#Day 1705 
Had a busy day at work yesterday, but it was fun.
Today is my weekend so not doing much besides a walk and maybe some small housechores.
Day 14. Two weeks of no alcohol. Weather is on our side to enjoy another day on planet earth 
Checking in sober hope all is well 
Checkin in sober 
Happy Sunday!
I wasn’t able to read all your posts and be that present. You are all doing a great job 
I am focusing on my therapy jungle, selflove, contacts in real life, sports, healthy food, little projects and napping.
Much love 
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Have as good a day as you can all. Sober and clean. Love.
Hey all, checking in on day 1,071. I hope everybody has a good one!
This arrangement looks so beautiful
Maybe I will have to copy, growing an avocado tree 
… I remember doing experiments with avocado seeds as a child.
Day 127.
I’ve been a bit MIA because I fell back into doom scrolling reddit and pretty much wasting away. The two week tolerance break from my ADHD meds is starting to feel like a never-ending torture chamber. The modafinil doesn’t make me manic anymore, but it’s noy doing much of anything now. So… it’s up to me to… ya know, function. And function I don’t.
I also started a 6 month DBT group therapy thing with my shrink’s clinic. And I keep trying to find reasons to say fuck it and not go. It’s in my native language, and this is gonna sound really fucking weird, but my language is a huge trigger for me as is my country. Because that’s where the bad traumatic shit that turned me into the hot mess I am today happened. Getting psychiatric care once a month in my country is hard enough… Doing actual therapy is… well, it’s something.
Making matters even more fun, I’m the oldest in the group. And it’s awesome seeing young people with BPD getting help, it’s nice seeing that there are parents out there who actually care about helping their teens manage their mh. But to me, this is yet another group I don’t belong in. Yay. I get to feel excluded all over again, like I was in school. But school for crazy people.
And one of the facilitators is a patronising bitch who tried to make me feel bad because I was the only one who refused to give consent to them recording the zoom sessions. She actually rolled her eyes. I’ve been around the block a few times, and I know how the internet works. No, I don’t want my group therapy sessions to be recorded or emailed to anyone. And no, I shouldn’t have to justify that decision.
Just typing this is getting me all worked up.
So… New sober me decided to the give the group a proper go for the first month. See if it actually helps. We’re off to a bad start, but that’s mostly my personal bias.
On the bright side, this year I’m spending most of the summer by the sea on the most beautiful island I’ve ever seen in my life. I’ve worked really hard to afford this, so I’m well looking forward to getting there.
Passed my 7 days woo hoo, no cravings today which is good, feeling positive about my life and changes i need to make, allowing myself to love myself which is huge! First time going out in a week to my village for a coffee and shopping, im off work a week at least and see new psychiatrist for new bi polar meds friday so wish me luck! Stay strong everybody weve got this! 
Check in. Yesterday i finally got out of bed and did some errands. Nothing crazy but it lifted my mood for sure. Walked my dog too!! And took shower…which always helps. A new sober day has begun!!! Tues stress test…just get that hurdle over with now. Odaat
Day 232
I slept ridiculously long 
Training done, laundry is having a ride in the washing machine and breakfast is almost done: cooked eggs, yoghurt with berries and a slice of my second loaf of oat bread with cheese.
This time I used another recipe, it’s not fluffy but a lot softer, not a brick like the first one 
Today happened what I’m used to in this region in early summer: yesterday 17°C today 26°C and humid. Yay. Not. I’m not a summer person 
Ok, food is done. See you later fam 
Have a beautiful sober day friends, stay strong 
Morning checkin at 103 days sober.
I am tired this morning. Probably going to be a lazy day. It is a beautiful morning out there already. Have a great day everyone.
Checking in back on day 2. I fucked up again but I’m back. Disappointed in myself. At least I have therapy tomorrow. I’m really struggling with my mental health. I know that’s no excuse to drink.
Oopsie! 
Thank you for telling me.
@KarenKW Sending strength and hugs.
@Girlinterrupted Glad to see those numbers! I know it has been hard.
@Amy30 Yeah, I wouldn’t want therapy sessions recorded either. And if consent is required, then you have the right to refuse, end of.
Day 1000 something, on computer so can’t check
My daughter had her birthday party on Saturday. Eight ten year old girls in the house for several hours 
. They lasted 2 and half hours before they started squabbling. Luckily my husband and son decided to go out, because their irritation would have made it worse. I basically shut my ears and eyes to it, and then when they went to the park just cleared up quietly by myself.
Today I was busy with a bit of housework, catching up with grading, and making some study materials for my son. Now it is getting hot so I also de-monkeyfied my arms and legs so I can get those out for some air.
Day 10 sober
Just waking up
Had some coffee and did some cleaning
I haven’t been outside yet so I don’t know how the weather is
Going for a walk with my other half later. A quite long one for excersize
Today will be as good as I let it
Take care everyone
@SadMemeQueen Just one more day till your surgery … Hope your pain is bearable.
@nastya_is_fighting Looking good – hope you enjoy the drum lessons 
@Amy30 I wish you well in adjusting to being off the ADHD meds and using your tools and this site to help you “function”. Fuck the patronizing bitch! You do what you feel comfortable with and do not feel bullied or made to feel bad for not wanting to record your sessions. Not sure who would. You are doing great and keep up the good work. Do remember that checking in here will help keep you grounded – you are among friends.
@Kelwooo Congrats on your 7 days! Stay strong 
@KarenKW welcome to day 2! I do hope you have a good therapy session tomorrow. In the meantime – figure out what caused you to slip and what you could do when that situation / feeling arises. It’s not always an easy task – You are strong and have the will to quit drinking and not feel the after effects of what drinking causes. Sending you strength
Checking in on Sunny Sunday morning
151 days Alcohol and weed free
566 days Cigarette free
Its a relaxing morning. Spent an hour with my mom this morning. Catching up on this site and still fighting a headache so taking it super easy for now. I do think that I will return to bed soon enough. 
Wishing everyone a fabulous sober day
