Of course you got this! Nice going! 
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I have no idea but it seems like self fulfilling prophecy and when you wrote your concerns yesterday I hoped to see you checking in right after your class. Like: I need to get home to check in.
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I think it is a big issue. Well, it would be for me. I think there is a difference, itās maybe wording or language issue but for me when I read this sentence which I read often, it feels like: donāt worry. Itāll be taken care of by itself. Time will heal. It wonāt. For me it would be a big issue. And then there is the side: yeah, in this situation noone died. There is the possibility to learn from our mistakes.
No offense. Itās just my feelings popping up.
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Checking in day 243 and officially 
8 months sober. So grateful for every day of these 8 months, and sometimes itās hard to believe the difference in the person I am. Itās a good reminder that Iām growing every day despite feeling a little stuck lately- just continuing to put in the work and the benefits of Iāll keep coming, slowly but surely.
Work schedule is still wearing me down so Iām very tired today. Going to get to the gym and then have a 12 hour shift. I have had some major car problems lately, and unfortunately itās not worth fixing at this point. Car shopping tomorrow- the amount of money Iāve saved by not drinking will make for a decent chunk of a down payment!
Hope you all have a fabulous sober Friday 
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No offense taken at all. We all have our own take on these things.
Before most people get to their ābig numbersā there are bound to be bumps on the road. I call them bumps. I donāt call them failures, or anything that will demoralise the person trying to fight an addiction. I write how Iāve experienced relapses. If I didnāt believe what I write, then I donāt believe in myself either. I write what I feel like I would need to hear, because I can relate to the person that slipped up.
I prefer positive reinforcement in these situations, because the person in recovery is doing enough beating themselves up, enough guilt tripping themselves, they donāt need any help from me, or anyone else for that matter. All too often, a person that relapses loses faith in their ability to quit. I donāt want another person to feel that way, and I donāt believe it is true. So long as we breathe air we all have a chance of beating addiction.
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Thanks for your different views @Binx @JazzyS. and Franzi.
To me itās a big thing too @anon74766472ā¦
I was so sure that I want recovery overall. If I am reading my posts during the last days I canāt understand why I did it.
I still miss being able to just drink a few glasses of wine from time to time. And yesterday something inside myself told me again, that i am able and it is okay.
I know so many tools and I am aware.
But I am relapsing again and again.
And this is a big thing.
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Iāve cut out Facebook, Instagramā¦it seems to be helping my mood. Whatever works! 
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Juli, Iām glad you keep checking in. I knew I had a problem with alcohol for a long time before I even attempted to get sober. Wherever you are in this journey, you are supported. Whether you listen to our experiences and suggestions (yesterdayās posts) or not is up to you. Regardless, we are here always and want you to have what we have in recovery. And we know also that the drinking always gets worse, with ever worsening bottoms to deal with. Check out Recovery 2.0 which is an online community that blends yoga AND recovery. Rather than yoga and wine.
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Relapsing again and again before having a sober life is not uncommon. Given how recent your relapse is, it is understandable why you feel this way.
We arenāt all the same, and I certainly wasnāt belittling how big of an issue it is for you. I was merely trying to say not to give up hope, and to carry on your journey.
Maybe we canāt all support each other the right way, and Iād rather not antagonise anyone. Maybe we need to hear different things. With that in mind, Julia, I wish you the very best of luck with your sobriety journey 
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Day 370.
Iām feeling a lot better today despite my overnight sleep only being 2 hrs. I can see the tiredness in my face but Iām not feeling it too badly at all. I have used the rowing machine in my bedroom the past two mornings and Iām journaling and jotting down ideas (rather than having them swimming round my head)
My telephone appointment with the GP was really very good. It was a doctor who was unfamiliar to me but we had a really good rapport.
Iāve also been having some lovely chats with the kids.
Last night was the Kae Tempest book launch and I went with my daughter to that. It was so good! A real mother daughter bonding experience. I think she was definitely the youngest member of the audience and we were in the front row.
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Here is what happened:
I read it (and the rest of your post) and I knew you were going to relapse. And I should have said something to you and I didnāt. Iām still learning to trust my gut feeling. Iām sorry.
This one too:
Your relapse, itās all there. Please analyze these two post my friend. Itās all there. Learn. I can see it all. But itās always much easier to see it in others. We only really learn from our own mistakes.
Big hugs Juli
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This is much more tact than Iām capable of at the moment.
Sending hugs Julia.
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Stay strong Binx!! Wishing all the best for your son.
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Tomorrow will be 3 months sober. So 90 days or very close.
Had what i thought would be routine mri yesterdayā¦not so much. I nearly fainted and broke out in a cold sweat when they had to try 2 times to put iv in my arm. Im doing what i canā¦leaving the rest to a higher power than me.
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GenG, i want to express how i see a āstronger youāā¦from your earlier sobriety posts. Keep it upā¦its workingš
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Beautiful pictures!
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87 days Sober today. Been extremely tired for the last two weeksā¦ā¦ donāt know how to snap out of it. Itās the weekend! Beautiful Friday!
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Thatās awesome
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WOW Mark - thatās awesome ā 90 days is a great milestone. How are you planning to reward yourself? A gift, movie, dinnerā¦??? Possibilities are endless
Iām sorry your MRI was so tough ā Were they able to complete the test? Or do you have to try again or possibly another method?
Stay strong my friend - 
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Yeah to 902 days! Have a wonderful time on your cruise!
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