Back home for the weekend. Another two weeks to go in the center. Don’t know if that is what seems to make my headspace a bit better. Or something else. I also realize I have to do it myself, nobody will do it for me. If I’m lucky I don’t have to do it on my own. Also realize I show still quite some dry alcoholic behavior in the treatment center, but I’m quite mild to myself about that, because of course I’m right . But my main excuse is the adhd, but will know that next week when my medication dose will be doubled. They and I expect a positive effect. Fingers crossed. Also no tendency to call my parents to come and take care of me. First since a long time, the self pity etc. got to me during my depressed episode (not ended yet but I feel trust today) so I know I try to drag them along I geus. Another dry drunk action. Gonna get some food and then gonna take a meeting.
Edit: treating myself, we first have to take care of ourselves before…….Have forgotten that a certain time period. Working hard on it.
I have to smile when I see this thread. All of us posting here, telling about our day, our victories, our losses, our fails and our wins.
There is something in every little story here that might help someone else.
And I love that
Morning Check In Day 572
Morning TS. Checking in clean and sober Just finished a 45 minute cardio workout. Son is sick so stayed home from school today. Hope everyone has a great day!!
Checking in day 75. I feel like I’m slow motion today from being tired, but I’m glad that it’s Friday and I have tomorrow off! Have a great day everyone
@scorpn Love the 3’s my friend. Hope you are feeling better now – can’t believe you did such a long shift after just having pneumonia. A very happy birthday to your sweet girl. Hope you are all able to celebrate together Much love Renee – do hope you find time to rest @louloubelle WOOT WOOT – 60 days aka 2 months of being awesome and sober! You are crushing it my friend – keep it up! @juli1 You are a rockstar Jules – check you out with 1 week milestone! Keep up with your commitments and your sobriety @dolse71 Love seeing your updates Paul – doing so well and creeping up on the 3 year mark … .way to keep being an inspiration @mischa84 Hell yeah – lets celebrate 10 weeks! What a great way to enjoy your freedom than with smiling kids playing in the great outdoors and you catching up on photos @flourishingperson1 Love this – double digits and flourishing. Keep it up my friend @moosetracks sending you luck on your interview today! Hope everything goes smoothly for you.
Oh man – that is unnerving to witness for sure. I am grateful that you were able to respond with clarity as well. Have a wonderful time tonight – Good humor is so precious – ENJOY! @butterflymoonwoman OOF – I hope your son gets better soon. Grateful for your active / positive start to the day @mia2 Girl – how are you doing? Been a minute since I’ve seen your positive posts. I just re-read your intro and LOL – Well hello Mia
Checking in alive on Friday - feeling decent and happy for another day of healing. I do have my PT this afternoon that i am somewhat dreading but we shall see how it all goes.
I did finally get 2 days of 7-8 hours sleep - funny how you feel more groggy once you actually start catching up on sleep. Grateful for my coffee with cinnamon to lift my spirits.
Have a wonderful addiction free day my beautiful friends - sending you all so much love
Bummer you haven’t found a tutor to help. If it is any help I can message you my email address and you can send it to me. I am happy to read it and send back suggestions.
Evening checkin
No shit in the fridge.
Heart full of love.
Aching ear. Lol. Be aware of swimmers ear, this is the greatest shit ever!
My application for the apartment was successful, I signed the contract and will move end of October out of my old apartment I lived in for 12 years… Next big change after quitting my toxic job environment after 8 years. Feels good. Due to some good vibes of the universe I got an apartment that fits to me and has a teracce.
I joyned a meeting in refuge recovery again today. I felt connection. It’s good to have a place where I can go to. It’s a change. I learn.
I’m glad work is over for the week. No big plans for the weekend. Football watching. Reading. Maybe picking crocheting back up.
Health issues weighing heavy in my mind. Supposed to get a call scheduling additional testing. I want that done asap so I have answers. More reasons not to drink.
I wish I could drink. ADHD completely untreated and I want something to quiet my brain down at least for a short while. I do see the new therapist next week. And hopefully after the medical tests, I can try a new medication.
. But my main excuse is the adhd, but will know that next week when my medication dose will be doubled. They and I expect a positive effect. Fingers crossed. Also no tendency to call my parents to come and take care of me. First since a long time, the self pity etc. got to me during my depressed episode (not ended yet but I feel trust today) so I know I try to drag them along I geus. Another dry drunk action. Gonna get some food and then gonna take a meeting.
Morning Check In 
Just finished a 45 minute cardio workout. Son is sick so stayed home from school today. Hope everyone has a great day!! 
Terrace yay!