@HOLYSQUID I am so sorry that you have been struggling with your health and not getting any answers. I am in a similar boat my friend and have found myself not wanting to do my gratitude’s or proper check ins. I do know that being connected to my TS peeps is the one thing that keeps me from turning to my DOC. I am happy to see you keeping sober at 182 days! We are here if you need to talk or vent. We are stronger together! Being alone in a depressive state is unhealthy for many reasons – here at least you are among friends and folks that can relate.
Mia this is growth. I know it’s hard to let go of some relationships but knowing when to let go for your own recovery is progress. You do not want to be tied to anything / anyone that could be a potential trigger or a constant reminder of something you are trying to move away from. I am very proud of how you have handled the situation and how you are preparing yourself for whatever reaction your friend may have. You come first and I am happy to see you taking steps to protect your recovery.
YES!! How precious these memories will be for you and your kids. Well done on your 8+ months of sobriety
@scorpn Oh love I am sorry to hear this – I do hope you have someone taking care of you. Please get plenty of rest with fluids and hopefully the doctors given meds to help heal you quicker. Sending you loads of healing vibes!
@mindofsobermike Hey Mike – first of all that is so awesome about being invited for the meal at twin oaks. You obviously made some friendly connections there. I know many times I have to re read something many times just to understand it. Sometimes I have to read it out loud or even try to explain what I’m reading to someone else in terms that they may be able to understand it. By doing this, it really helped enforce it for me. I am hoping that these techniques or maybe others that your tutor can offer will be of help. Do not beat yourself up over this and try to refrain from the negative talk. Much love my friend 
@butterflymoonwoman Oh Dana I am frustrated for you. I can’t imagine the feelings you must be feeling right now. I am furious at the damn scheduler and I do hope you are able to figure something out for tomorrow evening. I am praying that it is a easy / smooth night for you and your son. Sending you much strength and energy to get you through this patch. Loads of love and calmness too 
Checking in on Monday night
257 free of alcohol and weed
672 days free of cigarettes
Honestly been a few rough days. My Friday PT appointment went well but left me with immense pain. I was puking from the intensity of pain for 2 days and finally was able to get somesleep last night. I was able to move again yesterday afternoon which was a huge achievement. Needless to say, I have not done any of my PT exercises and will be calling them tomorrow to discuss as my next appointment is on Wednesday and I can not go through this again. The good thing was that it got my mind off of every other symptom (silver lining). Everything was manageable today. Got a little bit of work done and managed to go for a 30 min walk with my mom. She has been a fucking saint! I am truly blessed.