Thank you 
we are getting ready to leave in 2 hours.
How are you doing. ?
I hope things are going well 
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Checking in sober another 24hours 
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It can make me feel like being alone, but you did good getting to lunch with your friendā¦we realise after we push ourselves out the quicksand that that bit of interaction was just what we needed.
I always remind myself addiction wants me to isolate myself and feel worthless, it wants to do that so I try hard to reach out even if I donāt feel like it just so I know itās not getting me slowly.
I really hope today is kind to you and you start to feel more like yourself
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Thanks Twizzle. That means a lot. I appreciate you. š«¶š¼
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No matter how your feeling, you are doing amazing and Iām proud of you Iām sure you have heard and already been through the motions to know this time will pass. Hopefully swiftly.
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That must have been difficult as t the same time as maybe a little helpful. I hope it wasnāt too heavy for you
I admire you for being their for others going through similar or the same. It really takes the care to another level when the person being helped who is down in life in that moment has someone who really understands how they feel.
You must bring alot of positive healing energy to their lives, and more than you may realise. 
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Hi everyone, day 79 for me. I havenāt checked in on this thread in forever, but Iāve been struggling and thought this may help. Itās not that I have an urge to drink, Iāve been doing great with that, Iāve never got this far before.
Iām not really sure what it is, could be depression, I take meds for it. But I realize Iām having a hard time focusing, itās almost 2am here, and I canāt sleep. The past couple weeks Iāve been online shopping, almost like drunk buying, but sober. I havenāt been eating healthy, but thatās even gotten worse. I have/had fruit and salad in the fridge, but Iāve been eating junk. Today has been terrible with food.
Thereās really not 1 thing, I should be grateful and I am for a lot of things. Iām a positive person, but Iām really in a funk. And Itās scareing me that it could lead to drinking again.
Iām grateful for everything I have, grateful for my dog Buddy and cat Riley. I just donāt know what it is. Take care all, Iām going to try and sleep and hopefully be better later today. 
Goodnight (morning)
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Day 94 AF
Checking in sober and greatful for many promises!!! Too tired for full post as past bedtime for Bonzo : )
Ty Lordy for this day of sobriety and Love Absolute !!! 
- almost triple digits
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How long are you taking your meds? Maybe they need adjusting ore more time to settle in? For me when my mood is bad I have to watch out for a bad coping strategy as well. Mine are the same as yours: eating crap and buy stuff.
My good coping strategy is walking and a lot of times I manage to choose that.
For now I hope you can find some sleep
Tomorrow is a new day with new good healthy choices.
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@maxwell Iām saving you the best seat in my depression couch blanket fort. Iām sorry you are struggling. Please donāt drink about it. 
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Thank you @CueBall8n9. Appreciate you. My 3 sons Donāt live farā¦but am finding they are busy with their lives. Thanks for reminder to remember all the things i have to be thankful forā¦it is true!!
Your job coming to an endā¦will be a big change for sure. Itās hard not knowing how itās going to turn out. You will find a new job though. Triple digits for both of us real soon here. 
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Hope the shot works good for you.
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Good job on day 10 KarenKW.
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I do hope everything went well today.
Im good - thank you for asking. Living the best odaat that i can 
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@maxwell Hang in there, Maxine! This too shall pass, but it passes faster, for me at least, when I double down on using my tools. I found that walks outside, even for 10 minutes, jump starts some happy in my brain and body. Please know that Iām not minimizing how hard it is. I basically have to do the exact thing my depression wonāt let me do. But Iāve learned how to coax myself to just get up and away to a calmer environment (nature) to at least get a bit of a reprieve.
@SoberWalker I am a loner by nature, but probably one of the most social loners youād ever met. Been single with kids since 2010, and I traveled for work for many years. I do movies, museums, eat out by myself quite a bit, but itās only because I want to. I think anything that pushes one out of their comfort zone in a safe way is wonderful. Iām embarking on doing just that myself. I really appreciate you.
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Hey guys checking in Wednesday morning. Last day of work before 2 days off. Meeting tonight, and than a shit ton of yardwork tomorrow. I usually start earlier than this. It just kinda got away from me this year. Itāll get there
Me and the wife had a race home from the mall last night. Loser had to start making dinner. Guess who won?
Sheās so much fun.
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Day 1,069 clean and sober. Got my anti depressant meds last night so Iām going to give them a shot. The insomnia medication they prescribed didnāt do shit, I will be calling the doctor after work for sure. Sleep is so important, I donāt function well at all when I canāt. I mean I can do a good job at work but itās incredibly difficult inside my head. Have a great day today everyone, love you guys 
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LMAO. All the stuff Iāve pulled over the years, if the bike is the thing that gets me in the end than so be it. 
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@TrustyBird I am sorry you are struggling my friend. I do hope you are on the āup swingā ā You just might need a bigger couch ā¦ itās not easy but force yourself to get out and socialize the best you can. I know that I dread having to be socialize and it is draining sometimes but so necessary for my mental health. Sending you strength
@Soberwalker ā great on you for trying the social experiment. I do hope you enjoy the museum. I know itās nice to talk to someone and share your thoughts as you are looking at pieces but for me I just enjoy each piece in quiet solitude and try to take in what the artist was thinking (if itās an art museum for instance). It does take a lot to get out of your comfort zone ā you donāt have to do everything alone but you shouldnāt fear doing things alone ā if that makes sense. I know that after high school a bunch of us were going to Vancouver for a week to celebrate graduation. At the last minute everyone flaked. I said fuck it Iāll go by myself ā The most exhilarating experience of my life ā the week changed to 1 month and I went from Vancouver to Edmonton and made so many stops in between ā since then Iāve found that I really do enjoy my own company and Iām pretty cool to hang out withā¦ LOL ā I do hope you keep experimenting. 
@HappyDays ā 2 weeks down ā you are doing amazing -keep it up.
@Maxwell I am so sorry that you are going through this funk. We know that this too shall pass my friend. You are doing great with not drinking. Have you thought to join a meeting for ED possibly changing the dosage or the meds all together? I do hope you keep your positivity and get out of this funk! Sending you strength 
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So is skateboarding. 
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