I went 38 days without using my credit cards. I relapsed just now. I, as usual, bought stuff I don’t need. I’m back to square one. I used my virtual credit card so I had to buy my stuff online. I buy most of my stuff online, anyway.
Beating an addiction only works if you want it to work. I want to stop but at the same time I don’t. At this moment I don’t feel any guilt or shame like I usually do because the addiction has a big hold on me. I wish it was the other way around.
Good morning!
Sugar 
Day 4
Allowed slips /per week used 2/3 
Ate some Ice Cream on evening. That’s second of 3 allowed slips per week used. X4 means reset.
Day 35 
So chuffed to get through another Friday night without alcohol! A big trigger for me is that five o clock feeling, buzzing from work and rhen slowing down
Time for a coffee. Have a good day folks
That’s Good One [No Pressure - No Diamonds] I love it 
1512
Congratulations on your 5 years! You’re such an inspiration 
Good morning day 145
Ready for the weekend. Nothing big planned, the household needs some catching up, laundry, weekly shop, mealplan and general tidy-up.
Maybe cinema with the family. Oppenheimer is still to watch. Although I wouldn’t mind seeing Barbie a second time 
I like your idea of giving yourself green light to slip with sweets 3x in a week, gonna do the same. I’m trying to cut off extra sugar but it’s so difficult (mostly bcs of ice-cream), I had to reset my counter so many times already… I even delete it twice but always to make it again.
Days without alcohol - 29
I feel healthier, happier, I start making plans for when my kids will go back to school/playgroup, maybe some cursus, definitely books. Does it mean that my brain is starting to work better? I hope
Sober Saturday will be somewhat predictable. A walk with Willow into town, coffee and stroll back. I like simple.
Add in a nap, sounds perfect! Enjoy.
Love this music, thank you. @zzz
Enjoy your nature day, @Mno , with the nature and your cousin.
I think you were up before they were, your road blockade!
Congratulations everyone on each and every day free from your drug, drink or behavior of ( bad ) choice
Congratulations on the 5 years to you @mx_elle !! That’s half a decade! You are amazing and wonderful … wishing you the best.
@Eke to you and your 5 years, too! Big congrats!
Checking in Day 25, coffee in bed before starting a busy day. Hairdressers then off to a family party. It should be a really nice day. The sun is poking out from behind the clouds and the rain has stopped.
Thank you to those that come on to share such impressive milestones. It is so inspiring.
Wishing everyone a peaceful and sober Saturday.
Edit to add, the hairdressers is a coincidence, I am not the kind of person to go to have my hair done for a family party. I forgot to brush my hair after the shower at the gym yesterday 
Funny thing once I started to use this technique with sugar / sweets I started to think for implementing this with Junk Food too (but not doing it atm, feels like to much to handle at once). Also I noticed that you crave more junk food after eating sweets. Sugar / Sweets is a bigger priority here. So I started this healthy conversation in my head and then - boom - the other voice in my head appeared and he’s like: - ‘‘Heeeey, man, that’s a great idea!! We should do this with alcohol too, yeah man’’ 
- yeap that was addict mind entering conversation and it was pathetic of him he was banned from the party emediatly 
that was funny to notice
Anyway, I suggest never to try hard with foods, sugars. Take it easy at beginning. This is more like marathon, than sprint (at least for me) - so I also let myself to use some honey or stevia, fruits. Maybe in the future I will remove stevia or honey or limit some fruits. But actually what I learned - is that with time, when blood sugars and insulin stabilizes, you just don’t want sweets, almost not touching stevia. I like some honey in my tea on weekends. Sweet’s start to feel very artificial and you just don’t crave it. That is the magic I am seeking for. After this I just don’t even want to go back.
And we don’t even started to talk about the health benefits here.
Day 952,
Last day of my holiday in Austria. Anxiety and tension is kicking in. Need to go home, but not looking forward to that and my upcoming treatment. I feel the feels, just a little scared boy inside, who feels alone and not understood in this world 
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Greetz, Rob
Thank You. Throat singing. I love it too. It’s very powerful technique. Some monks, for example Tibetan uses this technique to activate some brain waves. Anyway, always loved the deep roots of humanity. Pop music, pop culture, it can be ok if we do not loose our minds on it and use it with good intention, but it can also be very destructive force.
I am so sorry Rob, I hope home provides some comfort and relief to the anxiety. Be kind to that scared little boy, he is carrying a lot 
You are working on it though. That’s all we can do. You’re doing so much better than you think friend. Safe travels.
Checking in on day 110
I was away from the forum for a few days, so sorry if my reply is late.
@Mira_D Thanks for sharing. It sounds like you are working your recovery. 
@DryIn785 Rant away. It sounds scary, and lonely, and we can at least help with making you feel less alone. Sending peace, and keep us updated.
@SoberGuyUSA Congratulations 
Such an amazing achievement!
@Amy30 Exactly, sober isn’t always rainbows and cute kittens in bows, but it is the one thing that must be constant
@crystalclear Kids pick up on more than we expect. I hope this is there trigger that helps you move forward into a life that supports you and fits your values.
@Wakikki Never be sorry for sharing what is going on. I hope you feel better soon. Are you seeing a doctor?
@Starlight14 Your daughter is lucky to have you watching out for her. I hope you ex can get help.
@Desire2ChangeToday Congratulations Great share and looking amazing!
Hey all, checking in on day 1140. I hope everybody has a good one!
