Checking in daily to maintain focus #59

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Latenight checkin.
The moving is moving me!

Painted one room today.
Yesterday I sold the couch, tomorrow someone will pick up the freezer.
It’s exhausting.
I am happy at the same time.
I feel alone.
But also strong.
I have bad thoughts about my body image.
Trying to keep up my morning routine…
Coffee, writing, meditation and a walk.

The rental cat joyned me today in the afternoon, he is a bit shy :sunglasses::heart_eyes_cat::sunglasses:

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I think the Last few days have been better than in long time. It was so nice coming and everyone is so happy to see me. But I want to start carefull so I dont overwork.

No not got any appoinment for gastro yet, but I hope soon.

Ohh wow! What do you think about last seson, and last episode Rest in peace?
I really hope the spin off will come to Norway soon!

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Looks rather stormy at your door today. Are you okay?
Sending you an umbrella :open_umbrella:

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You’re very welcome. It’s a beautiful country and one of my favourite. So close to where I’m from in England, I’ve spent many happy days here over the years… end of day walk this afternoon in Coed Y Brenin

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Hi all! It’s been a while and probably many of the people I knew are no longer active here. I am posting with my tail between my legs (ok metaphorically I don’t have an actual tail although that may be cool now that I think about it). I fell off the wagon. I made an appointment with my doctor for this Thursday to discuss my options and i reached out to my old sponsor. If all goes as planned I will be checking in here again on a consistent basis.

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Nah, I am good as never before. Doors are not as important as what’s are hidden behind them. We all have sort of dark places in our minds, traumas, demons and so on. Does not mean we live that way. Still past is past. It leaves scars, leaves spots. I don’t feel like it triggers me much, but on my last relapses I see that things like what happened on 2011 Helloween still occurs. When I am drunk ( I want to notice that ) I start to listen few songs on and on over again. I researched my history and I want to confront those thoughts while sober, listen those songs, analise them in a positive way. Like an cognitive therapy. Remove those blocks. We tend to forget, tend to hide things somewhere deep in our minds, in shadows. Those doors leads exactly to those places.

I use creative perspective in that way. I don’t like to reveal everything and every detail as I believe when we use creative process, it is better than things reveal them on their own pace, when there are things left for imagination. I like to surprise myself. After all, do we really know who we are? Why then we go to therapist and so on? There are many things undiscovered in each and every one of us. We should dig and explore. It is a journey and it should be exciting. It is ongoing process for me, I like when things are alive, when art is alive. Like music for example. There are music that dances itself, and there are music that is finished and polished from bottom to top - it’s dead, it’s empty.

The Storm is coming…

Thanks for Umbrella
:umbrella:
:smiling_face:

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I fell off and got back on mate. 12 months in a few weeks. We all just keep trying. :slightly_smiling_face::slightly_smiling_face:

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Day 276.

Today’s been a bit better. I’ve spent some time with my mom, cleaned my flat from top to bottom, did laundry, ate nice soup, bought new posh toiletries, bought a new coat, and bought a new pair of trousers.

Ok… don’t judge. I tend to buy shit I probably don’t need when I’m faced with death. Well, I did need toiletries. I probably didn’t need the overpriced ones I got. But they’ll last a while. And I did need a coat. Kinda.

I hardly ever spend money on myself. Especially now I’m not drinking…

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Frank! Good to see you man. I was wondering where you were when I came back. Sorry this is the situation at hand. It’s alright though. You’re in the right place :grin: I’m glad you’re back :heart:

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Welcome back. You’re here and you’re owning your shit, that’s a great way to right the ship.

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Hi all, evening check in at 33 days. Still feeling ill and my anxiety is bad at the moment, like my nerve endings are exposed. A little fragile is how I would describe it. I have never felt stronger in sobriety though, feel like I am making little breakthroughs, actually that may be the source of the anxiety…see, breakthroughs :grin:

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Fantastic YOU!!! :+1::+1:
Check out Jay Shetty’s Podcast “On Purpose”, there are some amazing guests on there. I just started with listening to Podcasts and it is helping me so much.
Have a most splendid day chickie :grin:

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Sorry to hear about what happened @Mindofsobermike but I’m glad you’re still here. Glad you chose honesty for yourself. Please don’t stop fighting. You’re a wonderful person. I’ve never replied but I was with you on your journey and I’m proud of you. A relapse is a relapse, don’t let it define you. Fight yourself back into the ring. You can do it!

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Checking in
Day 80 :white_check_mark:
Great number I guess. Still not feeling the way I wished for mentally but working on it.

Thank you everyone :pray:

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Howdy All :wave::grin:
Sober day #17 for me. Yay!
Had some brutal dreams last night, first time about drinking since I quit. :pleading_face:
Went for a walk with the crew first thing this morning and that put me right :+1:
Spent most of the day making Gnocchi, sweet geezus that is an endeavour!!! Made 270 of the little.buggers, by hand … pretty.please.with myself :smiling_face:
Added a picture of the Ravioli my hubby and I made.the other day as well.
It’s a grey, drizzly day here but I’ve got lots to keep me busy. Like a nap!!! :rofl:
Hope everyone is right with the world.today and you are taking positive steps forward :purple_heart:


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:sunny: Checking In :sunny:
Day 611
Am having a pretty relaxed day. Didnt do too much. Went to the gym this morning and then ran a couple errands. Got some groceries and did some cleaning in the apartment. All n all everything is good :+1: Just waiting for my son to come home from school now. Hope everyone is having a good day! :butterfly:

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Welcome back Frank! Sounds like u have a good plan in place to get back on track. Hope to see u posting more

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Wow that looks like sooo much work, but i bet itll be sooo worth it. Ive always wanted to try and make pasta but find it intimidating lol glad ur day improved :slight_smile:

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So I am not the only one who shops through death? This is good to know. Enjoy those posh toiletries no judgment here lady! Xo.

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Thank you, Mira. It makes me feel better that I’m not the only death-shopper around!

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