So very cool!!! I’m glad that you have made such a pact with your wife and will keep it. A huge congrats for completing your 1st week!!! @butterflymoonwoman wow girl I had no idea and yeah finding a competent nurse to do her job (aka care for your son) is super tough and anxiety ridden… I do hope she works out so you are not stuck with these shifts as well. Sending you luck. Thank goodness for caring and understanding coworkers. Try to be gentler with yourself. You are 1 person and doing a heck of a job!!! @sunny11 My goodness no wonder you are so tired my love – you have so much on your shoulders. Big hugs to you my friend. I am so sorry that your mom is sick and in the hospital. Sending you comfort and strength. I do hope that you find a way to give your body / mind the rest it needs and deserves. You are no good to anyone if you are not healthy yourself. @completely Welcome to this supportive community - where we are all dealing with similar shit and doing our best to make it day by day. Congrats on your day 2. Do you have a sobriety plan set up for yourself – support, meetings, distractions etc? Also – do you know what caused your slip from your 95 days – will you be ready for this the next time? This is a great thread to come to daily for accountability. Hope to see you around. @Rob11 Sorry the results are not so great – hopefully the doctor will shed light on the situation on Monday – have they discussed thyroid removal surgery? I know my Dad had similar symptoms and had to finally have the operation which has helped him tremendously. @Alejandro Congrats on your 26 days of sobriety – WOW that’s sweet.
They don’t have to be – prepare yourself before hand (have your answers ready if someone asks you to have a drink, bring your own drinks) You are still you and now you will remember the events that you attended. Have fun celebrating sober.
Checking in Saturday afternoon - my jaw feels so tight and my head is pounding — i’ve finally finished all the standing up work and now come home to take a nap (if possible) then possibly catch up on accounts if my eyes can focus I so want to smoke right now and blow out the tension as it were but remind that I can get on without this. This can’t last for too long so I’ll ride it out… hope everyone is having a great Saturday…
I have mentioned it myself last time. It has been at least twenty years this thing is a pain in the ass. Same period as my worst drinking episodes. The doctor replied that they don’t do surgery very often due to the high risk of complications. But I will address it again, this needs to stop.
I’m sorry that the doctor dismissed it so quickly and especially since you’ve been dealing with it for 20 years!
Wish you the best of luck on Monday with your conversation.
Btw, I had two radioactive treatments that should have killed it, but it seems it works still somewhat messing things up. The doctor is gonna wish she never woke up on Monday (just kidding)
I had my share of doctors already. Don’t wanna think about it now
One worst then the other, but the one that didn’t look at the most important value from the blood test beats all of them. And then we have the one who said you can’t have it because you’re to young………of course I had it after really insisted she tested way later then could have been…………may I go on
Day 2369. Went to a park meeting this morning and saw my sponsor. I have some work I need to do this afternoon, but I don’t really feel like adulting! Plus I’ll have to drive my son somewhere soon and feel like I will lose momentum when that happens, so why start?
I am having a hard time ever convincing myself to go for a walk. I would be motivated if I had someone to go with. Or if I didn’t live by so many busy streets. Or if I didn’t have to put on shoes, or… etc. Same thing with going to use the condominium’s jacuzzi. It’s been ages since I could convince my kids to go with me and I don’t really want to go by myself. I don’t mind going by myself, but just can’t get motivated. So I guess I’ll have to post in the “One word for how you’re feeling today” thread with my word for today being UNMOTIVATED.
Believe me I know how shitty our medical professionals can be - i’ve had my share of fights with many doctors and still fighting. Being a part of this community actually makes it easier for me to swallow how fucked up everyone in the medical field really is – I thought it was just me but I see now that it’s not… I find solace in that.
N-e-ways — no more doctor talks — try to have the best weekend that you possibly can have.
Checking in at the end of day six had a good day at work but I got the urge on the way home for a few cans and a few bags of cocaine I went home had a wash lay on my bed listened to music for a while and read a chapter of a book and turned watched a bit of telly after a few hours the craving was gone again and Iam not lying in bed after watching the champions League final on a Saturday night completely clean and sober a big step for me iam so happy how I handled that today made me see k can do it if I really want to to
Hi everybody! Happy Saturdays
I found you guys in 2020 before I started AA 5/2021. I had a year and a half before I relapsed this past March and then I forgot I’m also allergic to weed so that puts me at 4 days.
TODAY I’m in a wedding!!!
What they say is true; it is a progressive illness. I’m restarting the steps and feeling very nervous today, but I have a plan.
Sending you strength Samantha- you are strongercthan your addiction. If the urges get strong - excuse yourself and get some air…log on here to read threads or vent.
Welcome to the community- we are all here to support each other through our addictions
Wow kevin
You should totally be super proud of yourself! What a productive way to fight off the urges!
Have a lovely sober slumber - tomorrow’s your 1 week my friend …you are showing up for yourself
Thanks so much I kind of shocked myself to be honest but very happy I didn’t give in if I gave in I wudnt be able to live with my decision in the morning that In gave in so easy I didn’t even think about tomorrow is 7 days until you reminded me I honestly could not tell you the last time I went 7 days without anything at least 10 years.
Thank you for the reply my friend and thank you to everyone on here this forum is a massive boost
4 days AF second check in. My mood was better today than it’s been in months. This morning got up early (which is my new thing), went to a meeting, exercised briefly (need to get back into this routine), then went out to lunch with my partner to get a good meal. Then went to a home store to buy some new pillows and (fake) plants, then BAM out of nowhere hit a total wall in terms of energy. Got shaky and dizzy. Can barely get off the couch now but grateful for the day and the break from depression. Like a sun peaking through the clouds.
So much strength is in all of you - I gain so much from reading this thread always. Wishing everyone peace
@Amy30 Glad to hear you are managing the trip. Keep being calm and taking time for yourself.
@RosaCanDo Sending love and peace. Like sobriety, organized sing a house is odaat. It won’t look like a Martha Stewart house for a long time, maybe never will, I prefer houses that look more lived in, I get the feeling you you do.
438 days
The best gift I ever gave myself was the gift of allowing myself to be enough, just as I am. Without any substances. To experience life, in all of its peaks and valleys with a clear head.
Telling myself I cannot go back to a life I had before, with booze or drugs is freedom. There’s no choice but going forward. And when you take the option away, it feels freeing.
I made it back to the gym yesterday after allowing myself a mental health break, and I was so scared all my hard work was undone by the break I had, but it wasn’t. I needed it, I needed to listen to myself and take care of my mental health as well as my physical.
It’s all good to be healthy on the outside but if you feel like shit, and your miserable, it doesn’t matter.
Got me a good ole dose of humility today. Which is always a good thing.
Decided to go for a “big” hike and ended up biting off more than I can chew. I was able to finish the hike without incident (or search n rescue ), but I was out for far too long and felt underprepared. I can already feel the aches n pains settling in.
Now for anyone who knows me, they know that hiking is my passion and I’ve had some “big” hikes before with no issue. However I took that past performance and turned into an expectation, which led to me being underprepared.
I so want to smoke right now and blow out the tension as it were but remind that I can get on without this. This can’t last for too long so I’ll ride it out… hope everyone is having a great Saturday…
(just kidding)
chilling watching the rookie
