Congratulations 
Enjoy your time in Europe.
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Congratulations on ur 10 days of freedom 
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Thank u! Glad to be back 
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Good evening all! Havenāt checked in a minute. Day 720 today. Donāt remember when my last day off was but should have one in a few days! Hope everyone is doing well and stay safe!
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Hey!!! How r u?! Its good to see u posting 
How are things for u?
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@rosacando WOW what a lovely walk Rosa ā glad that you were able to do the longer walk through the woods ā sounds like it was just what the doctor ordered. Love all the nature and animals / critters your came across.
@butterflymoonwoman oh Dana ā I do hope that it is not never related. Hopefully you were able to get through to the Vision Clinic (I do know how hard it can be trying to make appointments). Much love my friend. Iām hoping that you are able to get answer and care soon. 
Just saw your update- grateful that ophthalmologist didnāt see anything but do hope that it is not his tumor. Do hope that you are able to get a MRI quicker. I can only imagine how tiring and emotional draining this all can be ā so sorry Dana. Glad that you were able to come here and not even consider negative coping methods.
@catmancam thanks friend ā I am enjoying the energy too 
Damn, sorry the sharpies are not working ā would you want to give colored pencils a shot? So grateful that your Achilles is feeling better today ā fingers crossed that you will be able to do your gentle walk tomorrow. Ooh ā love this book ā hope you are enjoying it so far!
@timetochange grateful that you avoided the temptations. Doing so well with your 47 days of sobriety. Enjoy your long weekend!
@holysquid what a lovely way to spend your sober day! Beautiful picture.
@misokatsu A huge congrats on your 3 years of sobriety Flo ā Love how the drinking is just in the past and you are a non-drinker. So happy for this sober lifestyle! 
@catmama23 How beautiful to reinforce the need for human connection in recovery ā So important to now that we can reach out to give help and to receive help. Grateful that you now have contacts for support.
@bt824 Congrats on your double digits!
@hillbillychris Sweet job on 720 days! Hope you do get some time of soon so you donāt burnout from overworking.
Checking in on Thursday evening
232 days free of alcohol and weed
647 days free of cigarettes
It was a great day yet challenging with the pain. I did manage to get in 13+k steps in, 1/2 hour meditation / prayer and 45 min of light exercise. Did not get to yoga. Did cry loads due to frustration and feel a bit better now - really trying to focus on the positive and find the silver linings. Watched Run Rabbit Run - very messed up movie and not scary in any way. I did not nap but wanted to many times - did have light fatigue but not enough to make me give in. Did manage to make my PT and gastro appointments. All in all another awesome day! Have a wonderful positively charged addiction free day/ evening my sober friends - sending much love
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Day 54ā¦ Today was the first day that was not overwhelmingly stressful, However, I had the urge to drink. I kept rationalizing with myself perhaps one glass of wine would be OK. I kept telling myself no one would know except me.
While trying to distract myself and simply wasting time on social media I ran across a page called I am sober. There was an interview with Jamie Lee Curtis describing the difficulties she has in getting sober. Next to her children, she said the next thing she was most proud of was getting sober. I do believe that there are no accidents and I believe in divine intervention. I do believe that is what happened to me tonight. Whatever it was, it was enough to keep me from drinking.
Iām lonely and feel isolated. I know the alcohol will make it worse but for awhile my disease almost had me convinced Iād feel better if I drank.
Im grateful for this forum and the suit provides me.
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Grateful that you received and listened to the signs of intervention. That voice can be so loud at times. Great job on focusing elsewhere and shutting the voice down.
Sorry that you are feeling this way. You are correct that alcohol will not help any. Are you able to join meet ups or video chats with friends (if you cant meet in person) - while doing similar things so that it feels like you are doing the activity together? - i sometimes cook or go for a walk with my friend (video call).
Great job today - keep showing up for yourself and protecting your sobriety.
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Ugh, work has been so stressful this week. I havenāt been able to rest up fully since last weekend and tomorrow itās starting all over again 
Ever since we got a new dining room manager in May, who literally started the day after she graduated college, everyone seems so overworked and stressed all the time. She wants things done sooo perfectly at all times its beginning to be too much on the daily. We all leave exhausted and anxious of what sheāll find wrong the next day. She sends it in the groupchat for everyone to see. Me being left in charge most nights am supposed to ācheck everyoneās workā so if itās not done, I get in trouble. Our facility is huge, as well as the check list, and itās just really starting to get to me. Just doesnt seem fair.
Thatās why I wasnāt around yesterday, I just went to sleep. And Iām going to be doing the same soon since tomorrowās Friday and our busiest night. Usually we all get this feeling by the end of the season (which is late Sept), but itās come too soon this year.
Not craving a drink thoughā:+1:As tempting as the thought of easy relaxation is, I know how much it would backfire for me. Sleep sounds more appealing 
Goodnight 
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Day 314
Yesterday was a disaster. Weāre so understaffed that we had to turn off the phone, so nobody can call us any more, no Patients and no other Dr offices. Our boss screamed at us for like 5 minutes that weāre working not effective enough.
Yeah, ty for that.
The medical management is not interested in talking to me and the other guy has no time also.
Theyāre only interested in the money we make, thatās it.
No new job in sight yet. I hope there will be anything online soon.
Besides that: I slept good yay 
I have Insight timer on my phone and tried it, successful.
Have a beautiful sober day friends, stay strong 
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Day 10 yaay
I have got some kind of stinking cold which i was mistaking for paws. I suppose it could be both.
My partner quit drinking with me but she doesnāt have a problem with it. She was just doing more of a normie detox.
But it does mean that there will be alcohol in the house again, which is obviously not ideal. Ho hum
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Work sounds crazy stressful. Well done on getting through it sober. Youāve got a full year in your sights now!!
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Dana I canāt even imagine that pain youāre going thru. I wish the best for your son. Much love 
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Day 6
Just doing a quick check in on another busy day. Not going to talk about the negative things going on but the positive things of all the love thatās happening on the island with people giving up there time handing out food water and supplies. I work for Trilogy so we are running our boats from one side of the island with supplies and picking people up that are stuck out there and bringing them back on our return trip. Just doing our little part and it feels good to be of service. I hope everyone has a blessed day/night 
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It has been so uplifting to hear stories about how people are coming together. Thank you for sharing and Iām sending you and the entire community well wishes for a different kind of road to recovery.
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Closing in on 24 days and Iām feeling great. Been keeping up with my gym sessions, eating well and still continuing to clear out a lot of stuff in my house that I donāt need want or use.
Iāve went longer than this many times before, itās not that I particularly get urges to want a drink, itās just that I binge when I start so the attitude I have taken against alcohol and keeping busy with work, the gym and other things has probably helped to block any thoughts I may have had of starting as Iām always taking the view that I have X tomorrow so canāt drink and be hungover tomorrow. I know that wonāt work for everyone but itās really helping for me.
Happy Friday everyone, hope you all have a good day and weekend when it comes
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1525
Friday (group) therapy day. The weatherās beautiful so Iāll take my bike and do some individual riding therapy as well, to get there and back. Iāll have my proper day off tomorrow. Sober and clean. Have as good a day as you all can friends. Love from my hood.
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Iām here, Iām alive and Iām sober.
30 days guys, and it wasnāt even hard this time.
Iām actually a little amazed. .
Still trying to chase down my boss, I need some paperwork from her.
Apply for a few days off when weāre going to London In December.
And I want to know if Iām supposed to stay in the same schedule and workplace until Christmas or until next August.
She stopped responding yesterday after confirming that Iām starting Monday, and dodged every other questions. The most annoying thing is that she doesnāt answer if you call her. She just responds to email or texts. And I donāt have her mobile phone number so I canāt text. Just email and number to the office which is a landline.
Annoying. But on the other hand, if she keeps ignoring me and I havenāt signed any new paperwork Iām still hired per hour/ on call so I can more or less do however I please with days off. (They are unpaid in that case, but it doesnāt matter)
Iām starting to be a bit nervous about going to work. I would love to work from home with my own companyā¦and Iām going to try for that this year and work on my teacher job at the same time.
Hopefully Iāll do well so I can work from home full time next year.
Sun is shining today. Iām the only one up for now. Itās unusual my husband usually get out of bed before me. But I think itās a good idea to try and get up early the days Iāve get left before Monday when Iām going back to work.
Iām looking forward to work with the five year olds and to change workplace. I like all the people Iām going to work with this time. I didnāt at the last place, those ladies made me nervous. Everything was supposed to go fast, and be correct. I was terrified of making a mistake and had extremely long days as a personal/resource teacher.
This semester itāll be nothing like that. I donāt have really early mornings, no extremely long days. Only two days a week, and Iām a normal teacher. Working with people who is more like me. Calm, a little slow and gentle.
Still wish I could be a stay at home wife though. But Iāve been for about 15 years in total so I guess Iām done with that. 
Wishing yāall an amazing weekend.
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