Thank you, Rosa. That’s is actually a really good idea. I need to try getting back in my meditation practice, but I’m just so wired all the time. It’s relentless and I need a holiday. But we can’t afford to go anywhere because we just bought laptops. And even if we could, I can’t leave the country because I’m in between identifications documents.
But… rainbows and puppies and island in Croatia, where I’m going back next year. And staying at least two months. Or permanently. We could live there and become island people. Take up fishing or something.
Welcome to the daily check in thread, @Barber508 I’m glad you found this forum and that you’re doing so well in your recovery staying clean and sober. Hope to see you checking in here often!
Checking in, day 5 this morning. Relapsed after 16 months sober. Didn’t ease into it either. Full blackout first night and then about ten days of kinda controlling it but still not good. Had a day where I tried to have a couple of seltzers while golfing and ended up pretty shit faced, making excuses to go to store, and hiding it from my wife until I couldn’t hide it any more. I was very close to being back to drinking daily, first thing in the morning until the sun goes down. What a relief it is to know that I don’t have to live that way ever again. Just wanted to let anyone who has had the thought about going back to drinking know that it isn’t any better/different than it ever was.
My wife and fam have been really supportive in getting me back on the wagon. I won’t drink today. 5 days is better than 0 days. Have a good one everybody!
10 days y’all! double digits went to Madison Square Garden last night to see a show and evvveeerrryyyooonneee was drinking actually i’ve been around alcohol the majority of the days i’ve been sober simply because of the people around me choosing to imbibe, but i still haven’t drank. not with exposure, not with triggers from life’s stressors and confusion…i really have that “click” & it’s strong. want to apply it to weed & nicotine next. i’ve had weed several times this week and it makes me feel like i’m definitely not fully sober. happy to be alcohol free and def want to see what happens to my mind/energy/outlook when i’m actually clear headed all the way.
Busy day today. Had to go to the tax office and city hall, not fun in your native language, even less so in your second. Got everything done, and got home just before a downpour. Made kimuchi fried rice for dinner, it was yummy. I could maybe add even more kimuchi next time. Both kids have their sports days coming up. In Japan, it is not just running races, each year group does a performance, such as dance. Randomly, both kids are doing ‘soran bushi’ so they are happy about that. It is a traditional dance, but kids always get excited about it. Even my son (who usually hates doing the performance) has been happily showing me the moves.
It goes a little something like this… ♪ソーラン節〈振り付き〉【ダンス】 - YouTube
Checking in day 381! Have a few clients today, and then a free afternoon. Hoping to get to the gym and maybe do some notes for my part-time job. Have dinner with a friend tonight.
Been really tired lately! Keep trying to catch up on rest but sleep hasn’t been great. I know stress has been a little higher than usual, so should target that.
Just went into a fucking conversion. Looks like the medication makes me unstable again (pushes me into trauma, probably why my first check in), two days before my leave….meaning goal of this treatment is down the drain right now. One of my biggest pitfalls was again to keep my back straight the last week although I mentioned my tension was building up and my head spinned about everything). Tomorrow I’ll see the doctor pffff. I’m so sick of this.
I want peace in my life, and wanna feel better so I can support others. Now feel like a taker and a nuisance.
Had a mixed night, bad sleep because the storm was pretty loud and the apartment was making windy noises in the windows and vents all night. Feel a bit low today, tired. Also my OH is back tomorrow but their holiday hasn’t/doesn’t seem to have been very nice with family, from what I can gather… Makes me feel really awkward in sympathy and a bit wary. I know that’s PTSD over my own family (drama makes me literally shut down). Think it’s made me a bit weird today and very sad and empathetic.
Work is also doing my nut in, it’s always the case when you are off that you come back to all the work not done. Even if, at first glance, it’s hidden.
We’re actually going to do a little day trip today . Already did my morning walk. Will keep you posted. Sober and clean. Have as good a day as you all can friends. Love from the Hill Country.
@Rob11 We give what we can. You give by sharing here. You give by showing how you’re working so hard on becoming a better version of yourself. We’re in this together friend. ODAAT and all that
It’s so nice to be able to have others to relate to during this journey.
2 weeks today, I was tempted yesterday to drink, and I did not cave in.
Thank you all for being so open and kind.
Peace and love.
went to Madison Square Garden last night to see a show and evvveeerrryyyooonneee was drinking 
actually i’ve been around alcohol the majority of the days i’ve been sober simply because of the people around me choosing to imbibe, but i still haven’t drank. not with exposure, not with triggers from life’s stressors and confusion…i really have that “click” & it’s strong. want to apply it to weed & nicotine next. i’ve had weed several times this week and it makes me feel like i’m definitely not fully sober. happy to be alcohol free and def want to see what happens to my mind/energy/outlook when i’m actually clear headed all the way. 
. Already did my morning walk. Will keep you posted. Sober and clean. Have as good a day as you all can friends. Love from the Hill Country.
