You can do it!
I know this shitty voice so much.
But it’s a damn lyer!
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Day 14: no grazing - milestone!
Day 734: no pills
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Day 73. Excited about to head over for a meeting, gonna get some groceries today. I need some eggs to boil for my breakfast. Everything is good this morning, a little bit it anxiety. But I am excited, it doesn’t say out for delivery but my keyboard arrived in Plattsburgh at 625 this morning. So there is a good chance it is out for delivery.
Yesterday when I was walking outside I saw that guy again and I can tell he’s gonna be trouble and I’m doing my best just to ignore it. But I’m also not gonna let him make me feel uncomfortable either, I noticed him when I was walking out so I just ignored him and kept walking by, then I heard hey who’s this catt. I kept walking, he goes HEY who are you and I turned around and said yeah what’s up, he said have we met before and I said yeah we did, he said oh yeah that’s right and started laughing. I turned around and walked away, I’m not gonna let him mistake my kindness for weakness. Plus idk why anyone would want to fuck with me anyways I look jacked you think they would mine their own. Anyways much love everyone it’s meeting time catch yah later dudes.
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Congratulations on ur 2 week milestone for grazing! I struggle with this also. Can i ask what u have been doing to get urself to this milestone?
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Hope u have a great day mike! And hope ur keyboard arrives! Glad ur not letting this guys behaviours effect u. I wonder what his issue is tho? Jealousy most likely. Idk. Its good that ur being the bigger person and not stooping to his level or letting him rent space in ur head.
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CONGRATULATIONS on 90 days!!! 
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Not sure where else to post this hope its okay here just need to vent a bit.
Out of nowhere such strong cravings have come along. Ive been doing great so far and now my stupid lizard brain is telling me that I never had a problem, Ive overblown it, Im being dramatic.
But I AM and alcoholic and I AM a parent. For me, those two things have to be mutually exclusive. I grew up in a abusive, violent home and although I am not an abusive violent drunk, I cannot risk giving my child a whole new set of nurosies to deal with growing up.
I’'m not going to drink but it fuckin sucks the strenght and instantaneous of the craving.
I’m going to do something creative tonight. Some painting maybe. Anything to keep idle hands busy. Lots of circular breathing.
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Good day so far, cleared a lot of stuff out and dropped off at local charity shop. Picked up some stuff to make dinner and then a movie later tonight.
Hope everyone’s having a good Saturday!
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I have complete faith that u can get thru this. The cravings DO pass. Our mind will lie to us but it sounds like ur able to see the truths thru that and that u know what u want for urself and ur child. I like ur idea of doing something creative. Deep breathing and grounding exercises are my go to also for cravings. They always seem to help. Glad ur here and venting 
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Thank you very much. I think ill just be grumpy all night 
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583 days sober. The anxiety level is so high. Its so hard atm, stuck on a boat for 2 hours does not make it better. I really wish I could drink this shit away.
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I don’t have kids but I do know that I was a handful and it was not my parents fault. You are not to blame. You are doing great and will get through this phase. Have a wonderful weekend Drew
@kareness very cool catch indeed! Congrats on all the sober time my friend! You rock!
@JULI1 WOWZERS – check you out with 1 week! Love this Julia – well done! Keep fighting for yourself.
Love all of this and yes – the sweets (for me ice cream) was my go to after quitting and I have seen that this is very common. Agreed that it is so much better than the poison. After 7 months now, I find that I am reaching for the ice cream much less. Wishing you the best of luck with your new meds – grateful that your doctor is aware and so responsive
@scorpn I see you at 299 days – YOU ARE AMAZING! Man – I am sorry that you are not getting enough rest – I do hope that your sleep improves for you soon. Our wifi has been blotchy and out a lot too and when it does work it is super slow and intermittently cuts out – started after some storms last week and still kind of off in the entire area. I so empathize with your kids – I feel like I’m lost without it and can only imagine what your youngest must be going through. I do hope you are able to get it resolved soon.
@jennyh I am grateful that you are aware of your urges and do hope that you are able to dig into your toolbox to help you stay the course – you are doing so well in keeping strong – we are here for you! You have passed your 1 month mark my friend – keep fighting for yourself. It does get easier
@starlight14 You are entitled to have time to rest and do whatever the Fuck you want. I would so be in a rage too. I’m sorry that your day started off this way – do hope it got better. 
@butterflymoonwoman so happy to hear about your lovely evening – hoping the weekend is just as lovely. I did manage to sleep in a happy mood (all that laughter with watching non stop comedy had to rub off sometime). I feel ok enough today – hopeful for a lovely day! Much love Dana 
Oh Dana – just read your check in and love it to bits – I wish you all the strength in regaining the zest for life! Grateful that today is a better day and grateful for your time for reflections.
@mrsodh My goodness the overnight stay sounds horrendous. The pets and then no breakfast options and being around drinkers night / day – I am so sorry. I do find it best to not visit in someone’s home and vise versa – it is way too much of a hassle and not worth the aggravation. Glad to hear about your school situation. Your time and energy and time with family is way more valuable. Also glad to hear that telling everyone you don’t drink wasn’t a huge deal – I have told a few in passing and luckily been ok so far.
@pattycake Well done on 25 days – it can’t be easy when you have someone at home drinking while you are trying to abstain. You are doing great and I do hope that you continue to fight the battle. We are here I f you need to vent or…
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Checking in day 335, and 
months sober 
Very grateful to be here at 11 months. Still feels strong in my sobriety, and slowly closing in on my longest sober streak (around 1 year and 1 month). I never thought id make it back, but here I am 
Wishing everyone a super sober Saturday 
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Yay!!! Congratulations on your 11 months!!! This is such a big deal!
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Grateful for this revelation – Yes, I think we all go through this from time to time and it important to remind ourselves of day 1 and remember the hurdles we had to go through to get here. Remember that next time around may be even harder. Not this time though – I LOVE IT – keep up the amazing work
@rob11 grateful that you are staying the course. I am thrilled that you are able to get this treatment and looks like they are doing a proper evaluation rather than just jumping in blind.
@sissychris39 Well done on your 2 week milestone! Keep kicking ass!
@anon53116147 Glad that you are not letting this mofo get to you or engaging with his stupid behavior. I too am surprised that he’s messing with you to begin with (maybe he’s intimidated and trying to mark his territory)? In any case – keep doing you and hopefully he will piss off. Fingers crossed that you get your keyboard today.
@thewolf Well done on your 90 days! Keep kicking ass – no need to say more 
Love this!
@kipper Hey Mike – first of all you are doing a hell of a job keeping sober. You are still in the early stages and unfortunately your brain will try to convince you that you never had a problem and its ok to have one – we both know that’s not true. Stay the course – the cravings will lessen I promise. Great plan to keep active and do something creative. Much strength and love my friend!
@wakikki Damn anxiety! That bitch does sneak up and cause so much damage. Drinking will not make anything better and it will only take you back to day 0 after you have come so far! Are you able to do deep breathing exercises or listen to some soothing toon? I do hope you are able to make the 2 hour boat trip. Much love
@mossetracks Well done on your 11 months! That is so huge. Have a wonderful sober Saturday yourself – keep up the amazing work!
Checking in on Saturday morning –
Whoa – I love how many more gratitude’s and check in’s we have here now. So many celebrations and love that we are all here fighting for a better healthier day! I am determined to make today better than yesterday – off to a good start. Hoping everyone a positivity charged addiction free day! Sending much love
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I know! It really can ruin everything. I know, drinking will not make it better and it would be a hell tomorrow waking up like I remember from drinking, but it would numb me rigth here and now. But I will not drink.
Hope your day continue stay as positive as the start of it 
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Keep repeating that…i know its hard but you are worth it.
Thank you…im determined to make it a positive energy charged day 
We can do whatever we put our munds to.
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We came back home from our camping trip a day early as I felt it would be a lot easier packing up and travelling this afternoon during a dry spell than risking it being a wet morning rush tomorrow. So we’re back in the comfort of our own home and have had some nice food delivered as a treat.
The three of us had showers in quick succession and it seems we’ve flooded the neighbours bathroom downstairs. Oops. We both rent so it’s a case of getting a hold of the housing manager first thing on Monday for a repair. The neighbour is happy with that. Of course, we won’t use the shower until it’s fixed.
I have to say that I found this forum very supportive while we were away and I was feeling left out of the other mums drinking and such. It was good to know that you are all out there and we’re all in each other’s corner. It really makes me feel less alone.
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