I fixed my tire.
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Yes it is, it felt like a big win although every day sober should feel like that, weāre winning 
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Man - i never would of thought of using fake skin - cool idea. Im glad you gave it a shot and i do think you did great!
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Hey Jazz, it was a lot of random tears but I opened up to a colleague and we both cried a bit together. Sheās going through a nasty divorce and has been hitting the bottle heavy so weāre gonna go to thr driving range today and hit some balls and go for lunch. Iām still in that sad state but forcing myself to move around a bit. I just canāt pinpoint what is the actual problem 
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@rainy7 Its important to feel all your feelings and shedding tears is also so therapeutic. We dont always know where the sadness is coming from and sometimes thats okā¦just feeling it and working your way through it is all we can do. Seems like you are doing all that.
Grateful that you have a friend to comfort and becof comfort to you. Hope you have a fantastic day at the driving range.
Much love my friend 
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Itās hard isnāt it, what will your life be like without addiction to hide behind, itās scary isnāt it.
How the hell do I get through thisā¦
One moment at a time makes the impossible possible.
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Day 610
Feeling a little excited today,
Iām going to go buy my twins their first cars, found 2 similar ones with private sellers both within 20 miles of my home so arranged to go pick them up when Alyssa gets home from work, they donāt know yet, they thought we were going to go look at some through the week, Iāve already been and checked them out while they were working this week and I was on nights.
Hope everyone else is doing well, sending strength to all who need it.
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Checking in on day 111
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Checking in, day 2415. Lots of downtime this weekend and Iāve been reading a lot on here. I canāt keep up but do the best I can. Today is my homegroup meeting and hopefully getting my hair done this afternoon. Have a good sober day today everyone!
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Day 532
This morning has been interesting. I was on my way to work when i walked past 4 crows on a rooftop making alot of noise. As i walked past them they flew over top of me (sooo close to my head i might add) and landed on a tree ahead of me. They were watching me as i walked by. I know crows can be a bad sign, but i have also heard that 4 crows together can mean change and transformation of something thats ahead. Anyone have any insight on this? It may obviously mean nothing lol but i thought this mornings experience was unusual.
I got to work and have so far had a good day. Its been quiet as my client is on a home visit for now. I was able to attend an online sermon which was fantastic. Did my prayer 
Im really feeling the urge to connect more. Not sure how tho. Idk what I need. Idk if I need to connect to nature, or to others more, or to my HP more. Or even if i need to connect to myself more. But connection is what im feeling i need right now. I also am really struggling with fatigue lately. Again idk if its my new meds or if my body is genuinely tired but its frustrating me to no end! Today was such a struggle to get up. I almost called in to work i was THAT tired. I am feeling the need for change. I need change to happen within me. I have some idea on what i need to do, but i want this change to come from a spiritual foundation. I want to change my thinking and acting by enhancing my spirituality. Bcuz i do believe that it is all connected.
Anyway, i am rambling now. But i think im ready to begin making some further changes in my life 
Hope everyone is having an addiction free day!
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End up getting? You mean my new little tattoo? The city coat of arms from the city I live in 
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Day 35 today. Iām feeling good overall. While I was at the gym, I was thinking about how I would never have been able to reach the limits that I can now because I was always either drunk or hungover. I actually love running now. 
hope everyone has a good day! 
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Whew. Iām ok. Been busy with therapy āhomeworkā and dealing with the not so fun things in my life. Itāll get better.
Thank you for checking in on me. 
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@Soberbilly thank you 
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@JazzyS 30mins is definitely better than not at all š©µ itās the opposite way round, I couldnāt do any of my routine things because the sugar makes me sleep so much, I literally couldnāt stay awakeā¦reflecting back, I only missed one day, Friday, apart from missing drumming, I was able to do everything else yesterday and again today, despite no sleep at all last night. So back on track. 
I hope youāre able to enjoy your bbq with your friends
@anon74766472 sorry youāve been struggling glad you reached out for help, and received it. Sending strength š©µ
@anon15828629 congrats on 2 weeks 
I like your collections 
@icebear happy birthday to your daughter 
1084 days no alcohol.
549 days no cocaine.
64 days no vape.
1 day no binge-eating.
I didnāt sleep for a single second last night. Spent a bit of time here. I was out doing a walk at 6am. Iāve still managed to do all my routine things, my other 2 walks, meditations, reading, 32mins of colouring, Iāve finally finished the first pattern. Need to search for my Sharpies for the next one. Iāve also managed to do all my laundry, Iām very pleased about that.
I very nearly went to the shop to ājustā buy crisps and mango after my walk, but I remembered what Iād written in an earlier convo with my friend, that I will not be bargaining with myself any more. I did succumb to the ice cream van again, but atleast that isnāt a binge. I do hope I can start to resist that too though, itās not part of my plan.
Therapy tomorrow.
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Day 8: no grazing
Day 728: no pills
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Day 1,67
Sober from alcohol!
Some mind shift about every single next drink might result in health issues leaving permanent damage. No more being able to enjoy the good things in live. Thanks for everybody sharing their probs so open to the community. You reminded me of that. Stay strong!
Love 
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Iāve always heard that crows brings good luck. They are believed to be spirit animals and a symbol for a new beginning, a fresh start if you wish. Happiness and wealth. Especially if thereās two or more.
One single crow on the other hand, can mean a drastic sudden change. Not necessarily something negative even if it can be scary.
Maybe the idea that crows bring bad omens comes from there.
Anyway my grandparents even fed the crows to bring themselves good luck. So I definitely think youāre safe there.
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Thank you so much for ur insight! I hope ur right about having good luck! 
This experience was definitly different. I thought maybe they were threatened by my presence and protecting something near by with how they seemed to sort of fly sooo close to my head. But ill take it as good luck! 
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@KevinesKay yes, I need a boundary with Twitter, specially because feeds my compulsive behavior
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