Hey guys! Checking in… today marks 212 days clean ( 7 months ) still fighting the good fight ODAAT! Hope everyone is doing well…. Just want to take the time out to thank all who have supported me and helped me along the way!!! It takes a village sometimes and now I truly know what that means. This platform has been my village! I’ve attached a picture of my doggo enjoying her cup of ice cream… we go to this place a lot ( church ) to just let her run around and it’s a good place for me to reflect and reset after a hard day of work. Peace, love, and happiness warriors
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You know where you are and you have the tools now to counter your relapse mode Mike. I’m more emotional when I’m tired too. I’m an emotional guy. That’s fine. At least we have emotions, we feel them, we experience them, real emotions, not the fake crocodile tears we cried when drunk ( I cried those anyway).
You’ll make it through today. Just keep going. You explained perfectly well why it was you couldn’t sleep. Your mind racing, missing your girls, hot in your room. More than enough reasons Mike.
Use your tools. You have 'm. You’re here. That’s one. Keep going friend you are doing great. You’re in bloody college! Love you man.
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Oh gosh… Glad you are okay!
Yea that might be a sign 
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Day 4 evening checkin…
Still smashing it. Back home.
But my left ear hurts as fuck!
I hope there’s nothing bad on the way.
Okay i had muuuuch cold water round me last days.
Will put a package with smashed onions on it. Yea thats ugly but might help 
Ah and un cistus incantus tea.
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Geez, @anon74766472 fires and @Juli1 earaches, hope you’re both doing okay.
Checking in on day 15. Yesterday was a close call. Went out early for a motorcycle ride, thinking I’d beat the heat, but I didn’t and I got mildly overheated (I have a lovely Harley that turns into a BBQ when it’s hot outside 
). Boy did I want a cold beer when I got home. Fortunately I didn’t take myself too seriously and opted for a nice NA beer in the fridge. I’m grateful for options like that to keep me on point.
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You can do this Mike, sounds to me you’re bit hard on yourself. Give yourself some slack, not everything will change in one day (look who’s talking 
). But what I get from your post is that you’re already self-aware about things that are going on. That’s growth. ODAAT!
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@starlight14 appreciate the squishy hugs Kelly – so comforting. Thank you so much! Able to move around so I’ll take it.
@saturn81 LOL – thanks love – staying connected here and seeing my friends succeed helps me stay on the addiction free path. Glad you are having some enjoyable sunny weather today. Never know – Coops might have enjoyed it too
@anon74766472 OH goodness – grateful that you are safe and no major harm was done. Hopefully you will be able to get rid of the smoke smell soon enough. I know how strong that can be.
@billy85 OMG Friend – 7 months 
You are rocking this sobriety journey. Glad you are doing so well Billy – thanks for sharing the beautiful pic 
@juli1 I’m sorry you are dealing with an ear ache girl – I hope the raw onion helps. Warm (not hot) drops of olive or tea tree oil in ear may also help. Hope you feel better soon.
@hoss grateful that you did have other cold options to choose from – its all about the choices my friend. Well done on day 15
LOL – love that you said it Rob cause I was thinking same thing when I was reading it – much love my friend – hope you are giving yourself some slack as well 
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day 552 of no self harm
I hate being chronically ill. today I just wanted to finish a school assignment but I have bad brain fog and I have to finish it today. I got frustrated and started crying. I was overstimulated and I can’t even work in my room to avoid overstimulation because I can’t get to my desk. and I’m so fucking weak and sick all the time that even cleaning up a small bit will have me feeling like shit for the rest of the day. I’m so tired of living like this
just got a call that I didn’t get the job
rough day cried for about 2 hours straight but feeling better now
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thanks beautiful! You just made my day! 
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Thanks @Rob11, @Its_me_Stella, @RosaCanDo , @lorelai , @Mno , @JazzyS. You guys rock and are the best support anyone could ask for. Im tired for sure, but i made it through every class so far. English 101 was super confusing today, explained proper grammar. And nouns, adverbs, pronouns you name it we went over it, and fast. It was very confusing, but like i said Thursday i will be getting a tutor. Had a 1 on 1 with my med doctor and she is changing my mood stabilizer again because i don’t feel like I’m meshing with the one she has me on now. But yeah thank you guys for just encouraging me to get through it. Today was a good day otherwise much love
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Evening check in, don’t think I had time this morning. Just had to scroll back to check, the days are a blur!
First day at school for daughter went well, and my new full time hours are so far OK. I managed the gym but was quite sleepy after in the sauna. Very tired now but that isn’t a bad thing. It is so hot here, had to come home from work in my lunch break as my office is not equipped for heat. I sit right by the window. I switched that for sitting in a dark room with a fan on.
It is my wedding anniversary tomorrow, 15 years. Can’t believe how much has changed. Starting to feel old, not necessarily in a bad way, just definitely moving into a new life stage.
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Oh earache and toothache are 2 of the worst pains for me, hope it eases up quick 
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Sober head on the pillow. Going to sleep knowing I will be 6 months AFAF tomorrow morning
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Hey Megan - i know it is hard but hopefully now that you are seeing a doctor who is working with you - you will soon start getting the treatment you need and start feeling better. You are doing great with the no SH - keep showing up for a healthier you. I hope you start seeing some positive results soon
I do want to stress that without a good Nutrional diet you can not heal your body - your body needs healthy fats and calories to burn so that it is not taking it out of your bones and lining. I do hope that in some way you can set up a eating schedule to get you back on track with a healthy routine.
I am sorry you did not get the job. Hopefully another opportunity will come along when you are feeling better.
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Day
4.33 no marijuana
49.01 no smoking 
117 .94 no alcohol
No need to relapse. There’s never a good excuse. It’s no good how there’s never a good excuse but I make them up in dier times. The addicted mind is so interesting.
I have the next 2 days off of work
Plenty of time to rest
My day working is also finished after 5 days straight of working so it’s all resting for me for 2 days. I’m fortunate.
I’ll be around 
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Day 234.
Checking in sober.
There’s a lot going through my head, but I struggle to put it into words. Getting a new laptop is a huge deal for me. It’s something I achieved. It’s money I would have spent on wine and even drugs, instead I got a new laptop that will help me improve my writing. I wouldn’t be here without sobriety.
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Way to go on hitting 234 days, Amy!!! And yaaaay for laptop day! 
hopefully it will give you some inspiration to write!
@Noshame enjoy your couple days off!!
@SadMemeQueen great job on 552 days of no SH, Megan. Sorry to hear about the job. Hopefully that just means there’s something better around the corner! 
@Mindofsobermike Mike, going back to school is damn hard! Be proud of yourself for that self growth. Hoping you get set up with a great tutor who will be able to give you some good study tools. Try different things and see what helps make it stick. Good luck!
@JennyH glad shifts are going well! Happy anniversary tomorrow. 15 years- that’s an accomplishment! hope you guys get to do something special together to celebrate!
@Hoss Glad you made it home safe from your ride!! And remained sober!!
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Really glad for you @Rob11. I saw a really amazing thing from someone being interviewed about needing medication, and she just had such a fresh take. It helped her, and she wasnt upset about having to take it or felt ashamed. It can definitly be a hard line to walk though. I do hope it helps, and if not at least you tried. Best wishes,
Xo.
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234!!! Wow! Keep it goin lady! Xo.
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