Thank You. I will go to AA today and will try to ask other members about possible Rehab options. Will try any possible options.
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@Mikecher welcome 
congrats on 2 weeks 
@liminal.rehab congrats on 4 months
@Katy welcome back congrats on 2 days
@Rockstar24777 sorry about the nightmares, but hiking it off sounds like a great coping mechanism, hope you enjoyed 
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@SoberGuyUSA congrats on tackling another addiction and a successful day 1
@nastya_is_fighting sorry about the unexpected trigger, and the flashbacks glad your boyfriend is going to be there for you when you get home š©µ
@zzz I learned in my course last night, that resilience is not coping with everything by ourselves, itās about knowing when we need help, and having the strength to reach out and seek support. Youāre doing that here, but I hope you can do so in the real world too. Sending strength š©µ
@K_smile glad you reached out, donāt lose hope sending strength š©µ
1053 days no alcohol.
518 days no cocaine.
33 days no vape.
7 days no binge-eating.
Checking-in for yesterday, fell asleep before postingā¦
It was quite a chilled day. Did my two online courses, some meditations, and got both walks in. Iāve also found out I start my 10 weeks of therapy on Monday, Iāve got an email that Iām going to read today, which apparently will give me an idea what to expect from it. Before then, Iāve got 3 days now with nothing at all in my calendar, itās gonna feel so strange, but I need it, the fatigue has been chasing me.
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Day six ! I was so irritable at work yesterdayā¦ nearly the weekend . Weather is a bit pants outside but off to see Indiana Jones tomiro 
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Day 265. 100 days till 365!
Iām pretty proud of myselfā¦ had a few rougher weeks/months but lately if feel much more confident in staying sober. I had a hard time atmitting to myself that it was indeed my mindset that had to change. Still working on that though.
Still a work in progress.
But I believe that with the help of this community, family and friends I can do it. Moment by moment. Craving after craving.
I do not need alcohol.
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Day 80 checking in odaat hope everyone is well
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1483
Have as good a day as you all can friends. Sober and clean. Love.
My three day weekend is here, although I have some chores to do today as well as group therapy to go to. Thatās OK. Itās definitely me time. Sometimes therapy is actually nice these days. And it has brought me so much. It takes work to travel the sober road. Lots of it. But it is so worth it! ODAAT and all that. X
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Day 2 checking in
FCK alcohol! 
Much love 
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Youāre right, fuck alcohol! 
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6 days clean from self-harm.
8 months 19 days clean from alcohol.
6 days clean from binge.
2 months 14 days clean from purge.
6 days clean from taurine.
3 months 28 days clean from weed.
1 year 5 months clean from benzene.
3 months 14 days clean from hypnotics.
Almost 2 weeks being less amout of sugar.
So, I ended school! I got documents today about officially ending it. Iām really happy. Now is for me waiting another school from September. Time flies so fast.
Yesterday at evening when I came back to Prague I tightly hugged my boyfriend. His hugs are so safe for me. Like in them Iām protected. I am protected.
Also my stomach hurts from yesterdayā¦ Especially from the moment when I was triggered by accident. I really didnāt know that document from police was in album of my old photos. How it got there? Strange.
Otherwise, I got as well one idea for my book concept, so I started to write it. If I will be not lazy, I think I will end writting this whole concept at the end of Summer. But I will see! 
I hope everyone are okay. Have a nice day. 
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Day 167.
Fuck me, itās been a week. I got some bad news about someone I used to know, which threw me in an incessant pool of anxiety. Iāve been using my anti-anxiety pills to get through it, this is exactly the kind of situation my shrink prescribed them for.
Iāve also been in a ālifeās shortā manic phase, so I applied for a new job and thet fucking got back to me and I might just get it. Likeā¦ what? The posting said they want an native English writer, I write in English, but Iām like so not a native. And I even mentioned it in my application form, but they still fucking got back to me. Donāt they know I was being manic when I applied and wasnāt actually expecting to hear back?
Truth be told, this gig is high-volume, daily easy work with decent pay. If I can keep my shit together it would put my earnings beyond my current broke-but-fed. This along with my other two gigs would more than make up for the project I lost a couple of months ago.
Likeā¦ I know this is a good thing. But Iām fucking terrified.
I might not get it though. They probably hate the test article I sent yesterday.
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Maybe you were manic but I call it manifesting what you want 
Donāt question it just take it and run with the money 
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Days without alco: day one, 11:20 oāclock here.
Hours without thinking about alco: zero.
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Thatās brilliant advice right there!
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Hey all, checking in on day 1111. I hope everybody has a good one!
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Day 37. Got breakfast cook as a chore this week. I swear Iām always cooking 
, anyways made some homefries sauteed with onion and green pepper then mixed in with scrambled egg and Mexican style cheese. Spread it on a tortilla wrap and itās delicious, actually made morning meditation today lol about time Iāve been oversleeping for it mostly everyday. Also took two chores and cleaned up the bathrooms. Going to hit the gym early today, I have a anime tattoo Iām doing later. Feel pretty good toda, confident and grateful, definitely feeling pretty happy. Missing my girls, I did ask my mom if she would help me with possibly staying afloat when I move to this other place, maybe help me with my clothes and she told me I was on my own. I wasnāt mad I understand it is time to get this my own, but yeah I hope I can make everything work. I really need some new clothes, of course I have clothes on my back but I wear the same thing pretty much every couple days because shirts donāt fit and stuff but Iāll get it through it of course. Much love everyone
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Loving the numberā¦great work!
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After all that mental torture, they havenāt got back to meā¦ So I guess I didnāt get it.
Nevermind, Iām sure something else will pop up. Tis the nature of lifeā¦
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Thank you!! I really appreciate it 
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I am so stressed that life is hard these days. I know it will pass. I almost had a drink, went to the store, bought a bottle of wine, poured it into a glass. But I didnāt drink. I quickly emptied the glass and bottle into the sink. All my hard work almost went to waste.
Day 1048
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Oh wow. What happened?
Congratulations for making the best decision!
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