Just checking in
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This was me this morning before having that coffee experience 
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So glad you are feeling better!! Great to hear from you!! 
I am like 1.5 hours outside the city. I have actually only been to the city twice. 
since Iāve lived in this area I only went the second time for a hockey game so it wasnāt even really going to the ācity.ā Lol I had an old coworker who goes to the city just about every weekend for the jazz music!! I want to get back up to Michigan at some point, itās beautiful up there.
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Day 10
Made it through the depressive cloud.
Doing stuff and napping.
Joyned a meeting, just listening but made connection and learned something
An earlier colleague sent me a nice message I didnāt expect. Doing red light on my swimmers ear now (itās 95% healed I think). Tomorrow,
Iām having a molar pulled, itās OK the tooth is done lolā¦ Get rid of that old stuff
So approximately I have to go on learning to pause few days more.
Much love 
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Day 15, late check in today been really tired, think after the stress of getting through the weekend and my birthday has wiped me out, early night and rest for me.
Hope everyone has a great day/night
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Day 10 not any form of marijuana woohoo double didgets
Day 124 no alcohol
Day 55 no smoking 
I had to reset my whole phone Wifi wouldnt work and the phone company said it was the wifi not the phone so I factory reset the phone in a last attempt to get wifi on my phone and it worked but the sober numbers might be off a bit but theyāre there and I didnāt relapse
Day off today
So far so good
Chilling with the wifey
Had a good lunch burger king 
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Thank you so much for the explanation.
Iām embarrassed to say Iāve never come across this book. I will add it to my ever growing To-Be-Read pile, which is in danger of toppling over and squashing me !!
Amongst other books, I have Dopamine Nation on my bedside table ready to read. I have listened to a couple of podcasts featuring Dr. Anna Lembke and love her, so Iām excited the read her book. X
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day 557 of no self harm
i know I am not in a state where I can work right now so Iām focusing on getting better physically before I try to find a new job. or so I thought. since I lost that job Iāve really had to come to terms with how poor my health is. but I also know that my conditions are chronic and can be managed but not cured. and thatās been destroying me. Iām going to have to live like this to some extent for the rest of my life.
I havenāt wanted to self harm (other than the night I lost the job) but Iāve just stopped caring. skipping school work, not really eating or drinking water or anything. i sleep for almost 14 hours a day.
I wouldnāt do anything to harm myself but if something were to happen to me I donāt think Iād do anything to prevent it. if a car were coming straight at me I donāt think Iād move. felt like that before but itās been years so it just really sucks to see myself like this again
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Oh thank you, that is so kind. Baby niece was born last night (long labour turned into a caesarean). Both my sister and baby are healthy. I was so excited!!
There seems to be a lot of weird family stuff going on though. I am feeling massively unsettled by the whole thing and have no idea what is going on. It is bringing up so much buried stuff. It is crazy how deep some stuff goes. This sounds like I am making it about me and donāt worry I am absolutely not, outwardly I am being relaxed and supportive. I think it is why I havenāt been on here so much, finding it so hard to articulate. Donāt really understand what is happening myself.
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Day one, no drinking.
Day 9 no nicotine.
Staying on this site to maintain focus through reading your posts and absorbing all your strength.
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Welcome back TF.
Big hugs 
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Cheers Eric, Iāve thought of you often and read all your other thread on Al Anon topic. My heart is with you and your strength to keep on keeping on. When Iām feeling stronger I will wade in on there as Iām in desperate need of some unpacking!!
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Thank you
When youāre ready.
We are here for you.
Congrats on day 1.
See you tomorrow
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Hey, I have been wondering about you! I just disappeared a year ago and always felt bad about it. Welcome back 
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Hi Jenny! Yes you kind of did! I missed you. I managed about 13 months of sobriety, them it all went Pete Tong for me. How are you?
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Aaaah, I am sorry. I am 42 and still do a disappearing act when I am struggling (actually hopefully I left that behind last year). I am OK thanks, sorry to hear you have struggled.
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Congratulations on the arrival of your baby niece. Glad to hear mum and baby are doing well.
Be kind to yourself. Birth and everything that goes with it is such a massive thing, we kind of dismiss it as every day, but itās huge !! And unsurprisingly incredibly emotional. It doesnāt surprise me that it may prompt unexpected / forgotten feelings. Take it easy. Lots of love X
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Good to hear, where are you on your Sober date now? I used to like that we were almost twins in Sober date. Now I have nearly one dayā¦ but no one can take away the year I managed.
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Evening checkin on day 100.
My mum has invited me and the kids up to celebrate her birthday this Sunday. Iām kinda quite excited at the thought. Itās been a while since I saw my parents, like six months or so although Iāve been speaking to them on the phone regularly recently. Weāre going to iron out the details tomorrow.
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Congrats on 
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X
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