Oh babe im so sorry you are not finding relief from your physical and mental pain.
Drinking will not make the shit go away. It will make it worse! You know this deep inside but that fucking addict is twisting it around. You can survive this.
Are you able to take to a doctor about pain management? Watch something funny - ive found it instantly lifts my mood and my pain is less noticeable. Check out the Make Me Laugh. Tell me a joke thread — just to get you started
The point is that you are siber - you are early in your sobriety si please give it time. Things will get better but you have to put in the work.
Can you log onto an online meeting? Can someone come over and keep you company. Make a phone call? You are not aline in this.
Please do not look for answers in the bottle - you will not find any there.
Ah mate, you’ve been sober for 4 years and understand how good that feels. I relapsed after about 4 months and I’m back up to 6.5 now. I feel stronger for knowing I just don’t like alcohol. The slip just made that more obvious. Focus on what you’ve achieved and what you didn’t like about drinking when you relapsed. And keep saying ‘hi’ here for support. You got this.
Im glad u checked in Karen. Im so sorry to hear that ur in SO much physical and emotional pain. Is there anything healthy u can do that helps to relieve some of this pain? Im not sure what coulf work for u
Things may not be great in ur world right now but the cycle will continue if u pick up a drink. U have greater chances of feeling better if ur sober. It may take some time but as long as u stay on this path of sobriety, ull have a chance of this happening.
Can you make plans with someone or plan a few activities for urself to do to keep u occupied? Might make not drinking abit easier.
So sorry Karen, and well done for checking in. I do understand wanting to take the pain away but it will just be a distraction and delaying/compounding the pain. How are you feeling now?
30 days AF. I don’t feel much like celebrating and I still have my chip from the first time. Today my mood has been and I’ve been thinking a lot about how “nice” it would be to have a drink. We went to have a (delicious) Thai food lunch today and drove by an Irish pub and I mourned that I’ll never be able to have fun in a pub again. I know this is diseased thinking. I know I’d have a couple drinks and we’d have fun and then I’d go home and drink myself into oblivion, waking up at 3am feeling sick and ashamed. No thank you!
Thanks to everyone who gave me advice about my sponsor. I might try to have a convo this week about needs but I’m dreading it. Anyway I hope everyone is having a great sober weekend . I’m proud of the folks who’ve been in situations with alcohol and protected themselves and their boundaries. That takes a lot of courage and strength
idk. nothing wrong really, there is nothing going through my head at the moment except I want to be dead. sometimes I just get these moments where it takes everything in me to not self harm or off myself. i have to physically sit on my hands because I feel so out of control that I don’t know what I’ll do in the next minute. I’m so tired of fighting this.
I’m so sorry that you feel this way – and please note that self harm is an addiction and you are here to try and better yourself. Refraining from self harm is just as exhausting and takes the same will power as trying not to score or take the next drink.
You are so young and have so much to LIVE for. I am so sad to hear your words and want to give you a huge hug.
Are you recovered from the operation? Maybe spending so much time alone recovering has gotten these voices a chance to get louder. Are you able to call on your friend that helped you that night you were having trouble sleeping? Get into socializing - be it over phone / here on the threads / in real life … can you open up the windows and let in the fresh air? Go for a walk - stimulate your senses?
Everyone has a different way of getting out of self harm. It takes time and a reset of your mind. Finding love in yourself and your surroundings. Are you able to talk with someone (a therapist - can’t remember if you already are)?
I am sending you so much love my friend - hoping that you do find the strength to fight this!
Isn’t it funny that we “mourn” putting poison in our bodies? How we still crave this addiction and romanticize it when it did nothing but FUCK us up in every way possible. You are kicking ass and I hope that you continue to do so. Hey - we can still go out dancing and to the pub - just enjoy a different beverage and come out with our wits intact
Wishing you luck with having the talk and finding a sponsor that fits your needs.
You do belong here. Speaking for myself and probably everyone else…we are all fighting an ugly part of our lives we wish we could eliminate. Sometimes all I can do is know I am so much better not continuing down the same road I have been on.
I care you are here. Howdy and take it 1 moment at a time:bouquet:
I’m still pretty much stuck on the couch from surgery, I can’t do anything then the bare minimum like getting up to get food or a drink. I’m currently talking with a few people online trying to connect and hopefully make friend
Yeah - I had a hunch that the recovery from the surgery would have you more isolated than usual.
I am here - you can PM if you’d like to chat. You can scroll the threads and get some laughs on the Make Me Laugh. Tell me a joke or the Meme Wars 73 No Politics Please thread. I’m sure many more fun threads here.
Can a friend come over and hang with you while you stay on the couch? Make sure you are getting some fresh air into your room. I know when I’m down and stay in bed and don’t open window or curtain that my mind can spiral very quickly - - small changes make a huge difference.
Much love my friend - you will recover and we are here for you!
Hey, we understand. I know for myself personally my self harm turned into self harm in the form of substance abuse.
We are here for you, and you are not alone
This post I just read by @Butterflymoonwoman is also great for you to understand that self harm is not so different from dealing with other addictions and you need to work on and respect your body…
425 days.
I’m taking a sick day from work today, I’ve had a few days on Prozac, and it’s making me feel super wonky tbh. I’m pretty sensitive to medication, I’m hoping I adjust soon enough. Can anyone else offer any advice on how long it takes to adjust initially?
Not complaining though, if it can drag me out of how shitty intense depressive episodes feel, I’ll deal with the side effects for a while.
Have a great day guys
and I’ve been thinking a lot about how “nice” it would be to have a drink. We went to have a (delicious) Thai food lunch today and drove by an Irish pub and I mourned that I’ll never be able to have fun in a pub again. I know this is diseased thinking. I know I’d have a couple drinks and we’d have fun and then I’d go home and drink myself into oblivion, waking up at 3am feeling sick and ashamed. No thank you!
I’m so sorry that you feel this way – and please note that self harm is an addiction and you are here to try and better yourself. Refraining from self harm is just as exhausting and takes the same will power as trying not to score or take the next drink.
