the ways I feel connected in this world sometimes amaze me 
Hope you find a way to lessen the house chores. And if so, share the secret 
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146 chilling watching transformers
Happy sober Monday everyone
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Midday checkin. Have a migraine and am about to take a nap to see if it will go away.
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@Mno Iām sorry your Grandad and family went through that
@Twizzlers thank you š©µ
@Postivechanges welcome
@Jasty2 thank you š©µ I will, because I wonāt stop trying, hopefully one day soon though 
@Markjackson congrats on 70 days 
980 days no alcohol.
445 days no cocaine.
67 days no vape.
TW: Death.
I woke earlyish, did my morning routine, then called my GP surgery to book a callback with a doctor. I did my morning walk then some reading on here. The Dr called, he said Iām on all the maximum doses of my meds so he canāt increase them. I told him Iām struggling with anxiety and depression still, and flashbacks and nightmares related to the traumatic experiences Iāve had. I said I had heard a lot of success stories from EMDR therapy, he said GPs canāt refer to specialist therapies like that, so he has to refer me to the psychiatry service for them to decide what to do with me, he said heād do it as an urgent referral. Well, he most definitely did, as someone called me about an hour later to do a formal assessment! However, when she asked how I was, and I said today was a difficult day and explained why (the anniversary of my mumās death, who passed away when I was 8), she said sheād contact me again in the next few days. We had a brief chat, which felt like a risk assessment, and I understand they have a duty of care to do that, and I will hope to hear from her again soon.
Today has just been a mess since then. Iāve binged worse than I have been bingeing lately, but not too much sugary stuff. Iāve watched some TV, and now Iām here checking in, then hopefully Iāll be able to sleep.
I hate how this day never gets any easier, and how it can feel like it has just happened all over again. I still have vivid flashbacks of getting dropped off from my friendās, who had locked me in her nans garage the whole time I was there, and when I got home my auntie and nan came rushing out to stop me from going inside even though I wanted āto watch my mumās soul going up to heavenā and I desperately wanted to hold her but they just wouldnāt let me, and it felt like I had died too, gah, Iām suffocating with repressed feelings. I wasnāt allowed to grieve back then, so I never really have, and donāt know how to now. Iāll leave it there.
š©µ
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There it is
Congratulations on you hundred ODAATs Karen.
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Congrats on the 100!! 
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Idk what to say except that u deserved that time with ur mom. They shouldve respected ur wishes and not held u back. I feel for u friend. My heart goes out to you. Im so sorry ur having to relive this over n over. Sending big, BIG virtual hugs ur way
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Congratulations 
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Just checking in guys. Had a pretty decent day. Went to a new meeting tonight the people were cool and meets 7 days a week so plenty of opportunity to get there. I think I might have finally found my home group 
. I was the only new person there, and turns out they were having a party to celebrate the 1 year anniversary of their new place. Iām sure they were thinking to themselves, this son of a bitch is only here for the free pizza 
. I rolled out right after the meeting to let them do their thing, but Iāll definitely go back. Have a great night guys 
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Day 94 (technically, but I havenāt slept and its 4 am)
Do you guys remember that life lesson I learned a few weeks back about leaving my work to the very last minute and how doing that leads to me losing work and money? Nah, me either.
The good news is that Iāve learned the exact same lesson just now. Again.
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