Day 47
First time i had felt tempted to just have a pint
I didn’t. Will stay focused
Off work now till Monday:)
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Have been busy back in the UK. Visiting places with the kids and talking with my sister. Also am relying on free wifi so am not online much. It is still August 10th here, but my tracker must be on Japan time because…
There it is. Happy, but not as elated as I was in previous years. I am just a non-drinker. The drinking is in the past. Now I need to focus on building the life that I got sober for. One where I feel happy and supported and fulfilled. Not always or perfectly, but mostly, with baby steps.
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Good afternoon, all!
If you were using colored pencils before, I have seen different types of pencil grips online that might make those easier to handle.
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Congratulations on 3 years of sobriety 
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I am so sorry for all of the worry you are going through. I spent about a week in hospital with my son supposedly having a brain tumour. We were very lucky as they scanned him with a more sophisticated machine before doing the operation and identified he had a stroke rather than a tumour (the shadow on the brain had confused the Doctors initially). We felt so lucky then as they were able to wean off the steroids, no surgery and we got to leave the oncology ward. I felt tremendous survivor’s guilt from then on. I cannot imagine living that life as you do. I got a glimpse and it was so hard. I hope they are able to put your mind at rest soon.
Hope you don’t mind me sharing that. I wanted to show empathy but fear I may just have waffled on.
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Yesssss!!! 
Well done and well said!
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Massive congratulations @Misokatsu I love the idea of just being a non-drinker. I am the same with smoking but can’t imagine that with alcohol.
@RosaCanDo I absolutely love your nature descriptions and photo. We have been at a theme park for 2 days and I am loving decompressing now outside our camping pod. I am hoping for a walk and castle tomorrow, nature bathing.
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You quit while in Japan right? So in hours you’re there right? Huge congrats on 3 years of continuous sobriety Flo!
Yes we’re non drinkers now. It’s our new normal. The real changes are about to begin my friend. Keep going and you’ll find out.
The elation of being sober will be replaced by elation over new insights, new horizons, a new way of living life no less. No joke. You’ll see. Big hugs.
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Awesome pic. 
National Geographic worthy 
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Congratulations on your 3 years of continuous sobriety Flo, wherever in the world you are. I hope there’s cake 
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2 days AF. So, yesterday someone I know from AA who is early in sobriety texted me that she relapsed on Monday, so we got to connect in a whole new way… and WOW if I had called her I could have maybe changed the outcome for both of us. It just reinforces that other alcoholics need me to reach out for help. We need each other! Today I cold called someone and then a little later someone else cold called me 
. So good day in that department. Grateful for all of you!
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Honestly ur post made me tear up. But not in a bad way. I just want to hug u 
Im so sorry ur little one had a stroke 
that must have been very scary. As a parent we want the best for our child and want them to be healthy. And we can feel very hopeless when medical stuff happens that is out of our control. I know that i did when my son was diagnosed at the age of 2. I appreciate u sharing what u did bcuz i often feel really really alone. I lost myself completely when all this was happening bcuz my focus was on my child and his treatment (as it should be of course). We were in the hospital for 6 months straight when he was first diagnosed. He started chemotherapy and then had surgery to get a tracheostomy to protect his upper airway (which is why he needs a ventilator at night to regulate his breathing and has nurses at night awake with him), a gtube to eat bcuz he aspirates (he doesnt eat by mouth but thru a device in his belly), and a wheelchair/walker to get around. But thats why ull hear me mention that we dont have care at night some days.
I apologize for rambling but its just kind of comforting knowing that someone even remotely understands. I hurt for my child bcuz idk how long he will live for. The Drs really dont know. Thankfully his tumor is stable right now and I just do my best to be the best i can be for him and to be able to provide him with the best life that i can. Thank you for sharing ur experience. I really needed that today 
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Ahhhhmiga! That’s wonderful. Well done on your 3 hard fought and well earned years. It might be a bit lackluster since you’re focused on your visit home after all these years, but in some ways that makes it really special, too. 
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Fantastic and congratulations!!! I hope this is the year you build that life!!
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Checking in
Day 543
So the opthamologist saw nothing. There is absolutely nothing wrong with my sons eyes. Its still a mystery 
I feel like bawling right now. I started crying when the Dr left the room bcuz im sooo tired of this. And now i have these other fears running thru my mind about something going on with his tumor. Im going to try and get ahold of oncology and see if they can give him an MRI sooner than what is scheduled for just to rule that out.
I want to emotionally eat to cope with my feelings. I almost went to the hospital cafeteria after his appt and ordered something super not good for me bcuz i hate how im feeling. Im angry and tired and sad. I didnt cave tho. We are on the way home now and i will have my usual chicken salad. I enjoy that. Thankfully i didnt even think of using drugs to cope and im thankful that i have u all here to pour my heart to 
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Checking in sober day 25.
Started okay but ended up with a bad headache again. We have been having bad storms every day so that’s probably causing them. Feel miserable. But at least still sober, and tomorrow is Friday.
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WOW!!! Congratulations 3 years is incredible!!! Im so proud of you
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Eeeep well done, 3 years is so great 
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Checking in with 499 days… almost in the 500 club hehehe.
Life is good, works been good. Taking things easy, being kind to myself. Trying to reset the part of my brain that’s always pushing forward and moving to the next thing, and exhausting myself just to tick all of the boxes.
Kids are happy, I’ve even reconnected with an old friend which has been nice.
Happy Friday everyone
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