happy birthday!! i absolutely love how creative you’re getting with treating yourself and celebrating your special day, that is amazing!! mine is in 3 days, you’re inspiring me to really take care of myself that day, thank you fellow libra 
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Day 254.
We’ve moved! It’s been one hell of a day but we’re here. Me and husband make a fantastic team. We managed to do most of the cleaning and the unpacking this evening after moving all our shit.
It’s a nice place. The neighbours (my parents) are a bit annoying and highly opinionated, but… nowhere is perfect, I guess.
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I’m so excited, my English class I got a 96 on my essay which I was so pumped about. And then human services class last time I got a b-. Today she gave me some awesome feed back on my last essay and I scored a 92 percent. I’m honestly in like shock bc I never thought I’d do good. I’m so excited and just proud of myself. I love being sober and working on my life
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Amazing, well done 
You should be so proud of yourself. You are really inspiring
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Thank you. 
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Late night check in 
Busy day tomorrow. Have eaten some fish and chips and I am ready to fall asleep if the 
allows it 
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YESSSS!!! Told you you’re killing it dude! Keep up the hard work. Super proud of you!!!
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@Denver welcome 
@ImperfectEcho welcome to you too congrats on your counters 
@Just_Laura happy birthday 
@Qhob13 congrats on 30 days
@Trixie1 congrats on double digits
@Susy welcome to the checking-in thread congrats on 7 weeks
@babyapes congrats on 2 weeks
@Mindofsobermike well done! 
proud of you 🩵
1141 days no alcohol.
606 days no cocaine.
121 days no vape.
My car passed it’s MOT this morning (which is an annual safety inspection), now I need to figure out how to pay my tax, because I am registered disabled but I don’t have a current statement of entitlement because I’ve been waiting since October last year for them to review my claim. I’ll call the DVLA tomorrow and try to sort it, because it runs out on the 30th.
I’ve been depressed and in pain today so after I got home from the MOT, I haven’t done much. I did my morning routine, one walk, and read a chapter of the book I’m reading.
I’m really not doing well with my eating disorder at the moment and it’s getting me down. Hoping therapy will start this year. 
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Checking in on day 92. Staying pretty busy lately which is nice because it keeps my mind occupied
Hope everyone is having a good day 
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Passed a pt n got the vivitrol shot today
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xo.Hey ya’ll,
Wow am i on a ride or what? Feeling so emotional lately. Just a lot of stuff around my sister and my nephew. I talked to my dad about how exhausted I am by it today, and you know what I miss my family. I miss my sister the most, but my mom and dad too. We dont talk about hardly anything but this, this is our entire lives. It revolves around this whole insulting process, like being dragged through the mud and Im throwing the weight of a tanker truck at it. Feels like im in a never ending tractor fucking pull!!! I just want tje fighting with the courts, custody issues around my nephew to be resolved. It has been a yr and a half now, and what we need done is so fucking simple its beyond me. I wont go in to the latest upchuck of ridiculousness, but this is another insult to women who are victims of domestic homicide. This system just does not give a shit about them, and frankly we’re not gping to make any goddamn progress in any area of womens rights if we cant get the BASIC FUNDAMENTALS of what a WOMANS LIFE IS WORTH in the judicial system. Anyway…thats THAT part of my life.
At home, my daughter has been asking very specific questions about her Aunt and she knows who killed her. My daughter is 7. These conversations are loke being thrown in a hurricane with a rubber dingy. Im doing my best, but my heart is broken for her and that she has had to know stuff like this so young.
I am trying to allow myself to SIT with the saddness, not to make it go away. Being saf and having bad feelings isnt the absence of living life to your fullest, it is part of life. But man I miss my sister, and cant help but still feeling like at the end of this if we just do a good enough job like shes going to come back.
Did have another great weekend with the family & SO GRATEFUL for this place i love youball. Hang in there everyone XOXO Happy 24
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Wanted to check in. Made milestone day 3.
@Mira_D your share has brought me to tears. I’m so sorry you and your family have to experience this horrible, horrible tragedy. I wish I could wrap my arms around you and your family. Please reach out if you want to talk. I’ll be happy to just listen.
Have a positive day on purpose.
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Thank you so much @HopeDealer2. This place has been such a saving grace during this time in my life. Appreciate your thoughts & keep on keepin on to another 24 Xo
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So good to see you back with us friend! Hells yeah – lets go feet! Love the selfcare you practiced today and absolutely love that podcast saying!
@susy Welcome to our check in thread – lovely place to be! Congrats on your 7 weeks my friend – so glad that you are with us 
I do love planning ahead for a sober celebration! So exciting Yeah to sobriety and positivity!
@babyapes Way to go on 2 weeks! LOVE LOVE LOVE that you are equipping yourself with knowledge and sober tools for this journey. Keeping yourself active and playing the tape forward when the urges hit. Not silly at all love – I would be excited as well and you should be super proud of yourself.
@curtis-81 hope your day back at work went well. Amazing job on your sober timers!
@butterflymoonwoman how did your day go love? What lovely things were you able to get for yourself today? Hope you did also get some rest in.
@deelzebub I am so grateful that you were able to call your psychiatric nurse today and have a face to face on the same day. I know that she had said it could take time for the meds to take effect – I too have faith that you will feel better in time ( I am really hoping that it is sooner than later). Grateful for her suggestions – I do hope that daily walks / strolls and taking the kids out will be helpful. Love that you are doing some doodling. Much love dear friend 
@jennyh Way to go on 11 days! Sorry about the hormone and migraine battles. The drinking will not really help in the long term love – it numbs you for such a short time and leaves you feeling so much worse. “a seed has been planted” – dig that shit up and smash it to pieces and blow the remnants into the wind. We remember how hard it is to get back on track. We remember why we are doing this journey – much love to you Jenny! I do know the temptation to wanting to numb the pain in any way possible. I do try to play the tape forward, come here and read around, touch base with my lovely TS friends and then realize that no pain will be erased or eased with my DOC’s.
OH Mike – I am so proud of you and so thrilled for you! Loving how your sober life is working for you as you are working on it 
@catmancam I’m so sorry love that you are feeling depressive and in pain today. I do hope that your therapy starts this year. Are you able to work on the tools you have gained from your recent therapy sessions – do you coloring in the lounge area, go for a walk. Have you started to use your SAD lamp? Not sur what you can do for your pain – I do hope that it gets better for you soon
@barber508 Oh thank goodness that you received your shot today! Hope you are feeling better now.
Checking in on Monday evening
278 days free of alcohol and weed
693 days free of cigarettes
It has been a decent day. I was grateful that the irrigation people showed up on the earlier side of the time slot so my whole day was not destroyed. Unfortunately one sprinkler zone is broken so they were not able to blow out all the zones. I wish i was feeling better because i could’ve fixed this today. Now i have to get someone to come back and fix the valve and blow out the zone before winter. The house looked in pretty good shape - hopefully, i can get it ready next week to put back on the rental market. I did get a good nap in today.
Hope everyone is having a wonderful addiction free day / evening!! Sending you all much love
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hi there lovely folks 
winding down on my 15th day alcohol free, i’ve been so active, almost hyper-active, i am learning that rest is important as my body chemistry and brain function are all changing and adapting to no alcohol. it’s crazy actually. i feel so much more focused and motivated. need to make sure i am giving my body what it needs - especially downtime & sacred moments of reflection throughout the day - so i don’t burn out trying to build a whole castle in a week with this rush of new energy. need to practice more mindfulness, sitting intentionally in silence, breathing deeply and listening quietly. 
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Thanks girlfriend I did have a great day and I hope you do too on yours! It definitely beat being probably blacked out by now. Idk about you, but the whole libra balance thing is real for me. I’d been feeling so off kilter the past few years but I’m finally evening out. Feels good. Keep up the good work! You look better and better every time I see you
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thank you sister! i resonate with libra balance completely! i am with you - feel like we’ve calibrated the extremes enough and now we can better sense the center - and we know better how to maintain alignment with it! rule #1: be sober! 
so glad you had a great day, same here 
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Jetlag. Up since 3 am. Still I got stuff to do today. I’ll manage. Sober and clean.
Going to The Hague to see the file the Dutch secret service has on my dad. He had been a communist as a young man and his father was a well known communist in the 1940’s and 50’s, but the whole family left the communist party in 1956. Still the Dutch government thought it a good idea to keep a tab on my dad’s activities and whereabouts till the 1980’s. His file is still confidential, but as his son I have the right to have a look at it. And take notes.
Curious what I will find. Could be some painful details about his private life. Which was kept from me, all my life. I don’t absolutely need to know all, but I’d still like to know more than I do now. So here we go. Have as good a days as you all can friends. Love from Amsterdam.
PS. Something that I totally did not think of when I made this appointment, is that my dad died 9 years ago on this day. 
@Just_Laura Happy Birthday! Just in time right
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