Checking in day 330! Been awhile sober family. I just finished up the 12 these last couple of months and I am so blessed to have done them. Would recommend to anyone who was on the fence. Stay strong everyone. Everyday is a victory❤️
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@Saturn81 thank you 
so proud of you for doing the lunch sober and holding up your boundaries, glad the majorty of them were supportive 
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@Juli1 thank you well done with your boundaries I’m proud of the work you are doing and I love your illumination 
I hope your ear feels better soon 🩵
@HolySquid thank you I’m so pleased it inspired you to check-in, I know that low mood wanting to isolate feeling, but I feel so much better on the days that I do check-in, sending strength and I hope you get some answers about your health real soon 
🩵 also, congrats on 6 months 
@Mia2 congrats on doing what’s right for you it’s good to trust those bad vibes/ your intuition, I’m proud of you 🩵 I also like the Universal energy notion, thank you for the reminder 
@Megan3 congrats on 8+ months
@Bomdhil thank you 🩵 congrats on your week
@Scorpn oh nooo feel better soon 🩵 sending healing vibes 
@Mindofsobermike with the reading, I’m the same, and I’m also the same with tv shows and films, from what I’ve read it’s an ADHD trait, so hopefully it won’t be the first time someone has needed support. 
I hope they have some ideas that can help, and I’d be intrigued to know, because that’s the biggest reason I haven’t pursued higher education. My sleep is also all over the place, some nights I don’t sleep for a single second, other nights I’ll sleep 3 hours, then occasional nights I’ll sleep 12hrs. Madness. I hope you can use your self-awareness to break through what feels to you like relapse territory, but I think it’s right that you just need to give yourself chance to adjust to the change and newness of your education starting.
@Butterflymoonwoman it’s really not good that you’re having to keep doing these overnights whenever your son’s regular nurse is off. All I can suggest is that you prioritise self-care and get some sleep while your son is at school the days before and after, though I know it’s probably too late by now. Sending you strength and some energy 🩵:battery:Just seen your latest post…so happy to read all of this, especially whilst running on no sleep
@JazzyS I’m so sorry you’ve been suffering with so much pain since the PT session, I am having the same issue, I do my exercises but only very minimal amount of movement bcuz all of the exercises are meant to be done ‘in a pain free zone’, and I wake up in agony, barely able to get out of bed, thankfully for me, it hasnt made me sick like it has you, I do hope there’s something else they can do when you see them tomorrow 🩵
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@HappyDays congrats on 4 months
@DanaM56 yikes, thats not good at all, I’m so sorry your safety has been violated I hope the company will change your locks ASAP!
@Mno thank you 🩵 and you captured the last part of that sunset perfectly 
@Sabrina80 I hope your stomach has settled by now. Happy birthday for yesterday 
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@SoberWalker I’m glad you’re okay that’s a really good idea, I’ll write it by hand in coloured pens and keep it in my nightstand to read. Part of my homework is to keep reading it every day. It is really helping me challenge my inner critic.
@Rob11 thank you I’m glad the ADHD medication felt like an instant relief 🩵
@flourishingperson1 congrats on your week
@Mischa84 thank you I’m glad your doctor was able to help, hoping the antibiotics take care of that Bronchitis ASAP 🩵
@Ballroomdaze I hope your surgery went well sending healing vibes for your recovery too
@Qhob13 thank you 🩵 congrats on double digits
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Getting ready for my last shift before my vacation. You might have noticed I’ve been looking forward to it. I love my job, but it’s time to get away from it all for a while. Do some relaxing me stuff. Sometimes we all need a break.
There’s no break needed or helpful from addiction. All that helps with that is a full blown, full time, all out stop. Never again. One day at a time. Have as good a day as you all can friends. Love from Amsterdam and the Hill Country. Will be there in 8 days time.
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@MooseTracks congrats on your year 
@Tailee17 congrats on 50+ days
@Becs welcome congrats on 2 weeks
@anon74766472 that sounds scary! I hope you’re okay 🩵
@Billy85 congrats on 7 months
@SadMemeQueen I’m glad the crying helped 🩵
@JennyH thank you 🩵 congrats on 15 years of marriage 
@Amy30 congrats on your new laptop and all that it represents 
@HakeemOsman welcome and happy birthday
1121 days no alcohol.
586 days no cocaine.
9 months no cigarillos.
101 days no vape.
Checking in for the past two days…
Didn’t sleep for a single second again Sunday night.
Collected my parcel.
Managed to shower finally.
Went to therapy, we did some exercises to try to help me connect with my emotions. I kept having this growing feeling of sadness, rising from my stomach all the way up to my jaw, I couldn’t bare it, I kept opening my eyes and speaking to disminish it, I felt like I was going to cry, and thats a big fear of mine, to lose control like that, because it reminds me of my suicide attempt on 13th March 2014. I have only cried twice since then.
The sadness triggers the overwhelming feelings I had when my mum passed away in 1996, when I was 8 years old. I was never allowed to grieve, and if I displayed any of my emotions I was physically punished. It is the sadness feeling that I stuff down with food and then abuse laxatives to release. I recognise that now. It may even be considered a therapy break-through.
The last exercise, was using an empty chair again, to represent child me, and I was asked what I would say to child me if I could, and I struggled with this, but eventually just said ‘are you okay?’. We then discussed how no one ever asked me if I was okay, despite all of the signs that I clearly was not.
It seems once again, that therapy is coming to an end, when it feels like it’s just beginning. It is my final session of this therapy next Monday. Then I will be waiting for the therapy relating to my eating disorder.
Today I felt really peaceful, I think the sun shining outside helped with that. Went for an overdue hair cut, bought some healthy food to eat, and enjoyed it guilt-free.
Glad to have finally had the energy to get caught up here. It always feels good. I love this community we share.
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Quick check in before bed. I slept maybe 4 hours last night. It’s a hot hot hot one again. Hard for me to breathe, and I’m still feeling congested and stuffy. But really tired so I’m gonna go with it and try to lay down my head. Goodnight all 
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Are you okay @CATMANCAM ?
Lots of what you’ve written here and your letter to yourself are so meaningful and I hope helpful in dealing with your every day.
Sorry that the therapy is finished/,about finished but seems like you’ve had some beneficial take-aways from it.
Big hugs.
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Bijna vakantie!!
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I am a bit overwhelmed today.
Don’t know what’s going on with my ear.
Anyway I won’t drink today.
I am commited to sobriety.
No matter what.
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Still sober just for today
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Hey all, checking in on day 1179. I hope everybody has a good one!
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One Year just today.
Hello,
This message has the risk of lack of humility and being too self-centered, but I want to share with you that a year ago I stopped drinking, since then:
• I am one more, I am normal, I think it is the best I have achieved. I am not a leader or anyone special, but I am a sober person.
• I have partially recovered the capacity for wonder at things, at nature, at art, at spirituality.
• I trust in the goodness of people. I have left invented enemies behind.
• I don’t create tragedies or problems. I face life as it comes, day by day. Bad days will come, but they won’t be worse because of alcohol.
• My life is better, I don’t miss any alcoholic moments.
Share with you that yes, there is a way out.
• Toxicity can be left aside.
• There is no problem if you have to avoid bad company or situations.
• The goal is our recovery, and only us. It doesn’t matter what others say.
• We are normal, but we have a disease. There is no guilt or sin. We have not deserved what we have.
Cheer up everyone. Thank you for being there community, and thanks also to AA.
A hug.
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Keep racking up those awesome numbers, Camden!
Sounds like you have had some awesome breakthroughs at therapy. Bummer that your sessions are coming to an end, but hopefully you can move forward with some extra tools or wisdom you learned! Don’t be afraid to pull out an empty chair at home and check in on young Camden. Regarding crying, let it out my friend! Walked in to a therapy appointment years ago after nearly crying on the way there. Told my therapist about it, thinking he would also celebrate with me that I didn’t cry. Nope. He asked why I didn’t let myself cry. I told him because I didn’t even have a reason to be crying and it was silly to cry for no reason. His response has always stuck with me- If you feel like you’re going to cry, you’re body is telling you that it needs that release, so just let it out, you don’t need any more reason than that. 
So let those tears flow, it’s not being weak, it’s just taking care of your body and yourself- and that’s pretty awesome!
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Just started my clock again today after about a year relapse. I managed 90ish days last year. Lets see what happens this time. Today i just feel alittle tired but i dont feel like a i need a drink or smoke. Going to a wedding this weekend so that will be aittle “testy” for me.
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Day 340
Thank you all for the birthday wishes 
My stomach calmed down and I don’t feel sick any more. I even was able to eat yesterday evening.
Seems like my body reacts now very intense when I do or eat something it doesn’t like. I have to be extra careful and loving with it now. It seems that Covid messes with the gut pretty bad so tomorrow I’ll get me some goodies to help the gut regulate again. That also means to be very careful with fat and sugar now, so no chips or cookies for now until everything has calmed down.
Imagine I’d still drink 
That would be so extremely harmful, thanks God I’m sober and able to stay that way
Have a beautiful sober day friends, stay strong 
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Day 30 sober check in. Hope everyone has a good day!!
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Day 331 in progress
Still feel 
but I’m hoping by Friday I’ll be on my way back to better. I’ve got 5 prescriptions working together. 
I don’t have to rest through her big day
Lots of love 
and congratulations to many for milestones!
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