I think the only hang up for me is, I don’t feel tempted for the real stuff by having one non alcoholic option. I wouldn’t have felt okay in the first few months or even year to have a fake wine or beer. I avoided things that made me feel the temptation, to protect myself and my sobriety. I wanted to hear some outside perspectives though, so Thankyou 
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12 no marijuana in any way shape or form 
162 no alcohol
93 no vapes or cigs
Today I got my driver’s permit
I can drive with supervision : ))
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Checking In
Day 613
Spent the day with hubby today. It was really nice! I worked out in the morning and then we went to the fish store to get a few things for our fish. We recently got a larger tank (a 75 gallon one) for our flowerhorn and it needed a new light, wave machine etc. I ordered some new shoes for my son (special ones that fit his orthotics) and then made another appt with the dental clinic to finish my teeth cleaning. Thats in November. Got a lot done today!
Tomorrow is flu/covid shots for me and my son and then going to pick up his new glasses. Really am thankful for recovery and all the opportunities it brings. Hope everyone is doing well! Will have to catch up on the thread in a bit 
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This was hard for me too. For me – I try to remind myself that it is just flavored poison and I don’t rely on that anymore. You are doing fantastic with 117 – I do hope the sad feeling did not last. You are crushing it!
@catmancam Oh wow – so cool that you will have 12 sessions with your psychologists. Do hope this is fruitful. Sounds like a very full week Cam. Glad to see you engaging with these courses (I am sorry about Tuesday’s session). It took a lot of courage to open up and share. Thank you for sharing your tattoo with us – it is beautiful! So grateful that you are working through your past and creating new beautiful beginnings for yourself. Bigs hugs my friend 
I have spent a day and a half resting myself – do not feel rested but tired of laying down. I know it will sort itself out soon. The rainy cold weather does not help any.
@frank68 so grateful that you were able to be honest with your doctor and that he was able to provide you with help with the withdrawals. Keep up the great work. All we can do is chip away one day at a time and stack up the results. 
@sadmemequeen Ah Megan – it really saddens my heart to read your words. You are doing great on 596 days of no SH. I wish I could hug you and help you realize how worthy you are of living a healthy fulfilled life -so much out there to life for. I do hope your doctor can help you with your symptoms and get you feeling better but I do think you should also start talking to a nutritionist or dietician to help you start eating again. I am sorry you are feeling this way and that you don’t have someone in your corner in real life looking out for you. I am here if you need to talk. 
@amy30 I’m sorry you are struggling with words – yes, your brain may have gone into shock mode and associates your working with bad news. Be patient (I know that isn’t easy when you have deadlines) but it will get better. DAMN – I do know that cysts can reappear when your body is stressed out (and you have been through a lot of stress recently). I know it sucks but do try to make that appointment sooner than later as if it bursts, you could be facing further problems (been there). A warm compress also helps soothe the pain – I do hope you are not in much pain. Sending you healing vibes.
@hoss Ah Martha – I am sorry for the relapse. Day 1 is amazing – you got right back on the sober track and booked an Airbnb to distance yourself from temptation. I think you are doing amazingly well – grateful to see you checking in. Fingers crossed that Monday is move in day – super excited for you!
@alycia 569 days is remarkable and wow – I love hearing about the warm weather rolling in. I myself enjoy a NA white wine or some NA beers (when I could do gluten) from time to time. I like you enjoyed the taste and like more options but do not want to get buzzed or escape. I know this is different for everyone and the bottom line is that you need to be true to yourself – know your intentions and your boundaries. Its summer time and you want a “cold one” when chilling – now why does a “cold one” necessarily have to have alcohol? I know many threads on NA drinks on this forum if you want to see others point of views.
@noshame WOOT WOOT!!! You are not only killing it with your timers but today you got your drivers permit!! Time to celebrate my friend – so happy for you!
@butterflymoonwoman You did get a lot done today. Grateful that you and hubby got some time today. Take it easy for the weekend - the Covid / flu shots can be stressing.
Checking in on Thursday evening
I did spend a lot of time in bed today. Couldn’t fall asleep but do feel like I rested. The pain and itchiness is intense but bearable. I am hoping to get some computer work done now for a few hours before bed. No urges today so i am grateful for that.
Wishing everyone a wonderful addiciton free day / night - sending you all so much love 
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thank you it means a lot
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2500 days! Been really stressed today but think I am finally almost over it. Work and car stuff. I didn’t drink and now Ive got this.
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way to go Karen - 2500 days is amazing!
sorry for the stress - hope it gets easier for you. here if you need us
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Thank you Jasmine!
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I appreciate you for that jazz
Evening of day 12 162 93
Celebrations can be a tight rope huh for us addicts alcoholics
I wanted to smoke weed just a little today but I know that’s a step in the wrong direction
After talking to my wife I learned if I’m sober I have a choice to be sober but if I’m not I have no choice but to get high. Like for us addicts alcoholics we want to get high and drunk which brings me back to celebrating. I can get high to celebrate but what would stop me from getting high during a failure. Us addicts alcoholics want to get high and drunk no matter what the reason. Sober, I have a choice; picking up I don’t have a choice but to get high or drunk
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Great job Karen. 2500 days is freaking amazing.
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Aw, thanks Eric. Love the d.j. cats!
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At work. Feeling a bit sick. Last few days feeling a bit weaklish. Feels like cold to me. I think its from last Sunday Half Marthon. The part where I was running and filming, where the Hydroelectric Power Plant is - there was really strong and cold wind. I was already at around ~14’th kilometer and all wet in sweat. Combine that with cold wind and… boom. Then on Tuesday I did a workout at gym, and muscles was feeling really weak. Something was off. Wednesday I was all shaky and weak. I was hoping to feel better today, but the result are not perfect. All good. No workout today, tho I would like too, body says No.
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Ooooo sleepy
Miss my babies & hubby, but happy to be with my besty. We spent some time beading, making bracelets and eatinf good food by the fire.
Hope everyone has a good 24 & hoping I can sleep in tomorrow xo to everyone.
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13 no form of marijuana
163 no alcohol
Day 94 no vapes or cigs
I’m going to work on standing up for myself in a useful manner
Use my words but not harsh
Slightly toung in cheek
Someone was acting creepy to me and my wife and it came out of nowhere so I had no clue what to do
Next time
Slightly toung in cheek
“No thank you, we’re good”
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246 - 8101214161820 (just felt like counting by twos 
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Anyway. Another good day. I’ve been feeling lighter somehow. I don’t really know how to explain it but it feels good. Happy and energetic. Yeah. It’s nice.
I’m pretty tired now so I hope you all have a good one!
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Well f&ck. Having bartended in my relatively small city for 10 years of my drinking career I met a lot of cool drunks. Today one of them died. He was in his 30s.
I won’t get another hug from Big Tom so I’ll do him one better. I will live my life addiction free today and probably tomorrow too. I am 610 days alcohol free today and I know I could throw that away at any time. I won’t. I’ll live. Choose life ya’ll, it goes fast and quite a bit faster for drinkers.
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Day 384 alcohol free
Day 5 social media detox
Sleep was good but I dreamed some crazy shit and woke up around 3 am 
The book I’m reading is about some young adults who find a UFO that has a conscious AI, a galactic federation and some evil forces, very interesting. But yeah, it found its way into my dreams 
I can focus better while reading and I’m almost able to draw pictures of every scene in my head again, as I used to in the past.
Now I’m heading to work, soaking wet and tired.
Yay it’s Friday 
Have a beautiful sober day friends, stay strong 
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Day 31:
Pretty uneventful day. First day back to work after being sick. Felt a little sluggish to start the day, but quickly got into the swing of things. Work load was light today so that was good. Able to get into Scheels to buy some new clothes. Home early, laundry, prosciutto and pear pizza for dinner, Thursday night football and that’s about it. I know you’re all jealous of my exciting day!
I did get a phone call from my ex who abruptly moved across the country a little over a month ago. She’s struggling and it’s hard not to feel indifferent about it. She made the choice, completely on her own, so I feel like she needs to accept her choices and just move forward. I was nice, calmed her down and suggested some meditation techniques to try and help her sleep.
Discussed how she made her choice and now she needs to stop looking back and focus her efforts on her future. Really don’t know what else to say.
Another moment where I was so happy I was sober, able to listen to her and respond with kindness, but maintained my boundaries that she made her choice and coming back is not an option. This is the second time she has abruptly left and moved across the country on me. I’ve learned my lesson, but wish her nothing but the best. I need to do what’s best for me as well.
Time for me to get some sleep, good night sober family.
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Checking in on day 355.
Another poor sleep due to the weather outside, but looking forward to “fat Friday” in the office where we order in some cooked breakfast for everyone.
Looking forward to a chilled weekend. Couple of hours working out on both mornings, and hopefully spend the rest of the time watching football (soccer) on the TV. Might try to get along to see one of my local teams play too, if the weather settles down.
Happy Friday everyone.
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Checking in, Day 36. I am another one that slept badly last night due to the storm. Quite tired now.
But, it is Friday and a half day, and then I am off until next Thursday. This leave has caught me by surprise really.
Off to the Friday thread now. Have a good day everyone
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