This is lovely - you HAVE created a healthy environment and should be proud of that. Grateful that you did talk with your hubby about what you have been going through and are now getting some support irl at home.
glad you started to feel better once you started to do house chores - sending you much love and energy to get your recovery groove back on track! 
Checking in on day 157 sober. Parents are in for the weekend and my sisterās family and my cousins family are all coming over tomorrow for a cook out and hangout. Totally sober. My house my rules. Mostly non drinkers anyway so not that big of a deal.
Checking in for today 
I love myself. I understand myself. 
I accept myself. I forgive myself. 
I appreciate myself. 
I trust myself. 
I switched my day shift for my colleagueās night shift today so I can enjoy and be more productive during the day. My flatmate had planned to go to the movies tonight, but I donāt think thatās quite worth sacrificing the day forā¦ 
I had some cravings this morning, but didnāt relapse. It appears so deceivingly harmless to the subconscious mind, like a wolf in sheepās clothing. Not this time. 
My plan for today is just to give my best and make it worthwhileā¦ 
1714 days
I slept okay. Apartment cooled down a bit. I learned that temperature wonāt say much without humidity.
Still no idea what to do today and the fact that everything has to be done before noon is a bit stressful.
What is great that while the bus was nearly free before (1 ā¬ for 1 hour) it is now free in summer. Great move.
I hope everyone has a good weekend.
Day 21 
our visitors are going home today, a day early, as the weather has been pantsā¦ five nights and 12.bottles of wine consumed (they didnt bring one!)
When i was drinking i wouldnāt have noticed and probably we would have gone through alot more. Interestingly for me is the reality that i am quite a quiet person, and i really appreciate just listening to nice music in the evening rather than being raucous. God sober me isnāt much fun 
i did though top up their glasses as usual and kept to my lemonade.
Sleep is rubbish tho on a Friday. I think i am use to being asleep as of wine, rather than naturally on the weekend ?
Chuffed to be at day 21
Day 13
A productive day. Took pics of some stuff to sell on eBay. Tomorrow Iāll do the listings. The weather was perfect.
Ate healthy and went for a walk and got some errands done. Helped out my mom write a difficult email. Itās nice to be helping her for a change.
Started a squat routine with a stretch routine.
Tomorrow I taper down from 40mg Prozac to 20mg for a week. Weāll see how next week goes lol.
Off to bed sober. Happy tomorrow marks two weeks. Again lol.
Congratulations on hitting your double digit day Jenny.
Iām glad your daughter is happy and looking forward to moving onto her next phase and that she was having a good time at her party.
I found it scary thinking my youngest is moving into secondary school, she has her primary school prom next week, itās like sheās grown up so much but feels like she should still be tiny.
Look after your knees, make sure they are right before you get back to exercise, you need to be kind to your body, your knee is a massively complex joint, the most complex in your body and it takes so much impact from your daily life, when you do get back to it remember itās about getting results not getting hurt. Advice to protect your knees when you do get back is strengthening exercises for your quads, hamstrings and calfās they help take the pressure off the movements, use low impact exercises like bikes, elliptical striders etc until they are right and avoid running or anything that involves landing on your feet with high impact!
Take care lovely lady!
Day 182.
Firstly, thank you to everyone who congratulated me yesterday. Sorry for not replying to you all individually, I was stuck in my own head trying to make sense of where my life is now vs only six months ago. Milestones are weird like thatā¦
So yesterday was just one of those days when everything that could go wrong, went wrong.
The arcade Iād been so excited about was tiny and shit.
We then went to a restaurant on the river. They had a birthday party in the back room, a hen do in the front room and serving normal clients (us!) In the middle room. These rooms werenāt exactly separated by much and the doors were wide open. The birthday party people had their loud music on, the hen do people had live music on (by live music I mean that singer sounded like a cat getting strangled). And who got to hear both? Me! In stereo.
Oh, but it gets better. I ordered a lemonade and they brought meā¦ well, technically it was a lemonade. It was lemon squuezed in tap water. No syrup, not sparkly water. Tap water. And it was warm. They didnāt even run the tap for a few seconds first.
I ordered skewers, they brought me stew. Not bad stew, but not what I wanted. To be fair, the guy did offer to fix the error, but that would have meant listening to that strangled cat dueting Rihanna for at least anothet half an hour.
So I gracefully ate half the stew and that was that.
Okā¦ so my celebration night out didnāt go as planned. But me and my husband had a good laugh about it.
Today I have a lot on and thatās a good thing. I wouldnāt have all this work on if I wasnāt sober enough to get it done.
Day 1
Morning checkin to maintain focus on no wrong exits tonight and a sober head on pillow. Sobriety is freedom. Want to free myself. Be free. Finally. First of all focus on next 24 hours.
Thanks so much. The physio suggested pausing the running for a couple of months, but to get back to the gym in a few days. I will take your advice. I am almost hyper-mobile so my knees have been overworking apparently.
@JennyH Listen to your physio, but most importantly listen to your body, you will know what you can and canāt do and whether you are comfortable doing it.
I can guarantee you though strengthening the muscles around your knee relieves the strain on them. Itās what they do when recovering from knee surgery etc because when you lose mobility from your knee you lose muscle strength and quality in your thigh and calf so the rehab concentrates on strengthening those muscles first before it concentrates on manoeuvrability of the joint in directions other than straight line motions.
Day 96 checking in sober
Wow!! Fantastic achievements, what an amazing bunch of kids. Youāre right to shout about it, I would too. 
1498
Have as good a day as you all can friends. Sober and clean. Love.
The dinner date with old high school mates really was great. We talked and ate from 7 till after midnight. I couldnāt have done it a year ago as I was still in I-want-to-forget-my-past mode. Like @Rob11 Iām learning I am one, the past and the present. Learning to love myself, the good, the bad and the ugly. Huge gain really.
And that after an intense group therapy session that made me want to puke for the internal tension it created at first, but we worked through that and worked through some of my past hangups too. More than hangups really. A great day. Not all days are like that but I love when it happens. Sobriety is a gift that keeps giving just as long as you work it. ODAAT and all that. X
Pic is my public transport card from back then.
@LeeHawk Looks like youāre floating in space! 
@SadMemeQueen Thatās HUGE progress Lady. Makes me shed a happy tear for you 
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@BrOKenWolf Congrats on all your kidās big feats Richard. Very proud dad yes. 
@JennyH Double digits! Yay you! X 
@Bomdhil what app/site are the inspirational daily quotes from?
Also this for me today:
Overly emotional, dehydrated, exhausted on my day 49. Had a brief thought after work about having a drink but it was BRIEF. Iāve come too far.
Is the overly emotional normal at this stage? Or am I just tired from work?
Iām here, Iām alive and Iām sober.
Day 3
Me and my husband have wedding day anniversary today.
We donāt plan to celebrate, instead we plan on going to a more fancy restaurant with the kids during our upcoming roadtrip to celebrate.
Not that we are really fancy anyway but it feels god to know that we actually can afford to do it if we want to. I got married in a flower pattern summer dress from H&M and matching Flip Flops. It was in the middle of the summer and extremely hot that day.
We married at a festival in a nearby city, in the middle of the street. His ex wife (Tweenies mom, for those of you who remember her) was there trying to ruin it, out of spite and or jealousy. For a very long time, I didnāt even wanted to remember that day. I wanted to re-do it for real. Without her, without anyone who could ruin it.
But here we are, more than a decade later,still married, with a wonderful family. We have gone through so much together, and now Iām certain no one actually can ruin it. Both of us still in very much in love with each other,still smiles when we wake up together in the morning. Still determined that we are going to do this thing called life together.
I truly married my best friend, and it feels better and better for every year. No matter how difficult it gets, we always find something to laugh about. Mostly me who laughs at everything ,but it as they say it helps to marry someone with a humor.
Checking on day 338. Iām on my own for a few days, as my guys are already on vacation so theyāve gone to visit family. This would normally have been serious night drinking time, as I struggle to fall asleep when Iām on my own, I feel jumpy and alert. But itās different now. If I struggle to fall asleep I just turn the light on and read some. Then I try again, and sleep eventually comes. And if Iām a bit tired the following day, then I figure that will help me fall asleep sooner. No need to stress about it.
And beyond working, Iām making the most of these days by giving the house a reset, decluttering, tidying. And giving myself a reset also, with healthy meals and lots of walking.
Happy to be here, and to be with you all. Best Saturday to you!
Both I guess. I dulled my emotions by drinking. I was a stoic, an introvert, a quiet one being on drugs and booze for 40 years. It turns out that the sober me, the real me, is actually not so introverted at all. And is emotional. Quite a lot. Iām embracing it. Itās me. Of course when Iām tired it gets worse
Iām discovering pretty much the same thing. Iāve always thought Iām the quiet introverted one. Yet I have friends who says Iām a Pink,glittery, Disney Delight chatterbox. I had no idea where that came from until I realized that Iām just the quiet introverted person when Iām close to my own family (Especially my Ma who Iāve been going on about for days here) because thatās they way they want me to be.
And when Iām with my husband he is so extremely social so I donāt need to even try. He takes over, without thinking about it. And it doesnāt bother me, I just fill in when he gets it wrong. (He is multilingual like me but we doesnāt speak the same languages, and he is no good at English)
Day 287
I already got a fresh haircut, went grocery shopping and now itās time to have breakfast. I know it might cause some gut problems but I HAD to get brioche bread, I was craving this since days. My selfmade bread is fine but sometimes you need something else Weāve all been there.
I overslept today and wasnāt really present at the hairdressers. When she said āgoodbye, have a nice free saturdayā I just replied āthanks, you tooā. Poor girl has to work until 4pm 
Awkwardā¦
Thatās it for now, have a beautiful sober day friends, stay strong 
