1,325 Days of Recovery
I’m okay, but I’m also not okay. I need to start taking my medication daily. I haven’t taken my seizure medication or my psychotropic medication in a long time…That’s a huge secret. I’m gonna try to remember to take my night time medication for nightmares tonight. I saw my psychiatrist on Zoom today & she thinks I might have OCD. I downloaded an awesome plant app today & that made me happy.
@Twizzlers sucks that you are having to smell the smoke while you are trying to sleep. Ah - i do hope everything goes well for Rita tomorrow and shes not too anxious.
@DryIn785 glad your day went well. Are you into gaming at all? Play with opponents around the world? Might help with nightly boredom. Also - another show on Amazon prime - “From” - have you seen it?
@XXIX i do hope that you sleep tonight without nightmares and hopefully taking the meds will get you back to feeling like yourself
Hey there! I’m not into gaming, but when I upgrade my computer I’m probably going to get into it. Right now I have a Lenovo Ideapad that I bought for just writing several years ago. I’m amazed it’s still useful.
I have seen “From”; been waiting for season 2 to come out. Didn’t know it was on Amazon. I’ll check it out. 
Some of those identification apps for plants are amazing! I look forward to planting and gardening now that I’m sober.
Do we work at the same place 
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Very good resource many employers have added to their benefits package. Definitely check it out.
Oh no!!! Im so sorry— i know im losing my mind with frustration and wouldn’t wantvthat for anyone else
We will survive- maybe we should also stop giving a shit- not likely but a novel thought 
Good night all. It’s been a decent day for the most part. I go tomorrow to get an epidural pain block shot in the back of my neck. Hopefully it will give me some relief.
Thanks for the thoughts @JazzyS ! You rock!
Same here. Plus not taking the call when you see the person is available in teams. It evokes a feeling of being powerless, depending on other people like being a kid.
Sometimes it helps me to understand that many people have just too much to do as we are understaffed but then: 
Checking in with 77 days AF. Unenthusiastic in general these days, but still doin’ it.
Take care all!
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Have as good a day as you all can friends. Sober and clean. Love.
The training used a lot of mentalization, thinking and feeling about thinking and feeling in interaction, which is the basis for MBT, a therapy for the treatment of Borderline PD I didn’t know before. Good stuff but confrontational to me. My thoughts and feelings went way beyond my work. Well, I think it got me a bit further in my journey of Discovery, my discovery of self, discovery of where I stand in the world and how I relate the people and other things in it. So grateful for being sober and clean. Never again. X
Yes!!! I totally understand- i try to put myself in their shoes but helll that only makes me madder and i totally get fumed. Glad yet not so glad to know im not alone- this feeling sucks. I dont have kids and i dont appreciate having to baby adults to do their jobs - chasing after them is getting exhausting. (
so i thought a little meditation and i was going to be over it or atleast not so pissed off — guess i need to do more meditating 
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Have a great day Franzi!
Didnt even look at it like that until i read this reply!!! I guess thats pretty big after all…thanks!!!
4 months, 120 days alcohol free today:sparkles:
Grateful and blessed:two_hearts:
Congratulations! Moving your post here to the big check in thread where lots of people will see it!
Thank you a lot. :(
Day 455 sober. These past few days have been hard. I am struggling to like myself. This hits me when my depression creeps in and I know it will pass but it makes interacting with people hard in any form. I am constantly judging my interactions and finding myself lacking.
I had lunch with one of my best friends today and that helped. Maybe I’m on the up swing. The last thing my depression needs is fuel in the form of alcohol so I’ll stay sober. Hugs to anyone out there struggling mentally, you can sit next to me in my blanket fort on the couch.
Nice to see you again, welcome back 
#Day 1701
It’s weird how fast you get sucked in the “normal” fast life after a holiday. It already seems ages ago since I was in Spain, but it is only one week ago. Busy with work and other stuff.
But today I’m off from work so time to relax a bit. Going to visit a museum on my own. Never ever have done such a thing without somebody to accompany me. It’s not that I do not do things alone: I walk alone a lot, also shop alone a lot. But this is different.
I tried eating alone in a restaurant as well (ages ago). It was difficult but I did it. And I went for a holiday by myself as well, but went home earlier because I didn’t liked it. It’s a bit like a social experiment, but I learned a lot about me alone and out of my comfort zone.
Does this sound weird, ore are there more people who does this?
