Evening checkin day 83.
Setting in my car waiting to go into my AA meeting tonight. Always look forward to the meeting and the fellowship each week. I was so nervous before coming to my first meeting and now almost 3 months in I can’t wait to get here.
Have a great night everyone!
@Cjp what an awesome way to celebrate your year! 
congrats again 
@ShadowFax enjoy your hiking adventure 
@zzz feel better soon 🩵
@Andrea4 congrats on 9 months
@GenG congrats on your month
@Twizzlers I’m pleased the electrician manage to get some power back up and running, hope they will sort tye rest out asap 
sending strength 🩵 I hope tomorrow goes well
@JackBrell welcome congrats on double digits
994 days no alcohol.
459 days no cocaine.
81 days no vape.
Did all my usual stuff. Feeling more depressed than usual today, I’ve had the constant feeling of the start of a panic attack coming on. Not sure whether it’s because if I check in sober from cocaine tomorrow, it will be new recovery territory for me, as I relapsed on what should have been day 460 back in my previous attempt.
Typed that a few hours ago, feeling calmer now, after spending a few hours in candlelight.
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I am too impatient to listen audiobooks unfortunately 
I think spiritual practices are not my cup of tea but I’ll check the youtube channel you recommended when I get home. You mentioned so well that I got curious. Thanks for caring 
You got this 
I’m already daily checking your other milestones for your big milestone so I don’t miss it 
Glad your feeling calmer and thank you always for being so supportive and caring, it means so much to have you here encouraging and so caring to everyone including myself 
Thank you ! Your progress looks stunning. Congrats 
Checking in as I tuck myself into bed on day 366.
I met a friend for coffee today and we had a lovely time together. I spotted an art book in the window of a charity shop for an exhibition that I had wanted to see but missed, of some amazing figurative sculptures. It was only £7 so I treated myself to it. I can do things like that without worrying about the money as there’s so much less having to be spent on booze.
@Time2Live84 Sorry you are feeling unwell and on top of that you were without your phone (TS Support system). Hope today is better for you. Working this program together ODAAT 
@Billy85 OMG man – almost 90 days!! That’s so f**n amazing my friend. Just reflect on how much you have accomplished and grown in these days of sobriety. You ROCK my friend. We definitely do got this!
@CueBall8n9 Glad you are doing well in your sobriety – sorry about the work stress. That can really weigh you down and add up. Do you have anything lined up for after June?
@GenG congrats on your 30 days… those dreams can be wicked and I do love the phrase “addict brain throwing a tantrum” so true. Glad you were able to see the dream for what it is and are another day sober. Upwards and onwards as they say
@cwolfman13 Wow – your weekend really took on a different turn. Glad you did not let that get you down and made the most of it. So proud of you and how you handled the cookout. Glad you were well prepared with you mocktails. Doing great my friend – keep up the amazing work
@Juli1 Very happy for you – another day in the bag!!!
@KarenKW I am with you on the feeling to want to drink like a “normal” person. Knowing me, I do enjoy the taste of it too much and just keep going but try not to get drunk and that most often doesn’t work (who am I kidding – 99% of the time doesn’t work). I am also going through similar feelings my friend but finding myself coming here more and the mere thought that I am not alone is enough to keep me going. I know that getting rid of my addictions, maintaining my healthy eating habits and trying to get my endorphins up by exercising brings me out of my funk. I do hope that you are able to find something that will work for you my friend. Keep on the sober path and life will get easier. @DryIn785 – sorry you are also feeling this way — hang in there – the feeling swill get better and easier to handle. Have you checked out the movie thread here? Anything jump out? What type of movies are you into?
@CATMANCAM I can understand the nervousness of hitting a milestone you’ve relapsed at before – You are stronger this time around and we are here to support you. Enjoy your day 460 my friend and we will celebrate 461 as well .
Day 131 Alcohol and weed free
Day 546 cigarette free
Checking in – Found out today that my brothers toxic gf is joining us this weekend to celebrate my sis and her husbands bday’s (stuck in the car for 3 hours with her and spend a full day – not cool) then she was supposed to head over and stay with us this week – luckily she can’t come tonight but just found out few minutes ago.
I am blessed to be sober. Was so close to buying a pack of cigs and hitting the bottle but got called out to turn on outdoor water at my rental and it distracted me long enough to soften the urge. By the time I got home I was able to drink some kombucha and now feeling much more at ease.
Addiction is aa crazy disease. So glad that we have eachother in this journey. Stay strong my friends. We are stronger than these addictions. Much love
5months 27days no alcohol
18 days no weed
I haven’t been up to much but I feel good
I was craving alcohol and marijuana for a few days when I realized it’s not all about me. I was being selfish and using the poor me poor me pour me another drink. I was all uptight about not doing it ever again and it overwhelmed me. I was unfocused
After a few days of craving I realized I have wayyyy more reasons not to pick up. My big brother even stays clean and sober after his rock bottom so there is no reason to feel alone in this. It’s in reality that I’m definitely not aloneMy wife sold everything weed she had so if I bought weed she would have wasted money and the things for me to buy everything all over again. I would be majorly disrespecting the both of them if I pick up. Then I have all of you people and this amazing cummunity here at talking sober. A few of you amazing people have heard of quite a bit about my journey to sobriety.
I learned if I change my focus from wanting to pick up to something close or special to me helps.
There’s really no good reason for me to pick up other then getting myself messed up. I have too much to lose.
I’m still going strong. Day 206
Welp, my plans for a quiet even just took a turn for the interesting. I started dinner, turned off YouTube, and put on some Rachmaninoff. I was taking the trash out when I was stopped by a woman who knew my name and said she was my neighbor from Polk Plaza, and apartment building I lived at 3 years ago.
I kept to myself at the time because I was sober then and trying to stay that way. Up until my 50th birthday, that is. I decided to have the wrong kind of fun to celebrate. Long story short, if this is the same person I remember (she seems to have lost weight, and her hair) she relieved me of a lot of money before stealing my wallet outright.
I have no intention of interacting with her, but now she knows where I live. Only two people other than Valeo personnel know where I live and I wanted it to keep it like that. 
Don’t know how this is going to end, so keep fingers crossed. 
P.S. @JazzyS I like sci-fi and phycological thrillers. I only have Amazon Prime for now. Suggestions?
Checking in again as I go to bed. It’s a sober head on my pillow. Cravings were bad this afternoon for the first time in a long while. I just wanted to say “fuck it” and get drunk. But I didn’t. I just hope I can actually get some sleep.
Dang man - sorry you ran into someone so toxic and that they know where you live. You are stronger now and you don’t need to mind her bullshit. Hope you enjoy the rest of your evening…
Amazon prime Psychological thrillers and Sci Fi
Shows - The peripheral, Upload, Grimm (old show - incase you haven’t seen yet)
Movies - Cabin in the woods, Missing, Nope, Black Adam
Karen - sucks that the cravings are so bad. Glad you were able to say fuck it.
Try some deep breathing and also do a full body mind scan (start with your toes and go to the head - slowly contract and let go of each part slowly ie. squeeze the toes then release, then tighten feet and release and so on) while in bed. That sometimes helps me relax – Sweet peaceful sleep my friend
Yup What you buy is yours, you take it with you, it can be a pain in the ass though before I left the industry 5 years ago I needed a trailer to tow my tools and boxes to the next job.
First day in, they were pretty cool trying not to kill me, but overall good atmosphere
Hello all,
Checking in on Day 1,738 Sober!
God Bless
Damn - thats a lot of tools
Im glad new work place has a nice atmosphere. Hope that continues
Nope and Cabin in the Woods were awesome. Tried Peripheral but it starts off slow. Currently checking out Citadel, not bad.
I was actually going to start citadel tonight - glad you are enjoying.
Yes- peripheral is slow but intriguing— my brothers spoiled me and now for slow shows i watch in 1.4 speed so i can enjoy and not get bored 
I will try and think of others you may enjoy on prime 
Today is another day of intense emotion. But its coming in waves more now. I guess this is an improvement…
