My long weekend started, which will be interrupted by group therapy tomorrow. Besides that I’ll think of some good stuff to do besides the chores that also are waiting for me here. Whatever I do it’ll be sober and clean. Because using doesn’t help with anything at all. It doesn’t make the bad times better or the good times more enjoyable. Quite the contrary. Never again. Have as good a day as you all can friends. Love.
Pic is from a Live Oak in the Texas Hill Country a week or two ago. Amazing how it can still prosper and bear fruit after a brutal and lengthy drought.
Yes, I’ve decided to give up on HelloFresh as it’s very difficult to get through to customer service as you say. I got them to send me a refund and then I’ll close my account.
On Day 1110 and spent the night in hospital a couple of weeks ago and looks like I’ll be back in tonight. Even after 3 years of sobriety the damage done to your body from decades of abuse may come back to bite you in the arse. We made our choices, we pay the consequences. No point wallowing in self pity or expecting undivided help and attention, like everything else that has happened in recovery we take it one day at a time and do the best we can in any situation.
1110 days and still recovering.
I think i got my answer. I talked to a couple of people that worked at this company. The thing that stood out to me was one of the guys really felt regret for going there. Now granted he went for the Big Pay increase, but money dont buy happiness! He didn’t like the day to day work. That’s what i worried about too. I’ve been recruited heavily by this company, but i care about the day to day stuff. I have a certain level of freedom where i currently am, i’m just not willing to give that up just so i can have more money. Thanks for asking Jazzy! How are you?
Thanks, but its not the self esteem I’m looking for. It’s just the little things in life that I’m actually doing again and noticing they really provide little bits of happiness.
Day 6 AF! I’m feeling great. I’ve taken a mini vacation from work to focus on myself and indulge in some of the hobbies and interests that I have been ignoring in favor of the bars. I feel like a kid again in some respects.
Going to the theater tonight to see a musical based on Elvis. I’m going solo, but I’m good with that. It’s all about me right now.
Went to a sports club for membership. Wanted to swim right away but unfortunately the pool was in use for some group excersises. Now it’s time to plan it in to go 2-3 times a week to heal physically. My tension went real high late in the afternoon yesterday. Called my parents, they came over. They left alive again . Had a quick phone call with my brother, he got nothing to say, he just asked if I had a drink. The stupid idiot, he thought it was a normal question. He’s also still alive. Did a sleep meditation for anger and resentment before going to bed. That helped somewhat. HR send me contact info for a re-integration bureau, need to contact them to make a appointment. So there is movement but damn it triggers me everywhere.
Glad you’re doing so well @Marlowe . Hope you enjoy the musical… Awww I love Elvis
@Butterflymoonwoman hello my Conqueror sister.
I started my challenges with the Flower Route in Amsterdam so I was virtually walking with @Mno
And I finished the Hadrian’s wall Walk too which I would love to do in real life too.
I’ll text you about my experiences later.
Day 134. Made it to school, so I am happy with myself about that, you know I just realized I have not taken my medication in the last like 5 days. I just completely forgot to take them, it may be why I’m feeling off a little bit. I’m not sure but I hope to get it together, Im trying to stop making excuses and do what I say
Day 150, question for some old timers which really is anyone with more time than me or people who have done this before. Anyway last few days I have been having cravings almost to the obsessive point.
I take meds that help with my anxiety,depression and cravings but I’ve learned all that really helps with is 30% and the other 70% is mental… I’m scared this is beginning of a relapse and I want to catch and fix now not later…
Hi @NICKLE5CENTS, so very awesome you are adressing your concerns here at the checkin. I am currently at day 672 free from alcohol and I can relate very much to what you are describing. It happens to me every time I reach a real or imaginary milestone (i.e. 6 months, first party sober, first christmas, 12 months…). I get the unexplicable cravings and I think its because we are used to celebrate achievements in the one way we know best - having a dance with our DOC.
The other occasion I still get cravings is when I am hitting a road block or something is off and I didn’t listen to my inner self well enough what it was I really needed. I’ve become more sensitive to this and have learned to pause and reflect on this before I chose to act.
Either way, its a great thing you are noticing this is happening to you. It gives you the chance to make a conscious choice instead of instantly reacting. I often do the opposite of what my alcoholic brain is commanding me to do in the moment. I call a friend when I want to retreat, I go for a walk in nature when the bars are calling, I actively let the tears flow when I want to numb unpleasant situations. This way you broaden you tool box and learn, that there is a plentitude of other options to make yourself feel good. You got this, friend
. Had a quick phone call with my brother, he got nothing to say, he just asked if I had a drink. The stupid idiot, he thought it was a normal question. He’s also still alive. Did a sleep meditation for anger and resentment before going to bed. That helped somewhat. HR send me contact info for a re-integration bureau, need to contact them to make a appointment. So there is movement but damn it triggers me everywhere.
made a healthy breakfast and I’m making my work lunch now 
