Oh babe im so sorry you are not finding relief from your physical and mental pain.
Drinking will not make the shit go away. It will make it worse! You know this deep inside but that fucking addict is twisting it around. You can survive this.
Are you able to take to a doctor about pain management? Watch something funny - ive found it instantly lifts my mood and my pain is less noticeable. Check out the Make Me Laugh. Tell me a joke thread — just to get you started
The point is that you are siber - you are early in your sobriety si please give it time. Things will get better but you have to put in the work.
Can you log onto an online meeting? Can someone come over and keep you company. Make a phone call? You are not aline in this.
Please do not look for answers in the bottle - you will not find any there.
