So crazy how the universe finds ways to test you. Im so glad you sweated it out. I know that that was not easy - so very proud! 
Glad you are feeling better now 
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Hey everyone 
day freaking 68!!! Still going strong no cravings or anything life can be a bugger but happens to all of us. Overall missed everyone thought Iād pop back in hope your all doing great or the best you can feel 
love all of yāall
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Welcome and glad everything is going well so far n 68 days in bc we all know life comes with ups n downs and its up to us how we respond,and react to life. Life on life terms one day at a time. Just donāt pick up that first drink. Enjoy your journey #wdr
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Day 44
Had a nice lunch out with my mom for Motherās Day. Also, took her to the plant nursery and bought her some baby plants. Iām so grateful that the weather today was beyond gorgeous! The energy everywhere we went was very positive.
Another happy thoughtā¦the recycling gets picked up tomorrow morning, and none of the booze bottles in there are mine! 
Iām off to bed (11PM here). Hope everyone has a sober Monday Funday! 
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Checking in sober 
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Day 121.
So my shrink put me on modafinil to take for two weeks as a tolerance break from my usual ADHD meds because they kinda stopped working and she doesnāt want to raise the dose. Aaaandā¦ Iām kinda hyper now bordering on manic. Yesterday I danced by myself for an hour to old Taylor Swift songs. Now Iām jamming to Fight Song. And I only slept for like 5 hours before waking up feeling wide awake at 6.30. Like what the actual fuck?
Iām gonna give it another day or so to see if it evens outā¦ Because! Fuck, I feel weird and loopy. Making matters worseā¦ my adhd meds help even me out with emotional regulation. Thatās gone now. I feelā¦ things. I feel things a lot.
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Have as good a day as you all can friends. Sober and clean.
Having Monday off. A two day work week only ahead, including a full day training of how to deal with people with personality disorders tomorrow. Got to do some preparation for that today but thatās OK. I slept better, longer, and had no bad dreams. Feeling ready for the week. X
@Amy30 Good to see youāre taking good care of yourself Amy. Hope your feelings even out.
@DryIn785 Misery needs company right. Well done.
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@Cjp @Misokatsu
Iāve had a few significant stints of sobriety, and ALOT of relapses in the past. I think I can see myself rationalising drinking in my thoughts, and I recognise thatās how it started before. I had a few of these moments in the past were Iād like decided I was going to do it a few weeks before I actually took the leap.
I know all the reasons why thatās a fucking terrible idea, Iām actually having a bit of a mental health relapse I think, my depression had been pretty bad again as a result of working a lot and trying to juggle all the crazy mum and household tasks, plus this grief Iāve been dealing with.
I need to see someone but I donāt even have time to pick up milk from the shops half the time.
Iām just having a hard time doing it all, and I guess thatās why Iām romanticising having a drink, just to feel a sense of escaping and relaxing.
I know having a drink will make me way more depressed, I know these things. But I keep having these moments of āhow nice would a drink be?ā And āI deserve to let my hair down and have an adult moment to relax and indulgeā.
I just have to get it out, thanks for hearing me on this one. Iām just going to keep reaching out and leaning on yas cause I really need the support rn
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That right there. You absolutely need to make that time for yourself somehow. Or at some point youāll take the āeasyā way out. Thatās your mental health right there. Glad youāre here, at least being here is a little time out from the rest of your life. Big hugs. Keep coming back X
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I blinked and itās day 8 
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Day 226
I have this week off, an excellent opportunity to implement something good.
Getting up, brush teeth, training (a short 6 minute training for my back stability), making the bed, having breakfast.
Yesterday I made 5,2 km by walking, today is rest day. But the back training shall become something I do every day, even on working days. Itās only 6 minutes, everyone has 6 minutes.
The weather is depressing today 
Cloudy, grey, colder than yesterday and looks like itās about to rain soon.
Iāll find something to do and if not, Iāll simply relax. This is the great thing about sobriety, I got to choose what I want to do. Iām not a slave of my addiction any more. And I can be with myself in silence, reading a book or simply meditate.
I have to protect this at all costs, Iām worth it.
Have a beautiful sober day friends, stay strong 
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I know that from my family too, and not only my own. Even in the families of aunts and uncles there was this distance. The whole family of my dad had huge problems to show their emotions and they gave that to their children. My mum was able to show emotions but she was an addict, fought with her own demons.
Sometimes it feels like the families weāre born into are not really ours. Sometimes we have to separate ourselves from them to protect us.
No shame in sharing what you feel, family is where the heart is
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Felt comfortable around family
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This is so true 
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Day 349. Not to much going on I suppose, no knew news on whats going on with my situation. A little bummed bc I havenāt been able to hit the gym in about a week, I messed my knee up doing squats, my lower back just randomly started hurting recently and I tried opening a sealed water bottle for someone weeks ago and somehow hurt my wrist and itās still bugging me. Lol goodness gracious great balls ah fire. Just staying grateful and taking it a day at time.much love
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Congratulations on ur 1 month!!
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Congrats on your 1 month!!!
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Thank you lisa!! I needed to hear that today. Youve been a huge support over the past few months and have offered some really good advice. Again, thank you my friendā¦
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Thank you so much for replying. Very good advice and i also needed to hear this today. Youāre very right though, i dont want to enable but i do know our town is very small and resources are little to none around here and what resources there is have been abused by alot of people over the years so theyve made it harderā¦ i had to drive 40 miles out of town to get help and still am doing that. With her not having a job etc i know thats not an option for her right now. Now, im not making excuses because i completely understand what youre saying and like i said youre absolute right!
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Ive tried, hes no longer responding to me for some reason. Ill try again todayā¦ thanks for the advice thoughā¦ you guys are the absolute best
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