Congratulations on 200 days!
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Evening Check In
Day 559
Work was okay, just loooong. Not a whole lot to do since my client wasnt home. But im not complaining… at least i have a good job that pays decent. It was just hard bcuz i was already tired.
I began heading home and was irritated about the trains. I waited 27 min for a train that was only supposed to be a 6 min wait. Got downtown and the train stopped its service 5 stations before i actually needed to get off. I was super annoyed. It was hot and muggy out. The train was packed full of people. I had to walk home behind others that were walking soooo slow and i had no choice but to slow down which irritated me even more. Then a tiny bug flew in my mouth lol and that pissed me off (I am literally laughing tho as i type this lol). But it turns out that there was an incident up ahead at one of the station platforms. Someone overdosed and another person was giving this person CPR until help arrived. Then I just felt like shit honestly (once I found out what was happening) bcuz i was getting upset earlier when there was someone close to death. Even tho I didnt know this was happening, i realized afterwards that my problems in that moment didnt even compare to this individual that was needing help. It really put things into perspective. Brought on alot of gratitude for sure. I prayed for this person.
Once home i made supper. Ate and relaxed with my boy. The day is winding down and im grateful for another day clean and sober. Hope everyone enjoys their saturday 
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Hey all,
Been such a great weekend here. Ended up watching Pain Killers and it was very well done (may be trigfering for some though, just to mention that). I do love a good show, and especially when sometjing so serious/cover ups are exposed in a way that does them some justice.
Anyway, thinking of things for September. Want to start a bit of a health kick. I am pretty good with the healthy eatinf/vitamins and my “weird” drinks (as my kids call them 
but I would like to focus also on exercising, spending less/less time shopping (I shop and stock things we need and spend time especially loojing for 2nd hand things for the kids, family; home…but still…its a way I spend my time and i want to focus it in other places and build other habits) and work towards quitting smoking. I do not have a date yet, but Ive got Alan Cars book & I know he doesnt recommend the aids but I have the gum. For my mental, I want to keep coming on here each day and reading/sharing a bit, continue with therapy also. Its been so nice to have this self care time, and I look forward to starting the new chapter in September its like another year starting when the kids go off to school. Its been very busy in our home since last December, so want to feel around in our life again…I really love our veggie garden, and we’re talking about more chickens and possibly goats in the spring. Im not sure about a full homestead, but you know…its fun to have the dreams…the thoughts and things to work towards.
I havent felt like a drink but you know i had a dream last night I drank, and when I woke up i had that feeling of like shit. And then realized it was a dream. The last cottage we were at it happened almost every mofning I woke up like I had a drsam I drank because it was in my mind maybe I had, but then realized I didnt. Maybe it was because there was quite a bit of alcohol there I do not know. Not a nice feeling, but Ill take a drinking dream over a real drink any day. Anyone feeling those cravings out there stick with it I promise it gets better! Xo.
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@brokenwolf I think you should be super proud of 2nd overall Richard. I know not what you wanted but you worked your ass off and still did very well and now you have more motivation and drive to get back into the international competition circuit.
Well done on your 70 days of sobriety Dana! Love all the benefits you are already experiencing from being sober – keep at it – it only gets better!
@noshame I do hope your day got easier. Hopefully you can hold onto the feeling of how picking up the weed did not help make the day go by faster or better. You are correct – in sobriety we have to learn to live each day on life’s terms. I’m sorry about your coworkers. Sometimes people are just plain assholes - im sorry you have to work with them, hoping you can find a way to ignore their bs. I know and you know that you are working hard and doing well at the job. Keep strong!
Yeah – I can see how that would take the fun out of it. I do hope you can find a way back to doing creative things just for fun (the beauty of creativity is that it’s subjective and its perfect in its perfections). Thank you for the Gypsy remedy – I too go this route but have never tried thyme and honey tea 
my throat got badly torn up with a nasty sneezing fit but already feels so much better.
Oh Dana – just hugs – loads of hugs. Hoping that you do get some great sleep tonight and some energy for tomorrow. WOW – just saw your evening check in – oh love its crazy how we can be so worked up and then in a split second on hearing the news be so humbled and have everything put into perspective. 
@soberbilly you are such a beautiful soul Billy – thank you for being my sober buddy! Love seeing your numbers climbing
@amy30 I can understand the hesitance about school especially I you are already feeling so over whelmed. You know your body and mind the best. I know I seriously had to look into my mental and physical health and decide to close down my business for the good of my healing. Not saying that you should give up your dream for going to school – only you will know the answer to this. Just don’t give up on it cause it seems daunting now – you have shown your strength over and over these past few months and I know you can conquer whatever you put your mind to.
Great job Julia – you are doing so well my friend. Grateful that the recovery program is helping you in keeping your commitment.
This is beautiful Mulan! I know it started off flat but I do hope you were able to turn that around for you today. Its ok to feel not ok at times – we can’t have amazing days each day cause then we wouldn’t know what amazing was.
@flourishingperson1 Hey you got through the move and the hick ups without giving in to that demon so it was a great day! You should be super proud. Congrats on your double digits. It really is odaat and we are here to lend support when the urges get strong or life becomes too lifey
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@Jana1988 Congratulations on the 4 Years !! … SO Happy For You!! Looks like you were celebrating your special day, too! ODAAT you have done it, starting with a day one and going to 1460 days and even more!
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@asinineouroboros Well done on your 3 weeks of sobriety! Sorry to hear that you are struggling – the beginning is a rollercoaster of emotions and tests on our ability to refrain from the urges. You are stronger than you addiction. I do believe with support and great practices you can overcome this addiction
@karenkw I do hope that you do give yourself the grace and compassion you deserve. Hope you are feeling better now and getting a good nights rest
@cueball8n9 Hell yeah my friend – great job on 200 days! It is a huge number and you should be immensely proud of your accomplishments. Great to hear from you and hope the job is as much fun as it is demanding.
@Mira_D “weird drinks” now i’m curious - what type of drinks do you make - i know i find mine to be weird with squeezed bottle gourd juice or ginger and zucchini with cucumber – interested in your concoctions. LOL. Great to set a health plan for September. I too used the gum to help with quitting smoking along with a hypnosis app. If you haven’t already done so - check out the Grumpy A-holes (quitting cigarettes/ nicotine products) thread - it has some great stories and advice for quitting smoking.
Checking in on Saturday evening
248 days free of alcohol and weed
663 days free of cigarettes
Its been an emotional day for me as i’m having some trouble with my brother. So in order to not dwell on it and spend the day upset i went super busy and did loads of work. Its been an exhausting day for sure and i’ve stopped now so am listening to the scream coming from all over me. Its all good - tomorrow is Sunday and i do hope to rest. My sis is visiting so will hopefully have some good quality time with her tomorrow. A great vegan find today – Pumpkin spice oreos - these were so damn delicious - i know so much processed crap but today i didn’t care - i did indulge in 1 cookie Hoping everyone had a wonderful addiction free day today - sending you beautiful souls so much love 
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I like the way you think … i believe cheerios has a pumpkin spice cereal…havent seen it out yet- maybe next month
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Morning checkin.
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Checking in day 286
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Thank you very much, @Alisa 
You’re right, I celebrated at Croatia. My boyfriend took me for a nice dinner at very pretty local restaurant a day before and yesterday we celebrated with pizza 
We also did lots of walking through the day, as it’s one of my favourite things to do.
Perfect life = Sober life
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Day 64
Yesterday was the first day i fancied a beer. I didn’t, i kept focussed but that small voice was there for most of the afternoon
Today having a lazy day. Need to relax as my tinnitus is driving me up the wall
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I’m with you. I love,love,love everything Pumpkin Spiced. But it’s not really a thing in my country so I make my own, and chase down everything I can find online.
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I’m here I’m alive and I’m sober.
Day 14
Husband gets better day by day. He won’t be his normal self in a very long time, or might never be. But as longs as he is still recognizing us, is somewhat mobile and is clear in his mind I’m not complaining. He is here back home,and is getting better.Can’t really wish for anything more.
Sun is shining today at least for like three minutes at a time. Which ofc boost my mode, and I might have ordered a fall sweater with dinosaurs from a new site online called Temu. I really hope it’ll come.
I do want a handbag that comes in the shape of a fluffy Kirby too, and Sailor Moon earrings. But I’m going to wait and see if the sweater actually arrives before I order something new.
The weekend have been filled with Tex Mex inspired food Tacos and Vegetarian Fajita’s. We played Mexican music in the kitchen and used our best glasses (we always use them during the weekends)
Today will be like every Sunday. Cleaning and fixing to prepare for the week.
Our local mechanic is coming by to fix the car because we need to do the annual check-up this week to be allowed to drive it.
Have spent a lot of time talking to my bestie recently. And a lot of time on here. It feel so good to finally be able to talk about everything freely. I appreciate all of you, deeply.
Thank you for being awesome.
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I’m watching PainKillers as well, love it. I have one more episode to see so tonight we gonna finish it. And then again have to find something to watch and chill when kids are sleeping Maybe some recommendations?
Second hand shops… Absolutely my thing.
What a pity you live so far far away
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Day 2241. How to stop or handle procrastination? Doing nothing and I have to do a lot (study, house, laundry). 
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The laundry is getting me every time. Not so much actually getting it done, but folding and putting it away is another thing. 
Don’t have any great advice for you, I’m more of the opposite except for when it comes to folding laundry.
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My check in for day 10, still.
Thank you @JazzyS for your words. You’re absolutely right but sometimes it’s hard to keep it in front of you.
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Just six shifts to go till my holidays yay! Not that I hate my job, I even love most of it, but it’s time to get away from it for a bit. Having a quiet Sunday today. Need to go downtown to feed my friend’s fishes while she’s away.
While I’m in town I might check out some clothes, when I get there early, before the big crowds arrive. Whatever happens I will not drink or drug as that would serve no purpose whatsoever. Have as good a day as you all can friends. Sober and clean. Love from Amstel river yesterday afternoon.
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Glad your husband is home and improving. Love how you bring the different cultures into your home and to your children. ( The Tex-Mex food and Mexican music )
I remember you’ve always done that.
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39.55 no vapes or ciggs
108.48 no alcohol
.90 no weed
Well yesterday sucked. I smoked weed thinking it would give me a good pick up but it just made me more tired and uncomfortable. I was so tired all day (something that happened at no surprise)
I woke up at 5am and I fell asleep last night at 9pm so I got plenty of sleep for a good day.
Day 108 no alcohol thank god. I can’t imagine going to work hung over
Day 39 no smoking 
I’m still on the 2mg lozenges. I can’t seem to shake them but I’m going to try and stop them be4 I run out. We will see
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