Checking in on the morning of Day 458
Still very smokey outside (not quite as bad). Will get my son on the bus for school and then i am determined to have a great freakin day. Im challenging myself today to do everything i am supposed to do in a day for my recovery and my overall health and just see how i feel. No more “forgetting” to pray in the mornings, no more “forgetting” to not meditate or using food for the wrong reasons or not even attempting to move my body and exercise. I want to see how i feel when I truly follow thru with these tasks. They are like the foundation to my house. My day relies on certain things for me to function well. And i want to see the outcome of what its like to actually follow thru with everything. The mind is a powerful thing and im determined to “train” it haha So thats my plan for the day 
Hope everyone has an addiction free day
Ive been sober 2 years 5 months and 5 days and every day i still want a drink. Crazy cause i know im better without the drink. AA is the same crap a lot of vulgar language and everyone trying to compete on who can make up the best story. Half the crap i think they are just making up. Any opinions or advise comments?
Day 351 still confused and waiting to see what’s gonna happen with housing for me. I hope I get some good news soon. As much as I’d love to be home with my girls I really don’t want to go back to Tupper lake, it would take me forever to find a job, I just don’t feel like I would strive there even with how much stronger I am and all the tools. Atleast if I did go home I’d be able to see my relapse warning signs I am able to catch them and work on them. But yeah idk just still confused idk much love
53 days weed free
45 days off of bottom lines
Still attending daily meetings
Continuing on with step 4 SLAA
Learning how to nurture my inner child
Chairing my 1st meeting on Zoom this week, I’m nervous but feel like it’s something i need to try
Thank you dear friend!!! Gonna do my best!
Hey all, checking in on day 1,067. I hope everybody has a good one!
Find a new group. Mine is nothing like that.
Day 2022.
I am sorry you’ve had such a bad experience in AA/. I’ve probably been to over a thousand meetings and around 100 different meeting locations and have only had a couple experiences like that. I do know that once I got a sponsor and worked the steps I have not had one single urge to drink over the last 5+ years. I know for me, AA “didn’t work” until I actually put in the work. I needed to do more than just show up to meetings. I don’t know what it will take for you, I only know what it took for me and the results I got. I put in a lot of work and then I received amazing results. Sorry you are still craving booze after so long though, that sounds incredibly difficult, so props for not caving yet.
Thaks for the nice words @LeeHawk and @JazzyS . The museum was nice but small because the are renovating. I made a picture and then saw the sign I wasn’t allowed to 
It wasn’t weird to be by myself and the good part of it was that I could choose my own tempo and time.
Haven’t made more pictures then this one
I think I’m planning to do solitute activaties more often. Next one: cinema
I thought you already have a driver license?
At least you have a car?
What do you do for your sobriety besides not drink? Do you read here lots or do something else? I know for me personally sobriety was hardest when I wasn’t putting work in. I didn’t attend AA but I believe sobriety may have been easier with it. The obsession did eventually go away for me though… I no longer have any desire to be outside of my sober mind. Keep hanging in there, keep putting work on. Best wishes
I see others have commented that not all AA groups are the same. I don’t know what is available near you but if your AA options are limited, don’t forget about Recovery Dharma, SMART etc etc.
Why do you want a drink - what do you think you will get from it?
Maybe it’s time to go back to basics and immerse yourself in recovery stuff - books, podcasts etc etc. What’s your exercise, sleep and nutrition like?
Not been following along your story recently Mike but wanted to chime in to say big congrats on those days and everything crossed that things become clear with housing soon.
Have you already shown some pictures of the new house?
Is this a metaphorically joke??
What is your question?
176 
chilling playing cod
Pain is bad side note new consultant says not chronic pancreatitis just necrotic pancreatitis with repeated episodes so still permanent damage
Need to have test for SIBO
Waiting to see the team about tube feed which is good
Need special bloods done
Happy sober Wednesday everyone
I’m an idiot, who can’t read. “Diving lesson” not “Driving lesson”.
Did you dive with gear or just apnoe?
Thank you and thank you for sarah millican humor idea. The tests so far have not turned up anything…so i guess that’s good! The blood work showed elevated kidney and liver numbers…but the doctor was not alarmed yet…again good. Stress test will shed light one way or another. If good…will be a green light to excercise more. More distance etc. Odaat
Did you use gear or just apnoe diving?