Checking in 99 days alcohol free
My first semi down weekend in weeks. It was nice to just lay around and sleep. I took long naps both days and figured I needed them. I did house sir for a friend but it was local. Wishing I had another day at home before returning to work.
Cravings I had over the weekend to drink are gone which are nice and my back is feeling pretty good today.
Sleep well sober family.
I just cant believe im at 149 days no weed, 170 days no speed no alcohol and 13 days no cigarettesā¦i am forever greatful towards myself for taking this decisionā¦what a beautiful gift i made myselfā¦finally i am me and boy i love myself. Thanks to all of you for your support š«¶š»love you guys
Have a great 24h
Just for today 
Its sooo important to listen to our body and sleep when we need it 
good night and good day at work tomorrow
Oh and congratulations on your 99 days sober beautiful 
@Sara.eve @DanaM56 Thank you. Means a lot to know that I am not alone, and there are others who can relate. Most people cannot understand whatās going on inside.
Hello all,
Checking in on Day 1,884 Sober.
Thanks
Pampering yourself and getting dolled up doesnāt have to be expensive. Iām a single mom now but I still make it work. My nails always look fly, but I glue them on myself for as little as $3. A single sheet mask for a mini home facial. Epsom salt foot soak and a pedi (if you have the time(I hate waiting for polish to dry 
)). Most all of my makeup is cheap drugstore stuff. And youād be surprised at some hidden clothing treasures at thrift stores. Sometimes brand name items still with tags! I found a $200 pair of Sorel boots for $10! Surprised they were actually my big ass shoe size 
A little TLC goes along way
24
Checking in.
Commited to this life in sobriety.
Will finally joyn a meeting again this afternoon.
Another nice day off alone. I woke up earlier than expected and had energy all day. Iāve been cautiously having a cup of coffee here and there to see how it goes. It doesnāt seem to worsen my anxiety but I wonāt over do it.
I am the most impulsive person when it comes to hairstyles. Iāll go 2 years without a trim and wake up one day and decide Iām cutting a foot off, into some totally different style. That day. Iāll go anywhere that can fit me in. No forethought whatsoever. Keep the style until I get sick of taking care of it (I always forget how high maintenance short hair is), and then grow it out again. Last trim was in February, but itās been my natural color for 5 years now. Started to bore meā¦so my only goal today was to dye my hair. I FUCKING LOVE IT!!! 
Sometimes itās the little things 
Iāll show you guys tomorrow.
I spoke with an ex of mine today for the first time in months. My first love (before my daughters father). I was happy I actually picked up. Thereās been a reason I hadnāt. This whole situation happened right before I came back here, and honestly might have been the reason I did. It is so confusing and complicated and crazy. I will share it when I have A LOT more time.
See yaāll tomorrow
End of day 6:
Not a bad day, didnāt start great, but ended perfectly.
Slept soundly last night, my sleep machine has been doing wonders at helping my brain from running wild. The sound of a crackling campfire with a thunderstorm in the background calms my mind and draws me back to nights in my tent listening to the rain bounce off the stretched canvas.
Woke up, made my coffee while listening to some indie music. Jumped in my truck to go find some breakfast, no bueno, truck wouldnāt start. Hooked up my jumper box, still nothing, batteries wouldnt even take a charge. Luckily my daughter was able to run me down to the autopart store and $400 later and a little work i have two new batteries and a truck that runs.
Good part was seeing my daughter. My son is back in town from college this weekend so i had them both over for dinner. Told them Iād make whatever they wanted and luckily for me they wanted bbq hot dogs and Kraft Mac n Cheese! Cheap easy dinner, but always good, just not exactly healthy! Best part was being with them though.
Afrer they left i had some time to do a little self reflection on my last relapse. It lasted almost two years. I honestly thought i would be able to manage my drinking after being sober for two years, i couldnt have been more wrong. Only took a few months and i was drinking every day again.
The thing about this last relapse was the drinking was never fun, itās just what i did, what i was compelled to do. I was slowly shutting down. Not the life i want. So glad i found the strength to pour it all down the drain.
Itās amazing the difference Iām already feeling after only a week. Thankful for the lessons each of my relapses has taught me, but the time i wasted is unfortunate. I wish i would have taken my sobriety more seriously the first time i got sober back in 2015. Painful lessons learned, but no looking back, just focusing on tomorrow.
Sorry for the long check in, this is what happens when i do a little self reflecting! Haha!
Wishing you all crackling fire and thunderstorm dreams!
Welcome to the thread @ImperfectEcho and @Denver Nice to have to have you here.
Checking in on Day 11. Really pleased with my progress. Quite tired today, with a headache. My first thought on waking was I must have drank last night. Massive relief that I didnāt but still feel a bit rubbish. Even when my chronic fatigue syndrome is in a good place, it still takes me so long to wake up and physically get up. I used to hate staying in bed after waking up. Oh well, this is where I am at and am starting to accept that. Feeling more at peace now I have.
Day 93. Back at work. Today i will be mainly catching up on emailās i think.
Everyone around me is getting use to the idea i donāt drink anymore whixh is helpful . Sometimes they seem a little sad which I kind of understandā¦ Iām not sad. Onwards and upwards
Checking in, 364 days sober from alcohol. My days are very swinging from good, ok and terrible. Today is terrible. Had my mri, waiting for results.
Still going to my psychologist, she have some tougths about wahts going on with me, but want to wait for mri resultat. Perhapse I have somatoform disorder, definitly anxiety and depresjon in various stages.
My psychologist mentioned a word during my tests. I heard it before and had to dig and ask for my papers from earlier psychologist back in 2006/07.(age 18-19) And ohmyyā¦ I had according to this psychologist antisocial behaviour, careless for others, very angry hostil, violent. And I read that I had used different drugs, had alcolproblems and been suicidal trying to end my life. I cant remember all this. Yeah some of it I can recall when I read it. But not all, can I have forgotten it or shut it out of my memory?
I dont know, I was shocked reading this.
Day 1010,
Just saw this as well on my phone when I picked it up. For now still in bed 
, but donāt put me down for itā¦ā¦
Vivitrol shot todayā¦hopefully
1570
Day 49.Have a good week everyone!!
Checking in 30 days AF! 
Day 13.
Itās Monday. Although I am currently not working due too losing my job after me last relapse. I am.happy Monday is here. One week and a day next week be heading to treatment!
Glad my children are all doing well and have started a fresh school week. My youngest spent time with his father this weekend. Althought to unpack here on not. He had fun and came home safe. Will deal.with other areas when I am capable!
A lot of to doās todayā¦putting my recovery first. Jumping on a zoom meeting now. Earlier days doing everything I can to maintain recovery and start to heal. Good 24 allā:pray:t5:
Day 45*
Had a good balance of fun, calm, and productivity this weekend. I feel like Iāve taken care of myself. My goal is to hold onto this positivity longer than Monday afternoon this week. Work has been so stressful and just beating me down week after week. Does everyone feel like this in their work? Is everyone fighting to āget throughā their week and make it to the weekend? I have worked in some very different fields and always felt like this. This is however the first time I feel compensated appropriately for the work Iām doing which does make a difference. Either way, no immediate big changes on the horizon so I need to manage this stress better.
