My weekend is here. Had a busy working weekend. Many colleagues are on vacation, some sick too, so lots of temporary replacements. Makes for more work for me. But it went well. More time for sharing and talking with the patients than on weekdays. Had some really good conversations.
Had dinner with me sister after and talked family history. I’m very busy with my early life in therapy atm, I re-found a diary from my mum I am reading now, and I put in a request to see the security file on my dad, who was a communist earlier in his life, and thus was deemed a security risk and followed by the Dutch secret service for years. Curious to see what I find there.
When I was still using I would have done this stealthily, secretly. Like I did most things in life. Now I am learning to share, to look for connection. We’re in this together and that goes much further than just as addicts. The opposite of addiction is connection.
Now I shared with my sis and she’s happy I did. The relationship between her and me is improving. As kids we felt both so isolated and alone that we never really formed a bond. I feel we are now. One day at a time. It’s making my life better slowly but steady.
Sobriety is a gift that keeps on giving just as long we work it. Have as good a week as you all can friends. Love.
@Scorpn Huge congrats on 301 days friend! @BJonns This place is so great for accountability, for sharing, for support, for wisdom. For togethernes. Glad to see you here. All success.
Day 12. I am currently on a little family trip. Usually I would be knee deep in beer all weekend but not this time. And it has been probably the best weekend we’ve had here after a few years of coming.
I have noted this phenomenon in the past. You actually enjoy these things more sober than you do when drinking. It’s just that little voicing your head saying “have a couple of beers, you’ll enjoy it more” it’s a lie… I know this, and I need to control it. Maybe if I do that enough times I’ll quell that little voice for good?
I’m doing good now. Anxiety is still under control and I’m feeding my brain endorphins when I can through exercise. My diet needs some attention though and I will work on that this week.
Enjoying reading posts on here. The good, the bad and the ugly. It shows I’m not alone in this thing.
Much love to all. Let’s go for another 24.
They do get so much better. I quitna 20 a day habit over a decade ago. I can hand on heart say I never, ever think about smoking anymore and havent for years.
It’s raining, still. Said to be extremely heavy rain this week.
And I think my phone is going to break pretty soon.
It’s been acting strange for a while, not charging properly, glitching and draining battery for no reason.
Today it’s glitch repeatedly, screen is blinking even with screensaver on. And there’s a strange line on my screen that’s not supposed to be there.
It’s pretty old so no wonder if it stops working. But the problems with getting a new phone a new bank id (you personally have to go to the bank to install it,and my bank is mainly online so they don’t have an office) is enough for me not wanting to get a new phone in at least a hundred years.
Besides that, nothing to report.
Except for the other small issue, my coffee has stopped tasting good actually it tastes horrible, so I’m planning on switching to tea instead.
Wish me luck
Checking in on the morning of day 181 sober. Yesterday was 6 months and life without alcohol seems so normal that I didn’t realize it was my six month mark the entire day.
That is a large part the result of this community.
Ok all, today is day 27 for me. I’m feeling good about this, but also feeling pretty lonely and scared about my husband. I already posted a thread a while back about living with someone who suffers from PTSD. So I won’t take up any more space with it here. Just bummed, and walking on eggshells, trying to soldier on.
Just checking in. Been a wild year. I had to restart my counter. I don’t want to feel like I’m losing control of myself again. I never want to go back to that. So I’m here being transparent and honest with the decisions I’ve made. I need more sober days.
Day 75 up and at it. Bed is made and I’m ready for the day. I have group untill twelve today so I’m going to miss my a.a meeting, but I’ll be ok atleast I got groups which is kind of the same thing. I have not been sleeping the greatest lately I’m up almost every hour of the night. I am excited about my keyboard today can’t wait to try it. Much love everyone have amazing Mondays
Thanks, Cjp. I do have counseling and it helps. Always been crappy with setting boundaries, and being too emotional about things. There is no physical danger. Emotional hypersensitivity, depression, anxiety,
Checking in SAF. Gonna be a long day. Was gonna ride the bike in to work this morning, glad I didn’t, it started pouring about 15 minutes into the drive. Meteorologist’s are the worst . I’ll ride it in tomorrow. Have a great day guys
. I’ll ride it in tomorrow. Have a great day guys 