i am so proud of you and how much you’ve grown
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tonight will be day 446 of no self harm.
having my gallbladder removed tomorrow! the slightest bit nervous but mostly just ready. been waiting so long to have this thing out. nearly 3 months.
I’m really hoping once I’m recovered from the surgery my mood will get better. I’ve been extremely depressed most nights. but it’s something I will tackle once I’m doing better physically.
hope you all are well. i will update you all tomorrow after surgery as well
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Thank u friend for ur support 
I really hope everything goes well for u tmrw. I know it will! Im excited for u to feel better!
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thank you, so am I
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Good luck!
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thank you 
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Day 88. Still moving forward and proud of myself.
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Day 224 substance free
Heading to bed sober.
Grateful for sobriety
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Have as good a day as you all can friends. Sober and clean. Love.
Overslept a little bit. But made it to the
in time for my commute. Busy day ahead, including end of contract talk with my two managers, meeting my therapist after work.It will work out. I’m sober and clean. The weather is nice. My mind’s ok. And so is my body. X
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Big hugs for you and your emotions @Butterflymoonwoman … and so good for you to feel so solid in your sobriety! Sounds like a great plan you have for the chair exercises! Hugs.
@SadMemeQueen glad you’re finally having the surgery. Wishing you all success with it. Will be thinking about you and sending good thoughts during and afterwards … for quick and complete recovery and healing.
Check in as soon as you’re able and let us know how you are, k? Hugs.
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Day 233
Thanks to the tropical weather here I didn’t sleep well for 2 nights now and today is my first day at work after 1 week off. I’ll rock that, step by step.
No biking any more at the moment, I need to walk more. So the plan will be to get off the train earlier when I’m on my way home to walk something between 3-5km per day. Good for calming the mind also 
Of course the weather forecast said it’s gonna rain today, we’ll see.
I prepared enough food dor today so that I hopefully don’t start eating the unhealthy stuff we have at work (cookies, chocolate, etc). In the last days I increased my protein intake to stop the eating in-between and it works out well. No cravings for sweets. In case that happens I have berries ready.
Now off to work, one coworker already called in sick what of course doesn’t lift my mood. Yay 
Have a beautiful sober day friends, stay strong 
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Another day sober checking in 
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What a packed weekend, wow. I’m tuckered out after so much socializing. Made some new friends and expanded professional network. Gonna take it easy today, recenter myself, do nothing.
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@JazzyS thank you, it really was exhilarating! Just disappointed I couldn’t manage the Netflix show without it now 
@Catmama23 thanl you and it may not feel like it, but you are inspiring and strong too 🩵 I’m sorry about your MIL and that it has been the focus for so long, but proud of you for putting a boundary in place. 
@Hotic congrats on 1600 days 
@Butterflymoonwoman stay connected, it’s scary how quickly our addict wakes up when we isolate I’m so pleased about your son’s MRI result too, you are an amazing Mom 🩵
@SadMemeQueen good luck today 
@SoberWalker hahaha at the gif 
thank you for noticing 
@TheWolf congrats on 2 weeks
@Amy30 Argh, I’m so sorry about your experience with one of the facilitators, that’s truly awful. Sorry also that it’s triggering for you. Proud of you for giving it a go anyway! 🩵 Your summer sounds amazing 
@Noshame congrats on double digits
@Marc3 those are big things. Congrats on 2 weeks
1014 days no alcohol.
479 days no cocaine.
101 days no vape.
Checking in for yesterday…
I didn’t get the hatrick, the third show I watched, I binged crisps (chips) and mango. No sugary stuff that day though. (Sat Eve)
I’m finding it hard to remember much from yesterday, but I did all my usual routine, then there was a Pokémon event on so I played that whilst on my walks. At the very end of my first walk, an ice cream van pulled up alongside me, and I couldn’t resist, so I had to reset my sugar counter after 2 days and 15 hours. Trying again.
I wanted to buy a disposable vape and an energy drink yesterday, but it was day 101 and 75 respectively, for those, and I agreed with myself that it wouldn’t be ‘just one’ and that it was so not worth going down that path again.
Then randomly while I was at home, I started to think about one of my old favourite drinks, and how I’d have to order it all separately now as the establishments aren’t allowed to serve mixed drinks these days. I even visualized myself buying the ingredients and making it at home and how accessible that would be. Then the present me took control of my addict’s thoughts and said there’s no way we are travelling down that road again! So I went for my evening walk early, to clear my head.
I was home by 5pm. I felt it was too early to do my check-in, so decided to do my TV time first. I didn’t manage it without crisps and mango, but I didn’t buy any sugary stuff bcuz I’d already had the ice cream and I didn’t want it anyway. I’d taken my meds early, at 6pm, thinking I had time to watch TV and do my check-in, but at 7pm I felt so tired like I was gonna collapse, I didn’t even feel well enough to go to the toilet even though I was desperate, so I layed down in bed and didn’t wake up til 1am, next I woke up on the toilet at 3:30am, fed the cats and took my morning meds, then was half asleep again until 6:30am when I woke up properly.
Today so far, I’ve done my morning routine, then I wanted to catch up here and do my check-in, before I do anything else.
I hope you all had wonderful sober weekends.
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@Rebabeeba WOW – so impressed! Having to be around the liquor and the sketchy clientele can be a great reminder of why never want that kind of life but also very triggering. Good on you for putting in the effort and staying sober - living your sober powerful and confident life
@Marc3 love that you are becoming more confident with facing weekends. You are getting stronger each day – totally amazing. Have a great sober Monday!
@Butterflymoonwoman You are putting in the work each day and getting better as a result. So many changes in your routing/ daily habits/ emotional checks. So much growth. You are a great mom – thinking ahead and trying to prepare your son and give him the confidence he deserves. Best of luck with the chair exercises.
@liminal.rehab check out the social butterfly – so excited for your eventful weekend – I’m sure it took a lot out of you so enjoy a day of re-centering.
@CATMANCAM Aaah don’t get disheartened, that time will come soon too. At least you know that you can somewhat control the binge – baby steps. Hey – I’m a sucker for icecream trucks (such great childhood memories) – Hope you enjoyed :wink. So proud of you for having done the thought process when the urges arose and being able to decipher that’s not a road you want to travel. Man your addict mind was really pushing you yesterday – Good on you for resisting. Sorry you had such a weird night. Glad you are feeling better now and starting this day off properly.
Checking in sober on Monday morning - woke up with NO hangover!!
I’m finding that I do need to do check in’s at least 2 x’s a day - it’s not that I always have urges but find that when I don’t then the urges do find ways to get stronger. 
I holding onto whatever does work. Going to be a good day - I am trying to not focus on any of my ailments / pain. I know that I get to send in my two tests this week and hopefully will get some answers by mid June. 
I had gotten both tests last week but due to my cycle I had to wait till this week to administer…the universe does know how to test patience. It’s light out and I’m sure the sun will be shining soon enough… Have a fantastic sober Monday my friends
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Today is no good morning. I had anxiety attack and I argued with my mother who has again bordeline episode, while I possibly have after mania depressive episode.
I’m now sitting on my bed and sobbing, I already taked few pills to calm down. I need to be in 45 minutes at the work, but I don’t image how I can manage it. Life seems again so grey, while yesterday I saw life being so colourful… I hate being bipolar so much. This is never ending circus.
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I am so sorry Nastya…i cant imagine what tou are going through - just want to send hugs and love
Can you talk with your doctor to see if they can change meds or prescription dosage? I do hope your day gets better.
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Hey all, checking in on day 1,072. I hope everybody has a good one!
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Thank you a lot. I asked at my work if I can stay at home today and do work at home (I can work as well from my home). They told me yes, so at least I stayed at home for today.
I got anxiety attack because of my mother, she triggered me due to her bordeline episode which she has now. It’s really hard for me to have a bordeline mother.
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