that was a super stressful close call. so happy to hear that you were able to pour that poison down the sink and not lose your hard work!
can you vent out the stresses here? are you able to talk to someone in real life?
wishing you strength and calmness to get through these stressful times 
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This all happened about 2 hours ago. Now Iām better. A bath and then Iāll go for a walk. Tomorrow I will have a meeting with my therapist. God, I kept saying ādonāt do this wonāt solve itā so as not to drink. I immediately thought of entering and writing here.
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oh thank goodness - yes, a lot of self care is key. grateful that you knew to log on here and write ā we are here for you! best wishes for a lovely sober Friday my friend!
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Thank you @JazzyS @anon74766472 , itās empowering to know thereās someone here ready to help. 
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@sobermedic wow ā that is amazing! What a lovely alternative for your evening. Keep up the amazing work!
@alexwayhill have fun camping and hiking ā just be careful for the slippery spots when hiking in the rain 
@catmancam congrats on 1 week of being binge free and yeah to beginning your therapy on Monday. Have you made any celebration plans for Tuesday? I donāt know about you but I make a huge deal about my birthday and treat myself to a play or a museum or a nice dinner or all the above (mine is in December so sometimes the weather gets in the way but I still try to do something for me) ā I do hope you are able to celebrate you properly
@nastya_is_fighting look at you kicking ass all over the place! Way to go my friendā¦ so very proud of you. Congrats on finally completing the school year and having the documents in handā¦ hope you can enjoy the summer before the September school session starts. Looking forward to your book
@amy30 I think youāve handled this week amazingly and so thrilled for you getting out there and applying for new jobs ā heck yeah they want you ā why not! You may not be native English writer but your writing is awesome and you have a way of articulating your ideas. This may be exactly what is needed so go with the flow ā it will turn out as itās meant to ā donāt stress! Keep kicking ass and staring sober 167 days!!! Heck yeah
@mischa84 welcome to day1 ā its not an easy road but one that is super rewarding. I do hope you have a good support system in place or working on oneā¦ great job in being a part of this community. Such love and support here and keep reading around (I find it to be a great distraction when the urges are the worst). The beginning is the worst but you can overcome. Hope to see you around
Checking in on Friday afternoon
Not the best day but hey iām alive and breathing (without wheezing today) and oh yeah iām addiction free!!! What more can a girl ask for. I will take it easy and not give into the symptoms. have had issues with my mind trying to suck me into a negative space but i am not allowing any of that! I have to keep reminding myself that healing takes time and i will overcome all this bull crap ā itās easy to forget how far iāve come already. Grateful for this place, for all of you! sending much love my friends - stay strong and have a fucking amazing Friday! 
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Night #2 of no binge eating in the books. Positive scale reading this morning as well. I need to lose 16 more pounds to have a good BMI numberā¦
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Day 2
Although technically it is still a Day 1, because I had 2 beers to not feel so āāshakyāā .
I was at AA today.
I was sober there, but I donāt know. Still had that feeling like I donāt belong there. People talked bout how they drinked everything, even perfumes. Drinked for weeks, for months. Being hospitalizedā¦
I donāt know.
Still there was one guy who said itās his second week and he even wanted to drink today, but instead he joined the meeting. He sympathized to my experience and I felt better about my situation. There was few moments that really clicked.
Felt better after the meeting. I really have not much to choose from. I know I need to go and do not skip the program. Many members, most of them are now on holydays together somewhere the sea. They will back next week and I know meetings will be more alive. I will also try to join another group witch is called āāShelterāā created by help of Priestās or monks in old monastery quarters. I really loved that one, but was late after work so jumped in the closer one.
Now I really need to get some good sleep and some time to get back in shape. I do not look good. I do no feel good, but I am happy nothing really bad happened and I am on the right path.
Have good weekend Team.
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@Dmcg1987 congrats on 80 days 
@Mischa84 welcome congrats on day 1
@Nordique congrats on all the 1s
@Sunny11 sorry youāre struggling, so pleased you poured it all away, proud of you, sending strength š©µ
@JazzyS I donāt have any plans, but since you mention it, there is a movie Iād like to see that may still be showing then, so I could take myself to that 
1054 days no alcohol.
519 days no cocaine.
1 year no sex.
34 days no vape.
8 days no binge-eating.
Today, depression has hit me like a ton of bricks. I did my morning routine, walk, and some jobs this morning. Then I napped all afternoon, woke up around 5pm, went for my lake walk early before I convinced myself to skip it, then Iāve been doing some reading here. Only an hour til the show Iām watching atm starts now. Will do some meditations beforehand.
Wishing you all wonderful sober weekends.
š©µ
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You could have died the other night and youāre lucky you were able to attend AA. IMO that fits right in with the rest of the stories you heard at the meeting. Comparing ourselves to others is no use anyway. We all dig our own holes. Have a good sober weekend.
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Day 2 evening checkin
3rd sober evening
FCK alcohol 
Back home safe and sober,
With a lot of change in my mind and thinking. Like a fine summary of all the chaos and information of the last weeks.
I made some notes and drawings.
Take care 
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Checking in sober. Glad my weekend is starting.
I didnāt get the job thatās up by my momās. Iām disappointed but not devastated. Something will turn up. Iām not in a hurry to move or get a new job.
I had therapy today. Heās impressed with what I am managing to do to engage in life. I see all the things I donāt do. Itās hard to break out of this negative mindset. So even when we donāt get into anything too deep in therapy, itās a useful reality check. But everything just feels like such a struggle. Maybe thatās just how life is. I am still sober, so thatās one good thing. I get cravings, not so much for the alcohol itself, but for the numbness it brings. Iām tired.
Itās going to be too hot this weekend to do much of anything. The blueberry farm just opened for the season to go pick your own. I love blueberries. They open at 7am so maybe I can make myself go early before it gets too hot.
Take care of yourselves.
OFDAAT
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Checking in. Day 266
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24 days AF. The day started ok and then a project I thought I was wrapping up went awry and turned into a big mess, taking up hours when I thought it would take minutes. I still didnāt finish it but the world wonāt end. Iām overwhelmed thinking about this setback and how busy next week is going to be. I had a moment where I my brain wanted to hit the fuck it buttonā¦ I started calculating how long it would take me to go get alcohol and come back. So I called my sponsor instead. Much better plan. Fuck alcohol! (Sorry but I need to curse today.)
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458 days 
The weekend is here. Going to exercise, bit of self care and relaxing on the cards today.
Had a relapse dream last night, threw all this time away for one night of drinking, was so full of regret. Am very glad this is not my reality anymore.
Have a great weekend guys 
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Day 4 . I have to say that I found in this app persons of great human qualities! I just had an argument in other group outside this app and here always I found respect for my beliefs. Thank you all
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Day 3: no overeating 
Day 10: no using credit cards 
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On day 2. Appreciate findinf this place so much. Love seeinf all these high numbers it gives me inspiration. I am terrified like the ground under me is moving, but knowing you are all here does bring me comfort. Thank you everyone for posting. Hoping to string together more 24s, and doing the work I need to do to heal.
Xo.
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Ya know what i thought of todayā¦i havent puked in over a year. Lol with my drinking puking was a regular occurrence. So glad ive traveled past those dark days and have the drive to do the next right thing
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Hello friends. Checking in on day 749. It was a very lovely day. I spent quality time with my family. Feeling peaceful tonight. Much love.
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I am glad you are OK. Iām sorry youāre stressed. Hope you feel better tomorrow.
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