Checking in daily to maintain focus #54

@2JTravNZ Congrats on your 8 months. Very impressed - keep up the great work! :muscle: :clap:
@TheWolf that’s huge – sleeping well, planning for your sobriety during a get together. Hope you have a fantastic time with your family. Super excited for your daughters football match tomorrow – HAVE FUN!
@Matt you are doing great! I’m not sure when the urges and that stupid addict voice will go away but we need to buckle down and ignore it. Are you able to get to your go to activities to keep your mind active (so you can hopefully ignore the sensations)? We are here when the voices get too loud – keep up the fantastic work! You can overcome this addiction.
@Kareness I am sorry you are going through this – hang in there my friend – it does get easier. Do try to find time for your meetings. The isolated feeling can become overwhelming and can take over. All new positions take time getting used to – hopefully you’ll get the routine down soon enough. Do not let it consume you. I do hope work gets easier.
@SoberWalker Beautiful streetart picture! Congrats on your sober journey and certainly be proud of you today and from this day forward. Try not to focus on where you failed (except to know that it happened and what you learned from it) and not to focus on the future as nothing is certain. You are kicking ass today!
@Mno Wishing you the best of luck with your group therapy today. I know the feeling of wanting to run and hide rather than face something but then you are giving that thing more power and it gets harder to face it. You are stronger than you think and can tackle this obstacle too. Again – sending you strength my friend.
@anon53116147 Have a blast this weekend with your girls. I know it’s hard but don’t focus on what others may or may not say – walk proudly in your home town. You are improving yourself and that’s HUGE! College can be scary at any stage / state – Keep moving forward and do go to college as you’ve planned for yourself. You will conquer this too.
@Billy85 Man Billy I’m sorry your week has been so tough. I know you keep trying to reach out to your ex and help her or just looking out for her but at this point you may just need to cut all ties (at least till you get yourself fully grounded). She is not ready to leave her addiction and being around her will only drag you in as well. That sucks that she would jeopardize your work – I’m really sorry. You are doing great and I do hope that the therapy session helps you out today. ODAAT is fucking right! You’ve got the strength to keep moving forward
@Time2Live84 30 days my friend – that’s fantastic!!! Don’t focus on how many times you may have come to this number – you are here now and with a new attitude and thirst for life! You are doing great and keep checking in here – we are all in this together.

Checking in – feeling a bit loopy / lost and super tired. Not sure if lack of sleep, overall emotional struggles or what? I wanted to add something to my coffee this morning but luckily my brother was in the kitchen and I couldn’t do in front of him— DAMN (that was close). Well, I’m breathing deeply and I feel like I’ve had a few too many close calls lately and that is unsettling. Thank god they were not relapses but I do need to figure out why I’m getting this close to the edge. Well – off to do more work fully sober! Have a wonderful day my friends. :people_hugging: :heart:

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I get this. I feel similarly sometimes, both in terms of deeper unexplored mazes of feelings and experience - I haven’t even really begun to dig into those; I’m just scratching the surface - but also in terms of my sense of place and what my next step is, my next action. What am I here for if I’m not chasing my next fix? It’s weird, it has this hollow feeling sometimes. Not that I would go back - I won’t - but planning the next fix lent a kind of predictability to my day, even a sense of purpose (however dysfunctional and unhealthy it was).

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@Time2Live84 - congrats on 30 days!!! :100: :people_hugging::raised_hands:

@JazzyS - you are so supportive of everyone in this thread, I hope you can give yourself some love and nurturing today too. It’s good to be aware of when we feel like we’re getting close to the edge so we can double down on recovery activities, even if that is just rest.

@Matt i really relate to that emptiness and lack of direction. My life was entirely about drinking - if I wasn’t drinking, I’d be planning to drink or recovering from drinking. I just try to stay in the present and focus on doing the next right thing when I get overwhelmed.

Last night some more family stress came up so I meditated again through intense emotions and luckily was able to fall asleep. I am unbelievably tired today so my recovery activities are meditation, rest, and not drinking. It’s ok I didn’t go to a meeting or exercise. I’m listening to my body and I’m honoring my needs. It’s easy to get caught up in being busy and going down the checklist. Whatever I put in front of my sobriety I will lose if I don’t have my sobriety.

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Better day today. My work from home buddy is helping me with my work stress. I think they know when we need them.

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5 days in and had the urge to drink, i chose not to! Take out food, hot chocolate and documentaries in bed later instead :ok_hand:

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Good work!!

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Day 230

I’m still rocking sobriety, I’m just not as much online as I used to be because I have this week off.
Mostly I’m lazy hahaha so if you thought “she’s possibly doing something fancy while on holiday” no, I’m not. Mostly eating and a little bit working on my muscles :smile:

I hope you’re having a beautiful sober day friends, stay strong :kissing_heart::muscle:

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Thanks! :blush: im keep going!!

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Thank you a lot. It means for me a lot! Yeah, I’m finding out things with professionals, they help me.

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Checking in day 12. Planned for and hoping for a fun sober weekend. Reminding myself these two things can happen at the same time. Best wishes to everyone

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101 days today. I am so thankful it is Friday. I love the weekend! :grin:

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I am incredibly proud of myself. This is the longest I have gone!!

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@Matt I like your perspective, in that it’s screaming louder because it’s not being fed, sorry it’s so hard, sending strength 🩵
@Kareness bless you :people_hugging: that does sound hard, I hope writing about it here helped. I hope you find your footing in your new job soon, and I hope you can find some meetings, even online ones perhaps, that you can fit around your new schedule.:crossed_fingers:t2:I’ve just seen your today post and I’m glad it’s been a better day for you :blush: cats really do know, and you’ve got a really cute one right there :heart_eyes_cat:
@anon74766472 that’s exactly it, as you described. I’m always aware when I’m in addict mode because it all happens so quickly, everything speeds up in urgency and before I know it, no matter what I look like, or how much I didn’t want to leave the flat, I’ve been to the shop, bought and consumed all the things within minutes. I think I will start a sugar counter and focus on taming that particular demon for a while.
@SadMemeQueen sorry about the pain :people_hugging: good luck for your surgery :crossed_fingers:t2::four_leaf_clover:
@Time2Live84 congrats on 30 days :tada:
@JazzyS I’m sorry you’re struggling :people_hugging: maybe some self-care this weekend. Sending strength 🩵
@Kelwooo good choices :clap:t2::star2:
@CleanJean congrats on 6 months :tada:

1012 days no alcohol.
477 days no cocaine.
99 days no vape.

I woke up earlier than I have been lately, had done my morning routine, and walk by 10am. I was very restless between 10 and 11, and didn’t know what to do with myself. So I did some extra meditations and then, for the first time in a long time, listened to an audiobook, for 3 whole hours! So that passed enough time for the restlessness to pass also.

I did binge, but only crisps and mango, no sugary stuff today, for the first time in a while. It was really hard to walk past the bakery sections, sugar is a whole demon in itself, I don’t even have a sweet tooth, but my binge monster just wants it in bucket loads. Not today binge monster, 14mins until the shops close and I’m safe. At 9pm I actually got up to go to the shop for sugary stuff, but I managed to stop myself, I haven’t had the strength to do that in what feels like forever, so I’ll take that win for the day. :blush:

I hope you all have wonderful sober weekends :blush:

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Well done Erica! You should be proud – great job — 6 months :muscle:
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Checking in after grocery shopping. All set for a relaxing weekend…

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Congrats @CleanJean rewriting your future!

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@Catmama23 thank you so much - Yes, I am doing just that – doubling down on my recovery activities.

WOW - so well put. A definite reminder for us all.

@Sabrina80 glad you are having a laid back at home vacation. Sometimes those are so needed. Good to have you back
@nastya_is_fighting good to hear that you are working with professionals and that they are helping. We are here for you when you need. Wishing you the best on your road to recovery
@Marc3 YES – you WILL have a fantastic sober weekend. Remember to check in multiple times if needed or just go through the TS site for inspiration / motiviation.
@CATMANCAM Thankyou so much. I will be concentrating on selfcare for sure. Glad you were able to control the sweet tooth binge monster. Do take the win my friend. It will get easier.

Evening check in on Friday – I keep forgetting it’s Friday (not sure if that is a good thing — the days are all melting together :laughing:) I do plan to find time for me over the weekend and not over work myself. I haven’t had any urges since this morning so that is awesome. Was planning to take a walk after work but the light drizzel became more steady and a bit of a chill in the air so put on my sweats and fired up the TS site and now just relaxing while watching tv in the background … hope everyone is having / had a great FRIDAY!

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Checking in Friday night. Had a decent day. Got a lot done around the house. Gonna lay here and read a little bit, then try and get to sleep somewhat early before work tomorrow. Have a great night guys. :v::green_heart:

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Checking in night of day 383 sober. Today ive been a flake on the gym and a volunteer engagement. Which makes me feel bad about myself. But i took Boscoe for a walk. Talked with my aunt on the phone for an hour. And made some reservations to travel for the total solar eclipse in tx usa next april. Planning travel always brings me joy.

Im still a work in progress.

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Checking in on day 707. Feeling a little bit down on myself today. I got some nasty evaluations at work that I keep obsessing about. Can’t shake it off. These are the kinds of feelings that I used to chase off with alcohol. Just hide from them in oblivion, you know? I am trying to sit with the discomfort.

Oh well, tomorrow is another day. The forecast looks good for the weekend for once so maybe I will drag my sorry ass out to work on the garden :rofl: Wishing everyone a peaceful weekend :blue_heart:

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