Day 68,
Just checking in.
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Day 374
Iām on my way home but going to pick up my book first (Refuge recovery), it arrived today.
It was a good day at work, my train was on time, Iāll bake another bread today and angel numbers guide my way.
Feeling good, the negative self talk from yesterday is almost gone.
Iāve got this.
Have a beautiful sober day friends, stay strong 
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Double digit day! 10!
After work last night, I chilled on the couch and watched some old episodes of NYPD Blue and chatted with a woman who I knew in high school (barely) whom I recently connected with in a hard rock fan group on Facebook. Small world! It was a great sober evening.
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Iām on day 90 today. Hereās to another day of freedom!
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I woke up early today after a stressful bartending dream. In the dream I jumped behind an unattended bar at a wedding and tried to find the whiskey to serve an old high school friend that I hadnāt thought about in years until yesterday. The inability to find the whiskey turned into a server nightmare (if you know, you know 
). Reading around on here settled my mind. It can wake me but the drinks wonāt take me. 
601 days sober and 6 days until therapy. Keep at it all.
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Made it a week. Day 7 for me. Went out with some work colleagues yesterday who were all drinking and didnāt drink.
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Is that your job as well? Bc I have those dreams(nightmares) all the time! Like, Iām at āworkā but itās a different building and idk where anything is or what Iām supposed to be doing. Or just everything that could go wrong is going wrong 
Server/bartending stress is real!
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@hidden OOH those migraines are a bitch. I do hope you are feeling better today. 3 weeks are officially in the books
@holysquid Love amber! Enjoy the colorā¦ Battling the greys -I know the feeling (working on this myself)ā¦ may just give in to the battle soon and embrace the natural look (nah ā I do love the coloring too much 
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@maestro damn anxiety ā Are you able to take time to do some deep breathing or 10 min meditation? I find listing out gratitudeās helps (just heard yesterday that anxiety lives in the same part of the brain where we go to practice gratitudeās) ā¦ huh ā what do you have to lose? Wishing you well on your 2nd day ā hope you start to feel better soon.
@just_laura My goodness that was a terrifying phone call ā grateful all is ok and thankful your daughter had a phone in the room. Also a nerve wrecking drive home. Thank goodness you made it home safely ā hope nothing major with the car.
@jennyh CF and sensitive nerve endings ā my goodness you are feeling it today. I do hope you were able to get through work ok. How are you feeling now? Are you able to give your body time to rest (give into the CF symptoms)? Sending you hugs and comfort my friend
@2jtravnz wow this was beautiful ā so happy for you and your newly found confidence 
@looking4support Damn the pain ā I do hope the chiropractor can see you soon and help give you relief. You are taking the meds to relieve a symptom of pain not to hide away from life and you are taking them as prescribed (not abusing them) ā sometimes we do need medication to help us heal. 
@mischa84 Keep at your intermittent fasting ā sometimes the scale takes its time to budge (a stubborn asshole as I see it) ā glad you are seeing a difference in how your cloths fit (this is more important than the number). Always coffee first my friend ā I do hope you enjoyed the hell out of that peaceful cup 
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1900 days af is amazing friend! You a badass for sure and 5 days no weed ā come on now - you are crushing it! I do get your meaning about getting and being ready. A difference in the two. I have been getting ready for years but it finally stuck when i was actually ready. Keep kicking ass on this journey!
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My car started just fine this morning, although I felt like I barely made it to the gas station 3 miles away. I filled her to the brim. I hope it was just a fluke bc the last thing I need is another car expense 
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@binx lol you are too funny lady ā I appreciate you and believe me ā many times I read something and totally get a different meaning. This will be my second time renting out the place. My last tenants had to leave abruptly due to family emergency. They did leave me a brand new couch in the basement because it would cause more damage trying to take it out (LOL). I am hoping I get lucky with next rentersā¦ I am going through my realtor so that proper back ground checks can be done (the horror stories scare me). This was my first house and I never thought I would live anywhere else ā weird to see it now ā slowly loosing that attachment. How are you doing lately? Anxiety any better?
@marlowe Double digits Hells yeah!!
@pattycake 90days is amazing ā embrace that freedom my friend!
@phone_home way to get your 1 week milestone and congrats on not feeling temped to drink. Keep up the amazing work.
@trustybird OOF that sounds like an awful dream. Grateful you were able to soothe yourself from reading on the TS site.
@just_laura Oh grateful that the car made it to the gas station - i know iāve had my heart in hand driving and praying many a time. Fingers crossed that it was a fluke - i know sometimes in the past if i wouldnāt drive my car daily it would act funny like it felt neglected. Now i can go days and it knows iām not going anywhere
Checking in on Tuesday morningā¦
Sleep was shit last night. I was in pain and then i was numb and then i was hot no wait cold and then the cycle started all over againā¦ WTF. I enjoyed a classic movie and then tried meditation and almost started to do work or check iin here but thought i would just enjoy the silence. It was nice.
I did practice a shit ton of gratitude in my mind ā I have not yet put it into words but will do so soon.
I am grateful that my brothers GF came by last night and I did not get annoyed with it - didnāt change up my routine and luckily she was gone before i woke up this morning.
I have had my coffee and am on my way to the house ā¦ hope to run some errands and then hopefully a nap in my future ā
Hope you all have a wonderful kickass addiction free day! Sending you all so much love
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Second check in
Today I made the step, back into working out.
I called my power back. I started with very little weight to not kill my muscles in the beginning.
Whatever Covid took away from me, itās mine and I want it back 
Also I had the luck of seeing a very nice pharmacist who recommended something that helps with my sleep thatās non addictive.
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Congratulations! Iām right behind you, on my day 9 today! 
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Morning Yaāll 
Tuesday " check in" for me means I survived the weekend! 10 days sober and actually LOVING IT!
The husband went back to work last night so another week alone and I am a little worried. Last week I hadots to do ( as well as healing my face!) but this week is a different story. Not much to do, garden has been taken care of, and house is clean. Hmmm ā¦what to do, besides not drink?
I also find I am eating a lot more in the last 10 days ā¦ and donāt like it! Anyone else find they are eating more than usual in their early days of sobriety? Is this normal?
And Iām craving sweets, havenāt had sugar in 8 years ā¦ wth is up with that??
Iām hoping to get through this week without that monkey on my back telling me to do dumb things! 
Wishing you all a fabulous STRONG week 
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Hey guys just checking in. Hope you all are doing good. Been on here a little bit more and it seems like most of yous are. IOP and therapy going good. Finally first time ever I feel like I actually want to be sober, instead of just needing to be sober. Guess I finally stopped digging. Have a great rest of the day kids. Love yous
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Great work on double digits.
Totally normal to crave sweets. You are replacing all the sugar and empty calories from drinking. I found ice cream to be most comforting as it was cold and sweet.
Check out this link for ideas to keep yourself busyā¦idle time is the worst for the urges to sink in
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You are most welcome Charlieā¦hope something from the list helps.
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Day 108,.second.check in
Feeling quite bored. I need to plan my evenings better for the coming winter months i think
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