Checking in daily to maintain focus #56

@rainy7 So sorry that your plans fell through – great job in keeping yourself active and going to a meeting. Boredom is the worst. Hopefully something here may help —Things to do when you get bored Wishing you luck for tomorrow night – grateful that you are aware of this and will be vigilant in handling it
@danam56 Well done on 50 days. Grateful that you were able to deal with the horrible situation and you had your brother around to help keep you on the sober track. Love all the energy and productivity – keep up the amazing job with your sobriety!
@1in8billion Haven’t heard from you in a while - just checking in to make sure all is well on your end.

Checking in Sunday evening
228 days without alcohol / weed
643 days without cigarette
Its been a rough day - i did manage to get 1 load of laundry done and 3 hours of accounting stuff (been neglecting it for 2 weeks). i did spend a lot of time sleeping but that did not help. only got 4500 steps in today. Hoping to get back on track with everything tomorrow… Well - i’m off to get yup some more sleep - wishing everyone a wonderful addiction free evening / day - sending much lov :heart: :heart:

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Omg right?!?! Her aerial skills… I think my mouth is still open hahaha- she’s so freakin cool​:metal:t3::sparkling_heart:

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I totally get that antsy feeling, I get like that when my daughter is away w her dad too, I’m trying to be more aware of my impulsivity and continue to work on it.
Happy to find company here :smiling_face:

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131 days clean and sober. :pray::slightly_smiling_face: Its been interesting and well worth it. I thank God every day for walking with me and giving the strength and courage to become a better me and not walk in the temptation of the devil any longer. Just believe in yourself and want to be healthy and do right and you will. Trust that God is always there. :heart::heart::heart::slightly_smiling_face:

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Welcome to the community Ashley - so good to have you here with us. Great job on your 131 days of sobriety! Keep up the amazing work :muscle: :muscle: :clap: :heart:

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Thank you so much I appreciate the kind words really. :heart_eyes:

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Day 36.

Just a quick check-in! Still sober! Went to an all-day metal festival yesterday with my boyfriend. Got my non drinking wrist band straight away. It was fun, but damn I was tired at the end.

Today has been all chores and food shopping, and healthy meal prep for next week’s dinners. Gotta exercise since it’s been two days without.

I’ll do a more thorough check-in tomorrow. I am pooped. Haven’t been sleeping as good as I’d like. Fingers crossed for tonight!

Stay strong, lovelies! :muscle:t3::people_hugging::heart:

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Day 301

Damn I’ve been so anxious today! Talk about milestone malady! I almost cracked and said I can’t take this anxiety, I should get high.
I am so glad I didn’t and I have my days and don’t need to start over. I commend each of you who do start over when you fall!
I’m not sure I could do it.

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Grateful that you didnt crack today. Grateful that you are focused on adding days to your timer.:muscle::muscle:

Day 1 was a bitch and youve come so far love! You have been remarkable in getting through these 300 days. Keep showing up for yourself- you are worth it :people_hugging::heart:

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For sure! I’ve found on here, you’re NEVER alone!! When my daughter used to go to her dad’s it was “my time” and it was filled binge drinking until she came back but now it’s so different. The last weeks I was wrestling with guilt and depression. Since it’s passing, now I’m getting bored :unamused::sob: lol can’t win!! But, I have zero regrets on this decision :heartpulse:

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I get that…i feel lost sometimes when my daughter isnt around…your time is still your time without the booze…do some self care lady and enjoy it…itl bolster your self esteem…if u cant think of anything to do after that do some work on your sobriety…set yourself a challenge to do that happy list and try and incorporate as much from that list into your day as possible

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I’ll for sure try it, and will try to get some meditation down. I’ve heard it really helps with grounding especially with boredom or cravings. It’s all so new, so fast. But, I’m feeling muchhh more optimistic than 27 days ago :heartpulse::heartpulse::heartpulse::clap:t5:

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Your doing great things, it doesnt have to be expensive or big things…6 things that are on my happy list after my daughter…driving calms me…singing…silver jewellery…animals…music… food…so i drove to the next town with some fave music on and sang to it, checked out the little cuties in the pet store…went to the jewellery store (just cheap stuff) stared at it and tried some on then came home and ordered a fave take away…simple but lovely :heart_eyes:

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That sounds amazing :face_holding_back_tears::two_hearts::two_hearts: okay, I like that idea alot!!

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Day 9

I made it to day 9? Ok wow.

I talked a lot and wrote with some familiar people about “him”. yesterday… The guy who is constantly disappointing me, making me sad, giving me only place in this little little frame of his life… Or as every single person said yesterday, is manipulating me and absolutely toxic.

I came to the end to quit. I am not good in that but I have to. We had fun with my favorite hobby but I have to. Have to protect myself, my soul, heart and sobriety. This little toxy shitty arrangement is making me sick and behave against my inner values.

His very charming outer shell is just a camouflage for its empty cold soul. The many compliments are nothing but the drugs he gives me. Lovebombing, future faking and then back to this little little frame. The red flags are big and unmissable. I will restart my toxic relationship counter. Keep on doing the work on my codependency and love addiction.

Stay strong :muscle:t2::pirate_flag:

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:heart_eyes: this is the type of things i do on the days i dont have Sofia…right im bored…ok check out the happy list on my phone and go do as many as possible…i never have alot of money so sometimes its difficult but the list is a good point to start from xx

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I haven’t been in this thread for a long time.

This is my first sober summer. Ever. (Well, since 2000). It’s great not to be hungover and sleep the days away. Except I work most in the summer so I still feel like I’m missing out.

Last night finished the biggest weekend of the year where I work. Anyone who golfs has probably heard of an Invitational. 3 days of golf and drinking. And 3 days of hell for the employees. I worked noon to 3am, having only 2 ten minute breaks. First one in 8 years I didn’t drink and I made it through just fine.

After the big dinner, once the real party started, I went downstairs and just thought “the only reason this looks so fun is because everyone is hammered.” Sticking around and mingling didn’t interest me at all. Even though I could’ve made a lot more money by doing so. I’m glad it’s over anyway.

I’m up late tonight bc I didn’t go to sleep til 4 last night, but I think now is the time. I’ll try to keep checking in here. Goodnight everyone :sleeping:

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Checking in on Day 1 (yet again :disappointed:) I had 45 Days under the belt and have had to reset twice since. Definitely need to start using this app more often.

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So good to read you checking in again girl.
Just thought about making a “you are missed” post but then I saw your healthier chocolates treats on Foodies :upside_down_face:

This test sounds interesting. I will google and try this later. Fuck that guy who did that to you years ago. I know it’s hard and I carry my wounds too. But honestly, mostly it has more to do with the other person then with us.

As you can c in my post above I have a current issue too. But we have to be strong. Fill our own cups of love first. :heart:

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Thank you so much. You are right - definitely need to try to look at it that way, so thank you :blush:

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