AH Dana - do not apologize ever for feeling what you are feeling and what you are dealing with… If anyone understands the battle of addiction (whatever the addiction may be) - its us.
I am sorry that you are struggling with a bad mood and a hard day! A pause button in life would be good but until we get that sorted out - we are here to listen and help in any way we can. If you wanna talk about the “uncomfortable” emotions that caused you to want to escape - i’m here to listen.
Do not feel discouraged - I know its hard not to. You are making amazing strides for your mental, physical and emotional health. You should really be proud of yourself. I know I am!
I think the over nighters really have a huge toll on you - for days afterwards. I believe the last time you felt out of sorts and binged was shortly after a over nighter. I do hope that this company can get you a permanent nurse so that you can fully concentrate on your health. Maybe like Cam said - have a way of resting before and after the night shift so that you are not totally working on 0 sleep for 2 days straight.
i like this approach and think you are onto something here. sending you love my friend and compassion - you will find a healthier way to cope
Mom passed away a couple months ago after a long battle with cancer. I’ve had some issues with insomnia since then, but that seems to be under control now.
I had a brief moment a month or so ago where I thought I was going to hit the sauce again. The grief I’ve been experiencing mixed in with the insomnia was getting to be too much and I wanted to escape. Thankfully I held on and those cravings are gone.
That is a very insightful comment about not being comfortable with any uncomfortable emotional and escaping it with some sort of addiction. Managing negative feelings is a very challenging thing when someone is sober.
Made it through a hard day. Still sober. Almost 90 days… the urge is there I want to find some coke but I’ll sleep instead. Between doc and hubby leaving to go see his other kids and girl it’s been a rough rough day. This weekend will be my true test. Can I hold off on scratching that itch? Can I make it to 90 days and beyond. I’m a wreck but for today I am safe and sober. I start new depression meds tomorrow as well… it’s gonna be a very sleepy few days…
Oh love - i’m sorry that you are dealing with the same shit. I am super proud of you and your 90 days! Grateful that you will not give in to the urges today. I do hope that you are able to find a meeting early tomorrow and hoping that the new depression meds also kick in quickly.
I do hope you get some good rest and are able to see and exceed your 90 days - you have come so far. We are right here for you if you need a shoulder to lean on or a ear to listen
Thanks. Just feel kind of blah right now. Tired but can’t sleep, wanting to cry but no tears, I don’t know what else I can do. I’m just happy I fought and won.
Sober check in, day 20. Not a bad day but ending with a headache. Kids were a bit sick this week and I’m wondering if it’s my turn now. Either way, I’m trying to notice and appreciate some progress coming with sobriety. Stay focused troops
ugh - i do hate it when you can’t sleep or cry but are tired and at the verge of crying. I do find that turning it around sometimes helps - meaning i turn on a good stand up comedy bit and sometimes i laugh so hard that i cry (crying from laughing) - laughing so hard wears me out and i then end up sleeping real well.
this may sound weird but it works for me - maybe it could work for you too
Day 333 checking in. And it’s just after midnight, so it’s now my daughter’s birthday
I left for work at 445 am and got home from work at 10 pm but I had to stay up to send her a birthday message at midnight. Now I’m off to bed. Good night sober family
@Hisharleyquinn1318 i too am almost at 90 days. Understand the urge but you’ve got this. Remember whatever feeling you’re experiencing right now will pass. I often tell myself that very thing. Sounds cheesy but tomorrow is another day and another opportunity to feel differently. Stay strong. We are all here for you.
Day 82……
Checking in remain focused. Day started off early. Work presentation, went well. Tired but can’t sleep, monkey mind for no particular reason. For a short week a lots gone on. I really have no complaints do for that I am grateful.
Grateful for my sobriety and the blessing of clarity of mind, ability to set boundaries and while I’ve said it again and again the ability to respond vs react. Makes me wonder how reactionary must I have been before.
Sleep well sober family!
I got some decent sleep last night, and a short nap this afternoon Work was finally busy, and a little chaotic, but really good.
I felt bad I was told to take tables from the new girl I just trained bc she was too slow. She has so much going on in her life you can feel her anxiety. She lost her 18yo brother to fentanyl last year, that was in a pressed pill. Then hospitalized for several severe health problems at once. And her bf was just in a car crash. I always share the wealth at work, especially if I know someone needs it, but she just couldn’t handle it. I’ll try and work with her more on her weaknesses.
I’m getting tired earlier again, which I’m grateful for. Makes it much easier to get moving in the morning. Hope everyone has a great night/day!
44 days since my last drink. It was probably about this time when I last got sober that my anxiety started to ramp up. I’ve been aware and been watching out for sign’s and addressing things as I go. I’ve been doing well in work and think I might be trying to take on too much or maybe showing signs of over confidence so I’m going to try control that.
Something I’m also working on it procrastination and getting things done and not letting them pile yup on me. I heard the phrase grab the frog recently. Or something to that effect. Where you identify the biggest slimmest job you need to do and just grab it.
I’m going to have a good finish to the work week, prepare for Monday’s tasks then enjoy my weekend.
I have a running event on Sunday morning and the Rugby World cup is starting, and my daughters birthday is coming up so I need to buy her a new phone. So I have some positive things happening over the next few days.
Have a great day, grab that frog
Work was finally busy, and a little chaotic, but really good.