Bro, you are 100 days away from the ultimate goal. I wish i was with you. I stumbled today. To see you on day 265 is an inspiration. Your doing it bro. Keep up the good work! Let’s share some tips/tricks that have been working for you this run.
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Thank you. I think you’ve just seen some of the things I shared on a different thread.
One thing I really wanted to reiterate is that every sin originates in the heart. In other words, before I done it, I thunk it.
I stopped giving myself permission to crave. That old slogan, This too Shall Pass. Well, I had to put that one back on the shelf. For me, the cravings didn’t stop until I stopped the craving. That meant that it wasn’t enough for me to stop doing porn.
I had to stop thinking about it. Do I win every battle with lust and fantasy? No. But as long as I win more battles than I lose, I will win this war. If I keep losing battle after battle after battle with lust and fantasy, then I’m going to lose this war. Because the lust will turn into cravings, and the cravings will turn into acting out. Keeping my toxicity level at around 3-4 makes it a lot easier to stay sober than having a toxicity level of 7-8. I’ve chosen the easy path. With the help of God, it’s been easier for me to clean up my inside (lust and fantasy) so that my outside also would be clean, than to clean up my outside (porn and MB) hoping that some of that cleanliness might rub off on the inside.
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Day 36. Wooooo I’m a sweaty mess, had a good session at the gym. Had a 17 year old come up and correct my dead lift form, I was grateful for it. My form has never been perfect, I took his advice and will see what happens. He was a good kid and new his shit for sure. Got confirmation that my county will pay for my stay at the mhab place, but they will only pay 350 of 500 so that means I’ll have to come up with the 150 which I can do because I get 202 a month, but that will only leave me with 50 bucks a month. If I work, my county won’t help with anything, and if I’m going to school then that’s all I want to focus on, I just feel I might have trouble if I try to do school and work so idk im very happy they are going to help to pay but Im sure things will work out how they are supposed to. @Fury I’m not strapped to where I’m living but I do have plans already and I don’t wanna move any further from my girls then what I’m already at. I already struggle being this far from them. So everything is well I suppose, much love everyone
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Day 457 
Quick check in this Friday morning before work. Heading to the city, I have lunch with a friend planned. Looking forward to the weekend.
Have a wonderful day guys, stay strong x
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Checking in sober.
Just feeling rundown and blah. It’s like there is a permanent cloud over my head. But it’s not a bad storm so it’s one foot in front of the other. Everything is a chore.
I did see the doctor about my knee pain. No ligament damage. I’m just getting old. I’m starting physical therapy for this as well. I work for a PT company so it’s completely free for me to go. Im so thankful for that perk.
Take care of yourselves.
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Day 3. Well, I don’t know how to explain it but I feel encouraged and with inner strength. Praying consistently is helping me
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417, checking in.
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It’s been hard to come on here because I’ve relapsed and it’s been really hard.
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Checking in
Day 501
Its been a day. I was able to sleep about 1.5 hours during the day today while my son was at school but boy doing that awake overnight shift killed me. I definitely needed my HP with me to get thru it. I was able to have that little nap in the morning and then i went on a work related zoom mtg in the afternoon. It wasnt mandatory but i wanted to show up. Plus the extra pay is always nice. Im praying for a decent sleep tonight. I need to get back on my routine. Its all out of whack. My body is all out of sorts. And im soo beyond tired. Right now i am just enjoying the insane weather we are having. Huge thunder and lightening show with crazy winds and rain.
Hope everyone is enjoying their day/evening amd staying free of their addictions.
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Welcome back
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Thank you!
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Well you are still awesome my friend!
sorry i misunderstood the milestone.
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So happy for you DJ – we go through many internal and external changes in this sobriety journey and we do lose some old friends and gain some new ones. I’m so happy that you are finding yourself and your self confidence in your journey.
@rob11 I do hope that the special treatment center for diagnostics will be a great start in helping you sort out a decent plan for your future
@sissychris39 so happy for you and your new-found independence!
@nastya_is_fighting Dear friend, I am so sorry that your trip down memory lane ended so badly and drudged up such memories. You have come a long way my friend and so glad that you do have a loving boyfriend that makes you feel safe – I do hope that you are able to find comfort and safety in your surrounding now. Much love my friend – you are amazing!
@zzz my goodness – so grateful that you didn’t hurt yourself badly. Yes – I do think this was a huge sign and a good scare is exactly what was needed. I do hope you take care of yourself and hopefully get support in any way possible to help with your sobriety. We are not able to do this on our own!
@cueball8n9 you are doing so great my friend. Tomorrow’s the last day at this place of employment – hopefully you are able to find something of interest that fits your needs. Appreciate being on this journey with you
@anon53116147 hey congrats on getting the county to pay for a part of the mhab – I do agree that everything will work out as they are supposed to. Wishing you the best
My goodness Thomas – this is so beautiful to read! Congrats on day 3 and I do find that consistently praying/ meditating has been essential for my sobriety.
@butterflymoonwoman I’m sorry love – I’m so happy you were able to make it through the awake all nightery. I do hope you get some sleep tonight! Sorry you are too tired to enjoy the insane weather – sometimes all the thunder and heavy rain help me get a deep sleep. Wishing for the same for you.
Checking in on Thursday night
190 weed and alcohol free
605 cigarettes free
It’s been a day! I was able to get my dead tree at the house removed this morning and run a few small errands but that was enough to zap me totally of energy, start a migraine and the heat / humidity screwed up all my symptoms. I was able to come home and cool down and then took a 5.5 hour nap. i was able to make dinner for the family with a lot of effort and then finally found time to read on TS. Can’t believe it but i’m super tired now again and will be turning in… Hope everyone had a great Thursday - now turning into Friday shortly for me…sending much love 
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Day 34.
Had a very intense week at work with a LOT of travel. I nearly quit due to lack of people skills from management.
I stayed overnight in a motel and usually I’d dump my things and head for a spa bath with alcohol in hand. This time I went for a bush walk, saw a waterfall, checked in, had dinner and a non alcoholic beverage, then slept.
Definitely feel better and loving this new life and mindset.
I now do yoga a few times a week and am so amped for the next badge at 60 days!
Only my kids know I’ve stopped drinking - I’m keeping it to myself for now.
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@zzz sorry to hear you hit rock bottom, this sounds like a nightmare to me. Is there any possibility to get professional support where you live, e.g. specialised hospitals? Do you have a friend you could contact in the future if you feel like drinking again? Please remember that we are a global family, there’s always someone online here, so please post a message here. Keeping my fingers crossed that this last breakdown was your start into sobriety for good 
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@K_smile it does not matter how often you fall, it only matters that you get back up. There is no one here who would rant at you if you slipped, but there are many here wanting you to become the better version of you, the version able to live a self-chosen life. Whenever you struggle, reach out to us here. Especially in the beginning it really matters to check in daily and also tell us about what is going on in your head, so we’ll be able to help in times of struggle. Sending you strength, you can do it!
Checking in on day 185. Weather is not that good, it started raining tonight, which fits perfectly to my plan to go camping for the next three days 
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Have a good and sober day, my friends 
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