Checking in, doing pretty good. Was at the therapy appointment it was all in all weird but good id say. Working long and late shifts. Thankful for fighting for peace in my mind 24/7 
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Your not weak at all because you get right back on that sober horse, we can do this 
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Whew this has been a tough day!! College football is back and this will be my first season sober. Its been so hard not to want to grab a quick drink. But i know if i start it will be hard to stop. Trying to stay positive enjoy watching it without temptation.
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Checking in on day 69, enjoying my day off and the cloudy weather 
Have a good weekend everyone
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@Qhob13 welcome
@Mischa84 feel better soon 
🩵 migraines are the worst 
@icebear safe travels 
@JennyH congrats on 60 days 
have fun celebrating tomorrow, happy birthday to your son 
@SadMemeQueen glad you were able to be there for your friend 🩵 take some time to be kind to yourself now.
@Mia2 I’m glad therapy went well
1118 days no alcohol.
583 days no cocaine.
98 days no vape.
Waited in all day until 15:30, then was getting really restless so I tracked my delivery and yet again, for the third arranged day, it said ‘failed delivery attempt’, I was here and awake all day! 
I didnt even go out to sit on the benches in fear of missing the delivery. So now, I’m going to have to get a taxi there and back to collect it on Monday, which will be a whole week after I ordered it. They must be going to the wrong address because I haven’t even got a calling card on the first day or today, I’ve only got one from the 30th when I was out having therapy. Nevermind 
as long as I do actually get them in the end…
Because it was so late by this point, I’d lost all motivation for my “morning” walk, but after talking myself into it, I managed to do my longer PM walk. Glad I did, I felt better for it.
Tomorrow I will attempt to write this ‘compassionate letter’ to myself. Typical of me to leave it right up until the night before our session, but I keep getting overwhelmed by the wave of sadness that rises up when I think of how unkindly I’ve spoken to myself my entire life. I guess I could start wifh that.
I hope you’re all having wonderful sober weekends.
🩵
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Day 1.50 no weed
46 days no smoking
Day 115 no alcohol
I have 1 hour 45min left of work
I’m tired but I’ll make it
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Oh Megan – grateful that you could be there for your friend today and talk them down. I do know how anxious that conversation can be. I feel you really handled that very well and nothing about this situation or your plans on how to handle in the future make you selfish. You are looking out for your friends well being over anything else. I do hope you are able to breathe deep breathes and calm yourself. Are you able to involve someone else like your other friend so that you are not feeling 100% responsible for your friends safety.
Do hope that you are able to start eating small portions throughout the day to expand your stomach lining. Your body (bones /muscle tissue) can not heal if it is not receiving proper nutrition.
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Evening Check In
Day 566
Am so grateful to be home. We just finished eating supper and now im relaxing with my son. I decided to take the day off of work tomorrow so that i can try to get the rest I really need. Im feeling pretty drained lately. Nothing much else going on. Have a good evening everyone!
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my other friend is long distance and they don’t quite get along. i don’t have any way to contact their family unfortunately. I’m calmer now and planning to try to eat a full meal soon
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oh - that does make things tough. glad your friend is doing better now - just hope that you don’t feel panicky every time they text or call. Maybe suggest that your friend talk with a professional about their feelings?
oh this makes me happy to read. hope you have a wonderful relaxed evening Megan
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@rosacando congrats on your 700 days! Glad you had a great camping trip celebrating your milestone.
@butterflymoonwoman how are you doing love? Were you able to get some rest today? I do hope you are able to take tomorrow off. Yeah – to taking the day off tomorrow – I do hope you get to just lay back and rest!
@mindofsobermike a lot of changes very recently my friend. I know that just the anxiety of starting school alone would cause me to wear out. I wouldn’t worry about it for now but if you do not get back to a regular sleep schedule soon then I would check with your primary just to make sure you don’t have any vitamin dificiencies.
@ballroomdaze Great on sticking to your sobriety. I do know that the early days are very emotional (I would start crying at the drop off a hat for no damn reason) – stick to it my friend – it does get much easier!
@mischa84 I am so sorry love – totally sounds like a migraine. I don’t get an aura and haven’t found any meds that have helped. Did find that placing a cold cloth over forehead and eyes while simultaneously placing a warm cloth at the nape of your neck helps relieve the pain. I do hope you are feeling better.
@Jennyh Congrats on your 60 days my friend! WOW sounds like an amazing day today. Have a great day celebrating your son tomorrow!
@saturn81 doing so well on your sobriety my friend. I am so very sorry for your loss. You are here and staying accountable for your journey! Much love Michelle
@mia2 glad you had a great day and that Therapy session went well.
@carangel101 Great job Tara on resisting the temptation to drink and watch football – the two kinda go hand in hand or that’s what our minds are programmed to think. You can totally still enjoy the sport without the alcohol. Its all about re-wiring our brains and finding better alternatives to alcohol. I find as long as I have something in hand (a la croix in a glass) then I don’t feel like I’m missing out. Actually ½ way into the day I realize how fortunate I am to still be able to make full sentences LOL
@catmancam UGH that is so frustrating about the package. I would be steamed at this point. Maybe bring it up to them when you go to collect on Monday. It could be the delivery guy not doing his/her job properly. Big hugs my friend – I am grateful that you will be sitting down to write yourself a compassionate letter. Hopefully you will be able to forgive yourself for the years of negative talk and re program yourself to see you in the same beautiful light that we all see you. You will do great – you have a huge heart and are so compassionate towards everyone here – now it’s time to turn that love inwards
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I’ve been trying to convince them to get therapy (they used to see a therapist before I met them) but they can’t drive and feel like a burden to their parents and they said virtual therapy just doesn’t work for them. I don’t think the anxiety from their messages will be a permanent thing it was just a bad day overall.
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Heyhey,
Checking in today to maintain focus. So, my plan for today:
- Brush teeth, shave, shower cold
- Brunch
- Meditate
- Shopping
- Visit parents
- Cooking with flatmates in the eve
- Sleep early (not past midnight anyways
)
Something like that, let’s see…
Already planning for tomorrow when the week starts again too! Several things I’m looking forward to setting in motion…
Have a wonderful sunday guys! 
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Got out of work relatively early tonight. It’s weird bc I feel like the past few Saturdays I had somewhere to go for fun, but not tonight. It’s fine though. I can relax tonight and get some good sleep so I can get up and get things done tomorrow.
I don’t know if it’s the weather changing, but I’ve been a bit stuffy and feel congested the past couple days. And now a headaches coming on. I don’t feel sick though. It’s funny though. I’ve been sick once, maybe twice, since I quit drinking, and it was a cake walk. Nothing compared to hangover sicknesses. I’d always up my intake when I got sick, to forget I was sick, but in turn suffer even longer. Glad I know that’s not a solution now.
Well, there’s not a whole lot more to say. Just gonna relax before bed and try not to overwhelm myself by thinking about everything I need to get done. Thank you @JazzyS for reminding me that everything will eventually get done. It’s true, so I need not focus on it all.
Goodnight my friends
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Glad you could help your friend!
Hopefully you can slowly start adding Food… also fluids, juices, water, whatever you are able to tolerate. Bodies need salt, sugar, nutrients. You may get a job next week! @SadMemeQueen
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Sleep well @Soberbilly and wake peacefully. Glad the Tara Brach was helpful to you and that you’re comfortable in your head about the “insult” you had that was hurtful to you.
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#Day 1810 
Sometimes I loose my trust in people for a while. Friday was such a day. I was cleaning the windows of the shop I work in when I heared shouting. When I looked I saw a young guy, almost a kid, beating up a old man at the end of the street surrounded by bystanders who tried to help.
I ran inside to get our phone and when I called the police outside the kid passed me on his scooter so I could see his face and licenseplate.
The victim where helped by bystanders and was bleeding. He probably broke his nose.
I heared someone photographed the licenceplate so they lifted the guy from his bed early next morning. He was 16 years old. The old guy has asked him to quit driving on the sidewalk.
This kind of stuff makes me sad.
Just another day in my hometown…
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Checking in on day 2 
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