22 days today, tired but ok 
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Day 29. My first baby of the season has arrived. But we’ve had to put netting over them as our magpie neighbours have been swooping in for a nibble 
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That is very insightful! I think i might keep track in the journal section when i have using dreams. See if they line up with upcoming appts. I do practice techniques to minimize my anxiety. They usually help. I also have an appt to talk to a counsellor this month related to the medical ptsd I have (not the ptsd from my past). Just stuff related to my sons diganosis, his appts, etc. I have 30 min until this appt. So just trying to stay calm 
Thank u for ur support friend!
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Day 5 done!
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@Sunshine-girl congrats on your week 
@HolySquid congrats on 90 days
@JazzyS thank you 🩵 it went okay, they were both nice gentle people, they will make some enquiries then get in touch to arrange starting to attend some groups 
@nastya_is_fighting congrats on your week
@JennyH sending strength and I hope Thursday goes as well as these things csn. 
🩵 congrats on 3 weeks
@Luna2022 welcome back 
good to see you 🩵:people_hugging:
@Rob11 sending strength 🩵
1029 days no alcohol.
494 days no cocaine.
9 days no vape.
7 days no binge-eating.
Dull day, dull mood. I’m okay though. I have my appointment tomorrow where they decide how to treat me with my complex trauma, dreading talking about it all again but will hopefully be worth it.
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Good going keep at it!
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I hope the appointment goes well, understand how you feel going through a plethora of psychiatrist/psychology appointments at the moment, treat yourself to a nice coffee or treat after 
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Celebrating day 241
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Thank you so much, I hope the appointment goes well.
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1Year 5Months, and everyday I feel more and more crap. One day here and there is good, but most crap. I dont understand whats going on with me, whats wrong. Why do I feel like Im walking the deathrow, that Im about to die any minut all the time! Something feels wierd in my head like a pressure inside, I get scared thinking Ohh yeah here comes the stroke.
But Hey, at least Im not drinking to that. Not today, and probably not tomorrow.
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I get this. I think my age has something to do with it, I’m 52 and almost 15 months sober. I have booked a full health check for tomorrow with my GP surgery, at least the most obvious signs should be picked up if they’re there.
Is this something you could do to set your mind at rest?
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I had MR of my head and spine last year, all good. Lots of bloodwork, all good. My doctor dont know of my alcohol problems ang how much I drank. I dont want it to be in my journal.
Good idea you do, so you can see if everything is how it should be. Have you told your doc about your alcohol problem?
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I worry about having a heart attack or stroke due to trying to manage my depression and anxiety by myself.
It is scary thought.
Do you get anxious? For me it affects my whole day and mood and way I think along with physical symptoms.
I then get anxious that my symptoms are mimicking anxiety and something more serious and the loop continues.
Sending you hugs 
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Day 4 ending. A little bit sick again, seems be a virus in the stomach. It’s ok, that’s the living
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@Soberbilly thank you. I feel fortunate to be able to relate here and being in contact with such an amazing people
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Yeah I get so anxious. And if I feel like this at work, I get so stressed and scared and feel like a burden and a failure. And at home scared my kids have to see me die, have to deal with that and scar them for life.
I dont get myself.
Do you get help for your anxiety, or are you diagnosed with anxiety?
Sometimes I think its all anxiety but mostly Im sure something is seriously wrong with me. Panicattack I get, but this:no.
Thanks for the hug
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Checking in sober. An hour of work left but I’m having trouble finding my motivation or focus. Still feeling lost. Doubting myself. What do I actually want for my life?
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Hi Karen, I don’t know your background but didn’t want to read and run. I feel very similar at the moment and genuinely don’t know what I want. I am trying to reconnect with who I was before drinking and adulthood became so hard. Do you feel like anything is going well right now?
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So sorry you are going through this, and @Twizzlers
I recognise that heightened state of anxiety and feeling that something bad is around the corner. It was triggered after pregnancy (was a bit of a shock) and I have had to take medication to deal with it. I just couldn’t shut my brain off without it. I do still have episodes (last night even) and find they are triggered by not having enough time to myself to process things.
I hope you get some peace from it soon
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