@JazzyS good morning, Jasmine! Hope you start feeling better. @Mischa84 bronchitis is not fun… glad you got some antibiotics. Feel better soon!!! Hope your med adjustment goes well for you! @Starlight14 Good morning, Kelly! why is self care so hard?! So frustrating, I hope you find little slices throughout the day to take care of you! Small steps friend. Feel better, we’re here!
Mia, I love this!!! You are the universe, so go forth and be badass!
@Nordique 1178!!!Keep fucking going! @Sabrina80 Hope your birthday gets better and you shake the post-Covid ick! Then cake… all the cake!!!
Have an awesome sober day, TS friends!!
Merci beaucoup Quin, im good thank u, my little treasure is at school bless her so i had a nice breaky now ive some fave music on sitting in the sun…ive even been dancing
Hey lady, thank u for checking in on me. Overall my night was decent. He slept well and didnt toss or turn or fuss too much. I was able to take it easy but boy my body is not liking me this morning. I feel almost sick from being so tired. But i got somw coffee going now. How are you doing tho? I read about physio and how u were in sooo much pain. Im praying that ur feeling better today and able to enjoy ur day
Thank you @Butterflymoonwoman and @Mia2!!!
Dana, glad it was too rough a night for you! Keeping my fingers crossed you can get a nurse in tonight to help so you can get some much needed rest! your son is lucky to have you!!
Morning Check In Day 569
Morning TS! How is everyone today?
My night doing the awake overnight shift with my son was decent as far as nights go. Grateful for that I am sooo tired tho, to the point where i almost feel sick. But ill take it easy today. I do have some running around to do and then ill try to rest a bit before my son gets home from school. Im treating myself to a Pumpkin Spice latte from Starbucks today, thats for sure lol
Just going to do my morning routine now and then get him ready for the bus. Have a great day everyone!
I have been wondering about this for the past days and now you’ve put it into words. After years of abusing my brain ofc its not going to suddenly jump into a healthy state… even if I might have alleviated the main problem. It must surely take time for it to recover, you’re so right. Very good that you wrote this and I read it😂
@Curtis-81 not vaping on my first roadtrip was a mind game. Even if im a month into the quit. Those firsts are taxing. It was tough. I chewed on straws. Its weird how something feels off when im not vaping in chemicals. Fuck that i wanna save money and years on my life.
Day 104, good morning everyone. I didn’t sleep even a little bit and today i have class from 11 all the way to 845 tonight. It’s going to be a long day. Idk why I couldn’t sleep, i really just feel off and idk how to explain it. But last night I couldn’t shut my mind off, and it was super hot in my room, and i was just thinking about so much. I miss my girls and i broke down crying because i just don’t feel like I’m doing enough for them. Im not there with them and it kills me, like i know what I’m doing is for them and in the end they will understand i hope. But still it hurts and just makes me feel like shit sometimes. I don’t feel like I’m fit in many areas, I’m being impulsive with woman again and slacking on the gym and the days that i have gone to the gym i hated it bc i just felt so week…. I think its safe to say I’m in relapse mode and in order to get spiritually fit again i need to fix this and work on it. This is all shit that i was really concerned about happening, getting overwhelmed and starting to act out on it. I don’t feel any urges to use tho, but i do believe i am just not in a good head space. Being tired really isn’t helping it at all. I know only i can change this behavior. But I’m here and i wanted to be honest about it. Idk guys much love, i hope today goes smooth and I get through everything not being a complete emotional roller coaster. Much love
@sabrina80 so sorry love – this post Covid shit is just Bullshit! I do hope you start feeling better soon @starlight14 Yeah to a starting with self care and self love! Love that you’ve been dancing today – so much fun! @mischa84 Bronchitis is no fun – sorry love. LOL – may just take the phone from hubby next time and have direct conversation (you are right – why bother with the middle man). :rof1: Hoping the antibiotics kick in soon. @qhob13 Congrats on your double digits! @butterflymoonwoman ooh a pumpkin spice latte from Starbucks sounds like the perfect way to kick start today. I can only imagine how tired you must feel – I do hope you get some rest today. I am in relatively much less pain but still not able to sleep – I too am hoping to nap at some point today. @mindofsobermike Oh man no sleep sucks. It seems like your mind is taking advantage of your nervousness with school and adding on more pressures (like being a good father, working out, female relations). Dude – you are doing awesome. You know that getting into the gym and releasing the endorphins will feel great and help with a mood boost. It does not have to be a vigorous exercise – just something. Woman can wait – you have your whole life ahead for a relationship – right now concentrate on the relationship with yourself. Especially if you feel like you could be going into relapse territory. You are an amazing father and I know your girls feel the love you have for them. It’s the addict mind putting self doubt into you. Do not listen – you are doing all the right things for you and your girls. I do hope you are able to gain energy today to get through your long schedule. Much love my friend – we are here if you need to talk.
Thank you Billy – This was perfectly phrased!
Checking in on Tuesday morning…
Didn’t sleep well again. Not in severe pain so still moving in right direction. Did come down with some coughing and sniffles – tested Negative for Covid so that is a relief. I do have some work to do today – will try to accomplish what I can without applying any pressure to my brain. Hope you all have a wonderful addiction free day my friends – sending you all much love
Checking in day 366 and officially 1 Year:sparkles: sober. I feel really proud to be at this point. When I reflect on this year; I’ve gone through a lot to create a life I want to live. I left a 7 year relationship and house I owned with an alcoholic partner, I started a new job at the very beginning of the year, and joined some social leagues I never would have before. Weirdly, I don’t feel as different as I thought I might. The first time I got sober (and last just over a year) I completely transformed- but since those changes never totally faded, I’ve just slowly been growing since then. And that’s ok.
I’m aware that milestones like this can be a trigger (hence my aforementioned relapse at just over a year sober previously). This year I’m grateful I’m not finding myself plotting a relapse. My goal this year is to further emerge myself in sober communities and activities. I’m going to get back to meetings, and focus on personal growth. I have the foundation on my life worth living, and now I want to focus on making it as peaceful and joyful as possible.
Hope you start feeling better.
Morning Check In 
I am sooo tired tho, to the point where i almost feel sick. But ill take it easy today. I do have some running around to do and then ill try to rest a bit before my son gets home from school. Im treating myself to a Pumpkin Spice latte from Starbucks today, thats for sure lol
1 Year:sparkles: sober. I feel really proud to be at this point. When I reflect on this year; I’ve gone through a lot to create a life I want to live. I left a 7 year relationship and house I owned with an alcoholic partner, I started a new job at the very beginning of the year, and joined some social leagues I never would have before. Weirdly, I don’t feel as different as I thought I might. The first time I got sober (and last just over a year) I completely transformed- but since those changes never totally faded, I’ve just slowly been growing since then. And that’s ok.