Definitely much better. I feel like I have quite a bit of extra time on my hands, now that I am not drinking and I am trying out new things. It’s helping.
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53.78 hours no vape
10 days no alcohol or marijuana
I made it through my 2 days off with no vape
Tomorrow morning will be a test with no vape be4 work. I think I can do it but I’m a little nourvous
I can sleep in a little bit so that will be helpful
I think the first thing I’m going to get in my system is meds and a lossinge then breakfast when I’m ready. If I’m going to be craving, I can’t be hungry
Goodnight everyone
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Thanks! 
I hadn’t thought that far ahead, I appreciate you making that suggestion. I did reach out to my EAP at work to get set up with a therapist or something to talk through impulse control strategies so hoping to get that ball rolling next week too. My plan right now is just to have will power and I don’t think that’s a good long term plan. Lol
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Wishing you luck with getting that ball rolling. Will power alone is not enough…none of us can do this alone and we all need set plans / routines to help us with our addictions.
We are here for you but having sime sort of support system irl is also helpful.
Glad you are here -Hope to see you around my friend.
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I had some feelings of hopelessness and a small pity party today. I later realized that I was feeling overwhelmed with things that are ultimately out of my control. After some quick tears, I got lunch, did a little shopping and relaxed at home with a bath and some reruns of “Project Runway.”
I made a list of things I can accomplish on sticky notes, with one item per note to avoid trying to take on too much. I feel a lot better and organized 
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Day 27. Up early as usual even when its my day off . Off to see barbie the movie this pm
Not feeling my confident self at the minute, not feeling horny, just feeling a bit out of sorts but sober
Off to make my morning coffee 
have a good day folks
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#Day 1766 
Just wanne vent something that happens in the shop I work in. As some as you know I work in a health store. I sell and advice supplements, body care products, sport nutritions and healthy foods.
I got a young guy in yesterday, my co worker was helping me and asked me for extra advice. His mom was drinking heavily, didn’t want to quit. Lost her job, her health and started to forget things so her son was afraid of Korsakov.
He and his sister wants to help her for the last time. They where going to live with her to get her on healthy food and rest. They hope she would become more open minded for a plan towards recovery after a while. She declines any help now.
I openened up about my alcohol related story in the hope that gave some hope. But I also warned him and advised him to seek help. If she doesn’t want help, he can and maybe they can advice in this situation from the sideline.
It broke my heart to see him trying to do good for his sick mom. Sounded like she was in a very bad place 
He left the store with vitamin B1, Milkthistle and a lot to think about. I hope this story has a happy end 
Just needed to share this, it’s on my mind since.
Have a good friday all and let’s fill it with healthy decisions.
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That’s stuff’s really hard to deal with my friend. Here’s hoping their mum will accept help at some point. But all we can really do is facilitate change, it’s the people themselves who have to want and do it. Well you know. One tip (too late now, but going to give it anyhow): the addiction centers here all have programs for family and other loved ones too. They can be very useful in many ways. Here’s the contact page for my employer, and the one in your province:
Thanks for caring 
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Had a nice ride and visit with my aunt and her kitties yesterday (uncle was out). I notice how I have grown in dealing with family, dealing with my past and how to talk about it with family. We talked a good bit, I didn’t feel anxious about it and as it turned out my grudges are less and my understanding much better. Progress.
Now let’s see some more progress when I meet my (former) bestie for a good lunch in town later. It will be great if we just can have some fun together. Not the time for deep relationship sh*t.
But therapy first. This is turning into a busy little staycation. Have as good a day as you can all. Sober and clean. Love from the polder on my ride yesterday.
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Checking on sober.
Driving to rehab right now. I’m really excited but also scared. I hope everything will be ok. 
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Day 102 checking in odaat
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Hey @Soberbilly, sorry for the delayed response. Yep I made an appointment at the DMV. It’s gotten a lot easier than it used to be years back, hasn’t it 
? That’s awesome that changing your diet saved your life! I love stories like yours! My mom is a vegan. I’m slightly allergic to dairy and was a vegetarian for 12 years, so I appreciate good vegan food. And yes, you can call me Gen haha! Only a select few get that privilege 
. Thanks for asking.
Day 18/19
I missed yesterday, because I just pooped out. I did like 2 hours and 30 minutes of walking (broken up into two walks), and I was just tired. Thankfully, it’s helping a lot with my insomnia. I don’t feel like I’m overdoing it. I just need to start posting a little earlier and not right before bed 
. The weather here has been SO nice! It really helps with my anxiety and the fresh air is lovely. I also love seeing everyone’s gardens, and their pets.
Today my mom had a job interview to be a caregiver for a senior lady. She hasn’t worked in many years and has terrible self-esteem issues. Her anxiety was through the roof! So I drove with her to the house to give her moral support. It’s nice to be supporting HER for a change, since she’s been my rock lately with my own anxiety/depression struggles and with my recovery/sobriety journey. I went for a walk while she was being interviewed. I got a call from my boyfriend, who recently became a city bus driver. It turns out the timing was perfect for me to walk to the shopping mall, and for him to stop there and pick me up. So, I rode around with him while he finished his shift at 1PM. Then we got to hang out afterwards. It was spontaneous and fun! AND my mom got the job! She was so happy and I’m really proud of her. I bought her a cupcake🧁!
So, today was a good day. My med decrease is still going surprisingly smoothly, which I’m grateful for, and I’m not gonna question it too hard. Haha!
Tomorrow I’m going to my local town AA meeting at noon. I’m going to walk there (it’s about a 30 minute walk), instead of getting a ride for accountability. However, I’ve still asked my mom to call me right before (so there’s still some accountability check-in there).
Now it’s time for sleep! Goodnight Sober Warriors! You’re all badasses! 
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Good luck! Proud of you! You’re very brave. 
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Day 284
Feeling kinda blah today. Kinda stuck in my own head…
Hope y’all are doing ok.
Let’s keep going. Odaat
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day 305 AF
day 0 Vaping*
Been really flat feeling this week, sad but numb also it has been a journey and interesting to sit here and try and feel out whats really going on inside.
I know ill come right, always do.
On another note its time to put the vape down. Havent been enjoying it, ive been trying to force this through my brain so hopefully that’ll be another thing gone.
I think I might just go sign up at a new gym this week and start working out again.
Much love team!
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I told the guy about that Menno. He said he don’t need help. But if he did he knew where to find it. I pushed a little though Maybe I planted a seed.
What worried me is that I did not warned him about the possible danger if his mom decide to stop cold turkey. But it was a smart young man who has googled already a lot of information so I hope he has read it somewhere 
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Thank you lovely lady, how was your time in Yorkshire? Or have you decided you can’t leave?
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Another sunny day and it’s Friday! Work starting shortly, walk after work and then a takeaway and movie.
Have a good one everybody!
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Keep busy to keep your mind occupied Scorpn, you’ve got this
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