Checking in on day 689. I went to the psychiatrist today and the decision is to start cycling off my current antidepressants because they’re wreaking havoc on my blood pressure. I am a bit nervous about that. I have a bunch of deadlines coming up so I will start the process in a week or so. Hope everyone is doing well today.
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Have as good a day as you all can friends. Sober and clean. Love.
Back to work. Glad to wake up in a tidied up apartment. When my home’s a mess and I’m down already it makes it so much worse. As would coming home to a pigsty do. And the opposite is also true. Let’s do this. On the sober road with you all. X
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Was not about to share this nor I had any intention to talk about, but since this information can be useful.
Had it all my life and had especially bad one spot in the middle of my forehead. It felt painful many times, like a little bit inflamed. Especially after drinking it gets worse.
I healed it like a miracle in one week with water ionizer. Used the acidic one in that spot. Just put something like cotton pad soaked in that acidic water and give some time. Worked like wonders!
About more than 40 years ago scientist did experiments in Tashkent. They created a lot of acidic water while experimenting and made studies for water pipe corosion used for researching samples of oil. Then some drilling workers were washing themselves in that water and to all surprise they noticed that all of their wounds and bruises, exemas and etc. were suddenly gone. Then scientists started to do other experiments with that water.
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We actually use it all the time. I said I got some flu or virus on Friday. I was gargling with that water and now going to work feeling almost recovered.
Day 7 (cigarettes)
PS. We using this one for about 15 years now.
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Checking in with 62 days AF. One week away from my labs before my doctor visit the following week. I set the appointment up when I stopped drinking, so that my lab tests could reveal if any damage done was not reversible. I have never really faced any medical issues, just physical, like arthritis. Part of me is thinking that if all looks good, I’ll probably cave and drink again. Part of me is thinking that if the labs are bad, at least I’ll have 2 1/2 months of not drinking under my belt and can try to stay sober. This stinkin” drinkin’ thinkin’ has been lingering. And I do not feel settled. Obviously. It is going to be an interesting week of mental gymnastics. Blah!!! Sucks to admit my weakness, or misdirection, or whatever. On this forum, and to myself actually. Anyway…
Take care all.
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I had to send a couple of emails out this evening about why I am not able to finish my consulting projects quickly - because I have a new full-time job. The clients are mad at me and it is stressful! At least I was honest with them. Work (new job) is pretty intense also.
In other news, I got asked to sponsor someone tonight, so I have a new sponsee!! So that’s pretty darn cool.
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I’m happy for you that you feel better with that flu 
I couldn’t find any studies about that acidic water so no evidence for me. Good that it did help you tho. Psoriasis can be caused by many things and I don’t think that my skin is the main problem. I think, in my case, it’s the gut that isn’t healthy. And I’m working on that mainly.
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I also thinking same way, but lately this totally reversing and changing. It’s like cognitive invasion where we can’t imagine doing something without that drug that in the first place we were born without need of it and never needed it before. What I learned so far, it is very important to break this cognitive illusions one by one and then we realise they all were false and we don’t really need it after all - at all. For example the big one - Relaxation. That was the hardest one to beat for me. Take for example - Socialising one, or the Taste one or any one of them - but the Relaxation one was and probably is the hardest one for me. Although the last relapses clearly shows, that probably is obvious, yet somehow still not so for me - that it is CAUSING the stress in the first place and the build up of stress through the week is indeed caused by using and craving for what we get used to. It just makes our performance worse, makes us more irritable and nervous. It takes a lot of time to fully recover in this neurological level. Brain chemistry changes. I believe it really takes more than 3 months to reprogram ourselves, although we can start to feel benefits in weeks, cravings caused by using still exists.
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There is studies but probably harder to find because everything that not goes with big pharma - not makes profit for them - are not funded, pushed, published.
Although You are right about the cause - not the symptomatic healing. We need to look deeper into our diseases and what our body tries to show for us
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@BrOKenWolf a happy belated birthday to you 
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@Juli1 great to see you are back on track, the first week is nearly in the bag now 
To our Dutch neighbours in the west: a belated Happy King’s day, hope you had a wonderful and sober celebration 
Checking in on day 126, doing good, although we nearly got hit by a lightning yesterday 
Have a good and sober day!
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Karen, you’re at a lovely sober number, please keep it going 
what you’re feeling now will pass.
If you’ve ever had a problem with alcohol, you’re very unlikely ever going to be able to moderate. I started to think along the same lines at a out 400 days sober. I’ve already mentioned here that I was on holiday with my husband when I fell into the ‘one drink won’t hurt’ trap. I thought I could moderate because I felt safe from the addiction. The only way to be safe from the addiction is to not give in to it, ever.
I learned the hard way that moderation doesn’t work. If it did work, I wouldn’t be on day 10 of my sobriety journey again. That silly notion I had led me to drinking for another 400 days approximately. Those days have brought me guilt, shame, zero self worth, rapid weight gain, amongst a whole host of other health problems. So whatever you think drinking is going to fix right now is way off the charts wrong. It’s so much easier to carry on being sober than it is to start all over again.
Take a long bath to soothe your muscles, or a nice long shower. Find ways of relaxing yourself to get you through these moments. Whatever you do, do not pick up the bottle again. There is no two ways about it, you will regret it.
Sending you love and hugs 
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Checking in sober another 24hours 4 day working week hopefully it goes quick hope everyone is well
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I absolutely agree. I first sought help for my drinking in August 2019 and got almost a couple of years sober (I wasn’t counting the days back then). I then felt it might be ok just to drink socially, which did work for a wee while, but it wasn’t all that long before it was every day with the occasional “oops, I overdid it there”. I drifted along like that for roughly 9 months before deciding I wanted to get sober again and that’s when I started using this app.
I’d love to be the type of person that has a lovely sideboard with an assortment of fine wines I can peruse from time to time, but I just can’t. The last time I made a complete fool of myself was Christmas Day 2021, when I had enjoyed some sparkling wine with lunch, had a lovely day with the kids opening presents etc and then I thought, “oh, I’ll have a brandy”. Next thing I remember I’m having to be helped up to my flat by a problematic boyfriend figure that I’d decided I wanted nothing to do with and having my kids get me to bed fully clothed and incoherent. Total cringe 
Nothing to stop me having a lovely sideboard, I just can’t have alcohol displayed on it! 
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Day 521
Just another day in paradise for me. Oh no, I mean work! 
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Great, now I have a Phil Collins ear worm….
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396 days, still sober. Had a few temptations presented over the weekend but stayed true
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Day 5
Morning checkin. Having such a phantom hangover, bahh! It might still be recovering from covid and the hormones.
Started this decluttering challenge and now I have to accept that I won’t finish in short time, it will take a few days I think.
Will start soon, still hanging around on couch with coffee.
Have a good day guys 
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#Day 1687 
Arrived in Spain after a 20 houres bustrip. Haven’t slept much because I sat near a family of nine people with loud voices and a 4 year old with ADHD 
But we made it! We where here at 5.30 in the morning and just now we have checked in.
Enjoying our coffee and decided to go for a small nap afterwards
Feeling tired, but looking forward to discover Spain sober
See you!!
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That Covid got you strong What hormones you mean? 
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Yap… But swimming performance is okay already 
Hormons during women’s cycle are creating different energy levels, and I am in the energy stealer phase right now. To have a positive point of view, it might already change tomorrow and it is followed by 2 or even 3 very good weeks with higher energy levels and endorphins 
Need a lot of sleep anyway and my sleep during the nights isn’t always that proper.
Thanks for asking zzz
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Day 108.
Just checking in because I need to not neglect working on my sobriety. I’m tired and stressed and have a stupid amount of work to get through this week and I honestly don’t know how I’m going to pull it off. Last night, I was up working till two in the hotel lobby while the overnight staff were watching telly.
Today I’m (barely) fuctioning on 5 hours sleep. I’m just so mad at myself for leaving things last minute yet again and putting myself in this shit situation. My editors and my other clients made it very clear how thin the ice I’m walking on is. If I can’t get my shit together soon, I’ll basically lose all my income sources. And that not an exaggeration
Yes, I did it to myself. But that doesn’t stop me from feeling frustrated over it. And I don’t even have booze as an excuse anymore.
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