Welcome back 
I remember you when I first joined (i got a new name). That relapse shit sure does suck. Took me 3 years to get out of mine. Glad youāve found your way back here. It really does help. Keep it up friend 
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Day 55 and Iām holding my own. I feel at times itās not a battle with the drink but more a battle with the anxiety it brings.
I have a system and use it but overthinking is a bad habit of mine. Iām running better and that helping, I have some big events coming up that will hopefully keep me focused. I really want to do will in these events as my running career is it itās twilight and Iād like to finish up well.
Focused, confident and at peace, thatās my motto for today 
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Well done! Sometimes (sometimes!), teachers give you an early grade that they hope will give you cause to push rather than relax because they see that you can achieve something fantastic. Donāt be too bummed! As @Misokatsu says, thatās great for a first assignment.
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18
18 days sober ā¦
Fully committed.
Recovering body and mind.
Had a nearly 8 hours sleep tonight without a break. I just remember how often I woke up during heavy times in my job,
orā¦ With a pumping, furious heart after an evening of drinkingā¦
or, with running thoughts about that guy, when he gave everything with his silly show.
Now I can restā¦ Hellyeah how glad I am.
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Day 87. Tired . Walking our feet off here. Venice is remarkable.
Have found there is limited choice of non alcoholic drinks but there are alternatives though, and i prefer water with good food.
Going to be sober today 
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Checking in on 120 days.
4 months of feeling sooo much better. Life is good.
Have a beautiful sober day everyone!
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Day 248.
I just woke up and the absolute insanity that is being close to my family is finally starting to wear me down. They are pulling me in the mad veneration cult of the narcissus asshole my dad is and wonāt stop until they snub my light out.
On the surface, none of the things they do are that bad, itās an accumulation of little slights building up over decades.
They gaslight me with the smallest most insignificant issues. Like yesterday, my aunt got in a right huff when she called the place Iām staying in a studio and I dared to correct her. Itās not. Objectively itās a one-bedroom apartment. Itās got an open plan kitchen/living room and a separate bedroom. With doors. And two hallways.
Why did that have to turn into such a big fucking issue? She was objectively wrong. But made me feel like an idiot who doesnāt know anything.
Yesterday my husband asked me how I coped growing up like this. Iā¦ didnāt. I was drinking, smoking (cigarettes), and engaging in dangerous promiscuity. Anything to feel anything. Then I moved to another country and found weed, cocaine and even more promiscuity to deal with the CPTSD.
I wasnāt ok when I was 2000 miles away, I wasnāt ok when I was no contact (thatās a cute buzzword, when I was doing it, the internet hadnāt caught on), I wasnāt ok when I was low contact.
Now Iām sober and very much in (constant) contact. And guess what? Iām still not ok.
The plan is to spend the winter here. But at this point, an isolated hut in Antarctica sounds more appealing.
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Hi Jasmine. I pretty much spent the day in bed with a hot water bottle on my chest. My son ordered me some fries with the food he got for himself and his sister and I managed to eat them plus some sourdough toast with jam. I have my GP appointment today mid morning, which is a twenty minute walk away. Itās a full, damp morning here. āDreich ā is the Scots word for weather like this.
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Day 365/1st Year AF
Well Iām finally home after an 11 hour day.
This year has been a year, definitely been some very trying situations but I cracked my first year Alcohol Free.
Im happy a bit more healthy and definitely better for having givin up.
Dont think Iāve been missed much round here but being here has helped get me through! So thanks team.
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Ahhh thatās amazing, well done friend 
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Hey there- checking in with 538 days.
I decided to pull the pin on my sons high school and start homeschool. It was scary, but necessary for his and our mental health. We are all feeling better about it already, much less pressure for him, a slower pace to learn at home without class rooms full of distractions and constantly feeling behind and not good enough. Iāve read a lot of material on helping with adhd learning, accessing my online resources. He has sports and active groups outside of school, and lots of friends as well. So I know that he will be okay socially.
Along with that Iām still able to work from home and have had amazing opportunities and feedback at work. Opportunities for growth and promotions. Iām very blessed I can do the work I do, and support my family at the same time.
Thanks for reading 
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Thank you
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Day 69 for me, loving it 
@2JTravNZ , congrats on your year! Love the slogan sobriety is a journey, not a destination. So true.
@Amy30 , I can relate to trying to survive family dynamics, tho your final comment made me smile, hope thatās ok, and wow, 248 days is amazing!
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Day 7.
Missed check in yesterday. Very difficult day, yet grateful I didnāt use. I reached out to my sponsor, friends and God. I was honest, open and willing.
Kids Dad told me he wasnāt watching the kids not speaking to me until I make amends with him.
Wowā¦ eventually I will have too as he will to me if he evers decide to get help. I have let go. This unhealthy codependent trauma based relationship is a trigger for most of my use. Not blaming just acknowledging.
A friend of mine has offered to watch the children while Iām in treatment. So very thankful. Also will be creating a list of support people she and or the children can call while Iām away. Looks like I will be admitted next week Tuesdayā¦feeled with fear and hope. Possible to feel to direct opposites. One day at a time. Taking today slow. Anxiety is high yet I know how to reach out when I need to. Have a wonderful day all!
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I am in managementā¦ i can relate very well
Good job lady dry life is the best life. Donāt need to drink to have a personality 
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Hey all, checking in on day 1192. I hope everybody has a good one!
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Good morning TS fam! Checking in 24 days AF.
Less that a week until I make it 30 days. Honestly canāt believe how quickly it has gone and how little if a struggle it has been! I credit this place and all you wonderful people with it being easier than I expected.
On another note, week 3 brought sleep issues. Issues really isnāt the best word for it, as Iāve found I need less sleep since I quit drinking, which isnāt an issue. It is actually returning to my more normal ābaselineā when I wasnāt drinking. There is some insomnia sprinkled in, which is also quite ānormalā for me. Iām actually feeling more rested with some insomnia than I have in years, so just going to roll with it and see what happens with some more sober time.
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Huge congrats @2JTravNZ a whole fricken year is amazing!!
You are missed when you dont post. Im glad you came back to celebrate with us!!
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@Lotusflower congrats on surviving that first week of sobriety. What an amazing friend to watch the kids while you get treatment!
One day at a time
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Many congrats to you and all your hard work this year! A wonderful gift to yourself.
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