Checking in daily to maintain focus #56

Day 32: no credit cards
Day 720: no pills

I relapsed last night on the grazing and shopping. I didn’t use my credit cards for the online purchases, but still. I refuse to beat myself up because that will make things worse. I can do this!

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Celebrating day 287

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Checking in on day 27. I went to a concert sober for the first time in 7 years a couple days ago, I can actually remember all of it and I wasn’t afraid to be myself. :smile:
Have a good day everyone!

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Another morning cigg/vape free day 4 will be at 4:pm about. I’ll be on to let you all know if I made it

Then 11 days sober. I’ve had countless relapses but I always came back to pester you guys lol I appreciate all of you. Not one of you I’m not thankful for. I need this place

Tomorrow will be a tough day at work maybe. I work till 10pm tonight then go in at 7am in the morning tomorrow. That’s going to be the new norm for me but when I go in for 7am I’m out at 4pm for plenty of rest. Priorities and the support of my wife and her family and you all will keep me going

Try to stay strong everyone

P.s. sence I quit vaping and cigs just the thought of hard alcohol gets me sick to my stomach

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Totally relate to this, geus a way to make amends is to live a sober life. I might make amends in person in the future when some people might cross my path again.

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Hope your feeling better today

@ShaunD well done lad I was in the same boat yesterday was getting that Friday feeling but did not give in

@Amy30 sorry to hear your struggling do you mind me asking do you still go to meetings iam always free for a chat for anyone strugling I would like to thing people would do the same for me

@KarenKW I no exactly how you feel I use coc and alcohol to escape but the depression after wards is not worth it plus it’s only masking a problem

And well done to everybody here keep fighting

Checking in day 7
A week clean today but it has been a very hard week over all…mood today has been like a rollercoaster massive cravings again which is putting me in a worse humor no walk today as the weather is catth Barry outside at the minute sitting here watching jaws and deciding what to get for dinner games reading and tv have got me threw today hopefully tomorrow will be a better day :slightly_smiling_face:

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Day 26. A little bit down. But it’s because the sickness

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2nd sober evening checkin

Yes low numbers again but I am still here.
I will sign the contract to quit my job next week. End of August is my last day, contact will end by end of the year. Finally I am done! One toxic bullshit less in my life!

Excited what the future brings. I will take time to relax first.

LOVE :panda_face:
FUCK ADDICTION

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@chosen2001 WOW Chris – thanks for sharing your journey with us. Grateful to hear that you are on the path of recovery and have good support irl. We are also here for you so do keep checking in. I do love your new focus- wishing you the best with this. Keep up your great work!
@timetochange very impressive with 27 days. Glad that you did get out of the house. Sorry about your tinnitus – are you getting any treatment for it? I have heard that drinking apple cider vinegar in warm water in am on empty stomach helps ease up the symptoms (not sure if that is something you’ve already tried).

I love this – well done on day 4 and with that amazing attitude you’ll keep stacking on the days!
@mrsodh well done on your double digits. Glad to hear that your YES day went so well. I love that you did that with all the kids.
@zzz very cool phone feature – It is all about finding happiness in the little things. Well done on your 1 week of sobriety!
@misokatsu Thank you so much Flo!
@danam56 Thank you for the lovely vibes – much appreciated. Glad all went well but sorry that you were in so much pain – hopefully this does not last long and you are able to start feeling better soon. Are you able to take something to help with the pain?
@rob11 Damn right to making the voice FRO – I do hope you relax and have a wonderful vacation – share some pics on the travel sober thread if you have time :wink:
@goku2019 Sorry that you are dealing with health issues – I do hope that you are able to connect with your doctor and get a good treatment plan in place. Hope you had a great time celebrating y our wife’s bday with the family.
@sissychris39 I’m glad that you are keeping track of your grazing and shopping and are not beating yourself up for the slip – it would make things worse and you can just start your timer over today . You are doing great work overall and should be proud of your achievements.

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@noshame well done my friend – knowing that tonight / tomorrow are going to be a bit rough with work schedule - well done on mentally preparing for this and staying ahead of it. I do love that giving up the vape has also put you off of the hard alcohol – well done! Keep focus on why you are doing this and how amazing it feels to come home sober not stinking.
@bomdhil how are you feeling today my friend? Hope you are able to get some relief from your allergies soon – are you able to take anything for them?
@anon15828629 Well done on making it your 1st week! Sorry that the cravings have been so bad – super proud of how you have handled them. It sucks when you are not able to get out and walk off the urges but glad that you do have your arsenal of mental distractions on hand. Wishing you a better day tomorrow – well done on beating today!
@juli1 So excited that you will be done with the job soon enough. The release of that toxicity alone will help you with sticking to your recovery. I do hope the next 6 weeks go by smoothly for you.

Checking in on Saturday morning - now afternoon
I am still not feeling so hot and the fatigue is intense but I have no urges and am 100% addiction free. Have a bad headache and my eyes have started to burn so I’m glad that I finally got through my check in (LOL). Have amazing support around me. All will be good – I’m going to shower and go back to bed. Sending much love my sober companions…
:heart: :heart:

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@Bomdhil I hope your allergies settle down asap :crossed_fingers:t2::people_hugging:🩵
@JennyH you’re right there, I worry if I miss too many I’ll lose the habit momentum. Thank you so much :blush:🩵
@Alycia I hope you had a lovely night at the cabin :blush:
@Dolse71 congrats on 34 months :tada: I share your sentiment :raised_hands:t2:
@JazzyS they did help a little, yesterday…today I couldn’t nap or be productive and get anything done that needs doing. I am currently in pain all over too, so I can empathise with how draining it can be. Proud of you for not engaging with your addictions through this, who knows what the future may hold if we continue on this path :people_hugging:🩵
@Chosen2001 sorry about your symptoms and diagnoses :people_hugging: glad there has been some improvement, and so pleased you’ve found shelter, love, and support, with your Aunt and Uncle in Texas :raised_hands:t2: 🩵 also, congrats on 50 days :tada:
@SoberWalker thank you for the appreciation :blush:🩵 that’s a nice idea, but ideally I am hoping to get back into the gym and swimming in the afternoons, but I’m still finding it very difficult, even 2 years after the incident in the changing room.
@zzz that’s a cool feature :star_struck: congrats on your week :tada:
@MrsOdh congrats on double digits :tada: and a successful Yes Day :partying_face: You are raising wonderful children going by their answer on their favourite part :blush: good job :clap:t2: 🩵
@GOKU2019 good to read from you :blush: congrats on your numbers :tada:

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Hi, was so so lovely. I spent my first 35 years in Lancashire and spent lots of time in the Dales, but never been over to the Yorks coast before, so beautiful :sparkling_heart:

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@Katiee congrats on the sober concert :tada:
@anon15828629 congrats on your week :tada:
@mx_elle I’m here for it :face_with_monocle::hourglass_flowing_sand:

1076 days no alcohol.
541 days no cocaine.
56 days no vape.

TW: mentions binge-eating, food, restriction, disordered eating.

Restless Depression & Boredom got me bad today. I’d done all my daily routine things by 11am. Made it until 2pm but then went to the convenience store, came home with way more than just the pizza I intended to get. It’s going to have to be a very hard NO , to any real food at home, because even when I feel like I can trust myself to just get what I intend to get, it’s still all lies , addiction really is so cunning, baffling, and powerful. Alas, I will not be defeated. I know in the past, when I manage to get past the first 4-7 days, it does get easier. So now that’s the first target, 7 days.

Today, I finished the book I started a few days ago. I did colouring in the lounge for 16mins, I remembered to put the audiobook on too today. I carried on listening to the audiobook from the safety of my bed, for a full 6 chapters. I haven’t napped today, I did try, in an attempt to not binge, but my addict brain was having none of it. I did my evening walk before catching up here too.

I hope you’re all having wonderful sober weekends. :blush:

🩵

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When you have cravings just get a mad idea to rearrange your collection :see_no_evil:

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Hello everyone,

Feeling content today. Quite busy on my own with the kids, and I just put a little something on for them bc they were gettinf at each other. Im just sitting with them as they watch their show, before gettinf up to get them supper. My head goes quickly, it always has and I have come a long way, but still have lots to grow. There have been a lot of challenging times in my life lately, and part of thr challenge I have had is the negative talk in my mind - about myself, about life and the future. Todays reflection in my book was about how we can simply put the thoughts down, jump the track and I really liked that.

I have been keeping up with working my work outs in to the day. Today i went for a 2 hour walk with the kids, mostly me pulling them in a wagon then did 50 push ups after I put my son for a nap. Its just a start, and I have to learn to start thinfs for myself in this fashion. I can be very strategic and pragmatic when it comes to tackling tasks, but when something is behind or I feel like I have failed and that goes double for taking care of myself. Anyway, thanks you all for beinf here.

Xi

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2411 days. Washed the car inside and out this morning. My tracker gave me 133 active minutes! And I cancelled our Airbnb where it would be too hot. I’m planning a staycation instead, where we actually do things like we’re from out of town, lol. There are half-day guided tours to Tijuana which could be exciting for the twins. They have never been out of the country. I think it would be fun. And it includes a lunch stop. The other people on the trip will probably have alcohol, but I just won’t.

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Yay! Happy 7 months! You’re amazing! Look at you go! :sparkling_heart::clap::heart:

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Hi. What I’m trying at rhe moment is hearing aids as oddly they can help mask tinnitus!

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Celebrating day 288

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Checking in day 167 … ODAAT!!! hope everyone is doing well

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