Thank you for the mention, Mel! And massive congrats on the 5 years thats incredible 
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Checking in for accountability, Day 1 is done 
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Checking in sober.
Headache all day. Tired. Glad it’s the weekend. Even though it’s going to be too hot to do anything.
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Day 46. Struggling but maintaining my mindset. The higher power will provide
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Well I genuinely appreciate you sharing all you have. Too for me, shame and guilt - they are as bad as resentment and self-pity (running rampant I mean, I do think addrsssing resentment and thinfs that hurt you is not bad. Just stewing in anger/bitterness or feeling sorry for one-self too much is no good). But i seemed to have been so focused on not ever wanting to be mad at anyone, and wanting to live a life of gratitude that I didnt maybe rscognize the guilt and shame moving in. Not sure. Maybe its just the season of my life.
What do you know my husband also grew up with two loving and devoted parents. Its amazing though as I get to know them I see their challenges as well, and it helps me to understand we all have our stuff.
So glad you guys had a date night. Sounds like you have a beautiful woman in your corner, and I bet dollars to donuts she sees a lot of the good in you that you may have a hard time seeing sometime.
An attitude of gratitude, you are right. Trying to remind myself of this, and when things get in my way I do pray (though I know its not for everyone). I am having to go back to the past, which I really DIDNT want to…but I see how its actually so very in my present, so its kind of like bringing it in and saying okay I hear you. Im doing this very slowly and with someone I trust, and I hope to heal the parts of me that I have not really either seen or maybe wanted to look at. I know I havrnt wanted to look at the parts of me that wete hurt by others, because I dont want to blame ANYONE, especially those I love. But new chapter I guess, and acknowledging the hurt isnt about blaming. Its just about the fact that im here now…wish me luck & I wish yoh the same 
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Gettinf all packed up for the cottage. Leaving tomorrow and there is internet so I am thankfully bringing you all with me.
Did a grocery shop, spent the day cooking (pulled pork, pasta sauce and I think I just invented zucchini-chicken parmesan-mozzarella stuffed meat balls? I will keep yoh posted on how these turn out LOL. We have so many zucchinis in our garden I am putting them in everything, giving it away 
by the boatload and I wanted to make zucchini meat balls but they are an effort and my kids were not down last time…so I got some ground chicken, and did a zucchini/chicken meatball, and then I realized I had some grated cheese I should use and stuffed them and thrn I thought fuck it Im going to bread these…and before I knew it the zucchini-chicken parmesan stuffed meatball was born 
). I truly love cooking…love it. I mean sometimes when you spend all this time on a meal and the kids dont want it, I mean that puts me to the test LOL but i do love to cook and I love good food Growing up my mom was a single mom so we had lots of quick things I could make for my sister and I, but she also cooked us so many beautiful meals and Im so grateful for that.
Anyway, not sure how that turned in to a food post but there it is. Folding laundry now (actually I am AVOIDING IT ), feeling good today and a bit nervous/anxious/excited about what the future holds. I feel proud of myself if I am being honest, and all the work we have done for my nephew. Its not over, but I have always struggled with self confidence and NEVER want to take credit or toot my own horn. Well, I am learning…its not wrong to feel proud. And it serves no one to play small. Fuck having a daughter is teaching me so much about myself in what it is important tjat she sees.
Its a good day. Rain here and tornado warnings, and Im busy as can be. Wishing you all a beautiful day & night xo.
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Pie > cake. The debate renews.
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Very inspiring !!!
All I needed to start my day 
Thank you for that
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That’s so beautiful 
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You’ve always been very supportive as well, and I want to congratulate you on 5 years alcohol free. You’ve worked hard for it and you deserve it. 
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Happy 5 years to you too, twinsie! 
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There it is! Congrats my friend!
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Your five years is a big deal, Mel. I think five years is one of the most significant milestones in recovery, myself. I hope you treat yourself well today.
I really love that you celebrate by expressing gratitude!
Lots of love to you, friend.
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Mel, you absolutely rock. Way to go on five years. You’re a warrior and an inspiration. So glad you’re here!
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Proud of you
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5 years, eh?
Seems like both yesterday and a lifetime away I’ll bet.
Sincerest of congratulations @mx_elle
So much hard work. So much growth.
So much benefit… both to yourself and to all of us who shared some of the journey.
Wow.
Like, wow.
Shit yeah!
Fuckin’ A-1!
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Checking in: I intend to optimise today as best I can! 
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Ouuuuh hugest congratulations to my kick ass buddy for 5 years yeah! You rock! I love your feminine superpower 
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