Day 1,076 clean and sober today and I fucking slept last night hell yesssss!!! The new antidepressant is still making me feel yucky physically but the sleep medication is working YAY!!! I am still tired I guess from not sleeping well for so long but I am on the right path for sure. Thank you all for the support and I apologize for not responding back to you all but I’ve seen you thank you! Have a wonderful day today I love you guys 
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Gefeliciteerd with your fixed contract 
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Checking in. Last day of work before the first five day stretch off in what seems like forever. Have a great day guys.
@Venga030 Marco welcome to the community. Keep coming back for motivation.
Don’t worry about your English, it’s probably better than some of ours that are actually from the states. 
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Hey all, checking in on day 1,074. I hope everybody has a good one!
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@SadMemeQueen I hope you feel better soon. 
@HappyDays Congratulations 
@ArtMama Whoo hoo 
@RosaCanDo Beautiful number! 
@Rebabeeba Brilliant!
@Venga030 Welome!
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Day 1016
Tomorrow my son goes for his school camp. It is two days and one night, and the stuff he has to pack for it crazy. I wanted to do it together as he needs to do it himself, but with his ADHD I wanted to check he was getting the right stuff. Everytime he went to get something he got distracted and started doing something else. He can also be very concerned about breaking the rules, and for example, when the school requested cotton shirt and trousers had a total panic attack about taking just 70% cotton ones. He mostly wears polyester jogging bottoms, so had to search and search. Or they asked to bring a daily newspaper and we only have a weekly kids one so he had a meltdown about that too. I really got quite irritated and then felt terrible about spoiling his excitement.
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Checking in sober thx to my sponsor and you friends Day 101. Missed reaching 100 days as stress piled up yesterday including forgetting drivers licence at insurance place got worse before better, did think of a drink once but pulled through an my Hun helped me think straight again 
Thanks Hun and THX HP:pray:
Ride the craves and Love Absolute will see us through 
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Well done! And congrats on 100+1!
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I know where you get that one from Owen 
. Big congrats on reaching triple digits again. Hugs and love friend.
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Thank you 
, cause I was not certain where I was heading financially 
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Sorry you are still struggling with sleeping 
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But thanks for sharing this. It’s so easy to make the excuses and then feel bad about making them…which leads to guilt/shame…lack of motivation…more excuses. Another vicious cycle. Sometimes it’s best just to push through. I never regret workouts or walking even when I feel like I’m too tired or depressed. Just like I never miss waking up sober, even if cravings were hella bad the night before. It feels good to stay strong. 
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Yes, we’re a colorful mix on here, I’m German as well 
Welcome to the family and to sobriety 
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I’m done today, with everything 
I’m tired and my mood dropped in the last hour. Don’t know why. Ups and downs, this is how it goes.
Damn hormones, behave you little monsters!
I’ll probably order food, I have zero energy today for anything left.
I just want to arrive at home, take a shower, eat and read here.
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Good plan! Take care of you, Sabrina.
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Hey gal! I went thru those packing lists with my kids back in the day. The lists can become a bit ridiculous. And I got frustrated as hell. My daughter pitching fits about the most piddly items. I hope your son has a ball!
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Love back to you Bud, thx fellow traveller 
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Checking in with 26 days sober. I just wanted to share my thoughts this morning that recovery so far has been HARD. I am SO glad I’m not drinking because I know exactly where that leads, and my heart has been so full with gratitude for the support from this forum and helping me get through a potential relapse. But damn if I don’t wake up every day exhausted with a twitching eyelid and a headache and no energy and all these emotions that are hitting me that I can’t escape from anymore. I feel like I really need to quit my horrible job but then I question whether I should be making any big decision as I have very little trust in myself. Or what if not quitting is actually the wrong decision, I don’t know! My head hurts so bad I can’t think well.
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Rosa…youre speaking my mind. I dont want to avoid the situation. I want to face it, and pass. And grow in courage so that the next time I do it with even more confidence and certainty.
I have a really tricky weekend coming up as its a good friends birthday and the celebration is happening at our house. I know there are going to questions from her about me not drinking. Ive rehearsed the answers in my head. I have a plan. I’ve been keeping a journal, I have this community. If that turns out not to be enough I will have to start thinking about making some really tough decisions.
Btw checking in day 17…examining my feelings around this made me face up to some real bullshit lurking within, like feeling apologetic about not wanting to drink, as though I am somehow ruining their evening. That needs to go…I’m done with that
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