Wow congratulations on your 1 year!!! Amazing work!
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Day 3 of my bonus daughter with me
I’m gonna help her as much as I can.
I love my kids. All of them.
When I get my regular status back I’ll post on my thread
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I had to force myself into the shower and along the road to my appointment but I got there and found the GP to be very supportive. She’s given me Escitalopram to take and has said it takes a couple of weeks to start working. She feels we’ve caught this early and is very hopeful that I’ll feel better soon.
Then I stocked up on some groceries, collected my prescription and also stopped by the fabric store for some fabric I can embroider on. I’m just listening to some music at the moment, but I’ve just found out that the kids schools will be closed for three days next week due to strike action so I’m a bit blown away by that news.
I bought a couple of Portuguese tarts to have with a pot of tea when the kids get back from school.
I’m definitely not feeling as bad as yesterday, which I’m grateful for.
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Thank you SO SO much for reminding me of the things that are truly important. Sometimes i forget 
i always appreciate ur support and comments 
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@2JTravNZ Congratulations! Such an achievement!
@Lotusflower I don’t understand why a father wouldn’t take care of his own kids, regardless of what was going on with the mother. He is putting pettiness over his kids. Hope you do well in treatment.
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Checking in on day 5 
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I am so grateful for your GP - love how on top of things she is and the support is unreal! Here is to the meds and the hope that they will kick in soon so you start feeling relief. Grateful to have caught this early 
You did a lot of stuff today already. Embroidery too - you are very creative and talented – this is so lovely – i do appreciate when you share your creations with us.
Yikes - a strike at school! It would have blown me away too. In a way it may be the universe keeping your kids home so you are not alone while the meds kick in… having additional support at home 
Appreciate you checking in and letting us know how you are doing. Enjoy your Portuguese tarts and tea 
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De-accelerating one day at a time. Walk. Sit. Watch. Talk. Listen. Read. Eat. Sleep. Exist. Sober and clean. Have as good a day as you all can friends. Love from the Hill Country.
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Those Portuguese tarts will sort you out! I found Escitalapram very helpful a few years ago, really was a blessing for me.
Good luck 
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@saturn81 how are you feeling Michelle? Hope you are fully recovered and enjoying your week.
Love the Motto! Hope you are having a fantastic day! Yes, the anxiety with our constant battle to not pick up is intense – it does get easier. Doing awesome with 55 days 
@annae Great work on your 4 months of sobriety! Keep up the amazing work – grateful that you are doing so much better!
@2jtravnz Great work on 1 year of sobriety! His is amazing – keep up the hard work. Grateful to have you on this journey with us and yes – you are missed – always good to see your posts! Keep strong
@alycia WOW – that I is great that you are able to do the home schooling for your son and that it is already showing positive results.
@lotusflower What a amazing milestone – 7 days of sobriety! Grateful that you will starting treatment in a week. More grateful that you kids will be with a trusted friend. I’m sorry your ex is being such a prick. You are doing amazingly well – keep strong Des!
@qhob13 Doing awesome with your sobriety – sleep was messed up or me for the first few months. Hang in there – I do hope it starts to regulate for you soon. OK that guard needs an attitude adjustment. I would be a bit salty over it too.
WOW – love this and grateful for your selfcare! Doing the OPPOSITE is lovely way to go about the journey. Keep doing what you are doing – I’m seeing a lot of positive from you! That salad looks delicious and is making me hungry hope you enjoyed!
@its_me_stella HELL YEAH to one week without sugar. You are killing it in sobriety and now with a healthy lifestyle!
@scorpn much love to you my friend – always good to see you. Have missed your check in’s –grateful that things are going well with your bonus daughter. I do also hope that your work schedule has calmed down some.
Checking in Tuesday morning
Feeling all sorts of feelings. Woke up in a numb state and lots of tears (not sure if they were cathartic tears or of sorrow – will not dwell on it as i am feeling okish now).
About to try and do some light movement and make a lovely breakfast - actually brunch now for myself.
Its a beautiful day to embrace and make new beginnings (working on all parts of me). Love you all - thank you for being a part of my journey!
Wishing we all have a wonderful addiction free day - sending you much love my beautiful friends 
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I have wanted to say a lot, but feel more comfortable on my own thread with some things. I’m not far off from gaining access to it again. So hopefully I’ll be able to check in there soon.
Happy Tuesday!
It’s my day off this week! I hope you have a beautiful day
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Totally understand and looking forward to hearing from you love! Enjoy your day off! you deserve to bask in the sunshine and relax
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Whoo hoo! My landlord just knocked on my door and gave me a brand new fire extinguisher to replace the one that saved part of his building! He also served an eviction notice to them. Yay! Dealers will be outtie soon 
@2JTravNZ - congratulations on a year! I feel like you’re seen here more than you think. You’re definitely helping others with your accomplishments, so thank you too 
@Amy30 - narcissists are insecure, heartless, soul sucking monsters. No contact is the best option, though I can see this being difficult if it’s family. Just remember, the more you let them get to you, the more they win. They are the weak ones. Be strong.
@Qhob13 - they did give my knife back, and said it was a nice one (Damascus blade)! I just saw them on the phone as I was walking back and got paranoid it was about me, lol. I’m just grateful I didn’t have my spring loaded switchblade on me. I only have it if I’m going out alone at night but sometimes forget to take it out. Illegal in my state, and a misdemeanor is the last thing I need rn 
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Day 353
This was a hard day. One more coworker sick. I’m completely done with everything.
And then I was sitting next to 2 crazy ladies in the packed train, one with her dog.
When she put her dog up on the seat (on me) I had to leave or else I would’ve completely lost it.
Both crazy ladies seem to have some kind of either drug problem or mental problem. Usually I can brush that off but not today. It was too much.
Now walking home.
Have a beautiful sober day friends, stay strong 
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How exciting Travis.
Congratulations one you first full year of freedom. Supper accomplishment! Great job sir 
More cake?
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I’ve had success with fluoxetine in the past but I find the lead in to it working unpleasant. The doctor assured me this should work a bit faster than fluoxetine. Here’s hoping
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Checking in Day 2!
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Thank you Flo. Really looking forward to it. It’s a start. I have a lot of healing to do🙏🏾
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9 days AF, excited for double digits tomorrow. triggers today are worrying about how i’m going to provide for me and my son. i’m currently unemployed because i’m his sole provider as his dad is incarcerated in another state. staying with my father right now but that has to be very temporary. i can’t afford his part time daycare anymore as i’ve been paying out of my savings. need care for my boy and a job so i can move into our own place. these things are very daunting and seem almost impossible - usually i would just want to just escape my adult responsibilities. now, even though it’s extremely intense and confusing and overwhelming to the point where i almost can’t move, i know for a fact that drinking is not an option. adding that element would make it even more impossible for me to achieve a life for me and my boy. even though i don’t know the answers right now, i do know one thing: i’m sober. knowing that makes me know that soon i WILL know the path forward, or at least the first few steps….i’m grateful for that. grateful for sobriety, the first step.
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