2 mo, 2 days. I’ve had so many great things happen and more than a few lousy. Interesting how I used to think drinking was the bridge between the good and the bad because it blurred the lines until nothing looked bad (except for the next day). These days it’s all on me to reconcile all the things to figure the best path forward. It’s exhausting, but I am becoming proud of the thought and labor I put into decisions. Before, the thought and labor was so exhausting and yielded nothing immediately satisfying, that I wanted to numb, to quiet my overthinking, to make it easier to relate to other people and just move on. Now I’m seeing all that thought and labor is very much me, and it’s fine. It just requires a little more patience and space for overthinking and emotions, but the wave always passes, and then I am decisive, witty, caring, and kind of awesome. I wish I’d figured this stuff out earlier. Maybe I wasn’t ready. Maybe I’m a slow learner. Maybe this is another wave of overthinking. The only definite is that I am sober today. Because of that, I know I will sort the rest out with some tears, laughs, and flair.
Totally agree! Ive now watched all her stuff on YouTube probably a dozen times and still get belly rolling laughter.
I couldnt believe how just laughing at jokes non stop got me out of my rut - was so damn greatful for the healing power of laughter and her in particular (other comedians were good but not like this for me). At that time i didnt think i would ever be “me” again and the sadness was overwhelming. I did send her a hearfelt thank you letter (corny i know) - not aure if she received.
Day 122.
I feel exhausted. Mentally. Still loopy, but no longer hyper loopy, just normal loopy. It’s really hard to focus on getting anything done, but I am trying my best. I really need a nap or something.
Hello all,
Checking in on Day 1,753 Sober. I attended an event over the weekend and there was a lot of alcohol and marijuana there. Watching people partake reminded me that it’s a personal choice to use these substances and ultimately its no one’s fault but our own. I didn’t stay that long as the people there got on my nerves pretty quick.
God Bless!
Day 1,068 clean and sober today. Had an appointment over the phone with a doctor last night about depression etc. I should be picking up my prescription sometime today. I have been off of them for a long time but this heaviness is getting really old. Have an amazing day everyone, I’m proud of you and love you guys 
800 days!!! You are awesome 
Over a year sober…That is great! I know its not easy…
Hi Joy, loved your post! Thinking wasn’t my strong point also,. I’ve said I want someone to think for me LOL. I guess that was a cry for help to HP.
We’re in this together choosing sobriety and fellowship.
Love absolute will see us through 
Ah man Michael- this is really between a rock and a hard place. I wish you luck with whatever you decide. Do know in your heart the situation is not permanent.
You are doing so well and i hope to see you continue your sobriety. Make sure you are double equipped with your tools so that you are not at the mercy of your urges.
In cases where you cant get to the gym - do excercises at home – so many ways to work out without equipment and still release the pent up tension and gain positive energy.
Sending you strength 
Thanks!! Fairly ginormous number after so many fails.
You are killing it my friend l!!! Be PROUD…perfect time to join the 100 day SOBER challenge! to get your next 100 
Praying for you buddy. I’m glad you are here Mark. I have been feeling really tired lately as well and I guess it could be attributed to some type of depression related to my job ending on 6/30.
I force myself to write down and think about all the things that I have to be thankful / grateful for in my life and especially in my sobriety.
How far do your sons live from you?
98 days sober today. Two days to go to be in triple digits.
The weather keeps changing here and my shoulder and neck have been hurting me due to a surgery that I had almost 3 years ago. Every time the pressure system changes it effects my nerve in my neck…… anyone else deal
With that?
Hey all, checking in on day 1,066. I hope everybody has a good one!
Whoo hoo! Doing amazing! 
18 days AF. This morning I woke up with a lot of anger and resentment about some stuff that happened yesterday. I caught some warning signs this morning - I could see myself getting irritated with little things because of resentment brewing underneath. So I just did a 10 minute anger meditation and really leaned in and let the feeling overwhelm me. It was very uncomfortable but it helped me release some of it and turn the rest of it into passion/energy/motivation. We’ll see how the rest of today goes, I may need to do it again. Trying to handle these things differently. It’s really hard and exhausting and takes time and space, but I can’t afford to ignore them.
Checking in. Day 220
Checking in…day 100…ODAAT!!! hope everyone is doing well and staying on thier path of sobriety!!!
Billy
Great work @Catmama23